I wanna wake up feeling beautiful today.

(Ripped from Tumblr)

"Sometimes the best creations happen in the limbo between control and chaos, and learning how to harness that energy can help you triumph over life's unscripted moments."

-Adapted from The Art of Improvisation, Kinfolk

Hello June. I hope that from today onwards, everyone can forget all the sorrow and dullness that shrouded us previously, and focus on welcoming the colours and happiness into our life. :D Cheers to a better month ahead! And I'm excited because I'll be leaving this land to my second favourite land in three weeks time! Woosa! (:

Every storm runs out of rain,
Just like every dark night turns into day.
Every heartache will fade away,
Just like every storm runs out of rain.

They say that the world was built for two and only worth living if somebody is loving you.

(Ripped from tumblr)

People go, they fade away. They pull away from our lives. They disappear completely, forcing us to pick up the remnants and piece them up again. And the reason? Perhaps this isn't the time to point fingers, but instead to reflect on ourselves. Life is harsh. Life teaches us many lessons, but most importantly, lessons on ourselves.

Change is the only constant. Things will never remain the same way as they did previously. Things change. People change. It is only when changes occur that allow us to learn from it and to become a better and stronger person.

And yes, I think I am stronger now.

Though memories still flash back at times, and sometimes could be painful and overwhelming, I figured that instead of trying to forget all about it (which I feel that it is impossible to forget as some things/people will just be etched in our memories which will haunt us continually),  we should embrace the bad memories, whilst retain the happy moments. Am I right?

Can we pretend that airplanes
in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now.

And it was like slow motion.

I figured that if I am paid to do tutoring sessions with my sister, I'd had become a billionaire now. :/ It didn't help that she already finished her exams, her homework is piling up once again, and I'm dragged down once more. Ohgawd. I'm dog tired .____. I didn't even have an elder sibling to consult for my homework last time. :/ 

And I'm bored recently. There's not much social media updates. And everyone on a blogging hiatus?! There's nothing much to do with my phone these days. Sighpie.

So anyways, I've been eating out for lunch recently with the colleagues because the company's peak period was finally over. And after three weeks of eating out consecutively everyday, I'm starting to miss the days where I camp in the office for lunch :/

(Healthy living)

Looks good, doesn't it? I miss the salad my mama prepared for me for lunch-in. Sighpie. I have enough of hawker food. Hokkien mee, char kway teow, carrot cake. Omg. No more, no more.

(KFC)

And throwback to the KFC meal a few weeks ago wih my family. Tried their Bandito for the first time and realised that it suck. Even suck couldn't paint the picture quite right. :3

That contrast.

This town is alive with lights that blind,
Keeps me awake.
With my head up and lace untied,
The streets fill my mind.
Don't control what I'm into.

Beauty attracts the eyes but personality captures the heart.

(NUS with babes)

A. NUS FASS Openhouse

Went for NUS FASS openhouse last Saturday with my girl. How many openhouses have we already went to? T.T We talked to many seniors around, from Global Studies to South Asian studies, and I feel that they are really nice people. Friendly and all.  On the contrary, I feel that the psychology majored seniors are kind of cold. They either ignore you directly / talk among themselves and ignore you. To be honest, I really do not like the environment there. T.T

We know that there will be a series of talks scheduled. So we went to ask this psychology senior the location of the talks, and she just stare at us blankly, like huh what talks. And instead of trying to help us ask around, she did absolutely nothing. Wow, claps. We finally found our way to the talks after wandering around for eons, only to realised that we only left 10mins to the end of the talks, so no point already.

Chaomin did manage to go for the talk, and I realised another idiot thing from NUS. There will be a bell-curve marking for psychology?! Like whut. I'm sure they have a lot of 'surprises' up there. Initially they only said that the only criteria to declare psychology as your major is getting a B- for BOTH modules. I kept asking if there are any quotas and they kept replying no. Seniors and professors alike, they all gave the same answers.

I don't believe them. How can they not have a quota T.T I may be dumb but not to the extent of gullible. And so Chaomin confirmed my suspicion. Yeahs, there's a bell-curve. Zzz, this route isn't going to be easy. T.T /cries/

At this point, I really learnt critical skills of questioning and suspecting and perhaps getting evidence to support your claim. Is the school training me to be a crime scene investigator? That moment when you question your suspects, and they all refuse to speak the truth. And you'll have to try out other means to get the truth out. T.T Oh wow.

But I accepted NUS offer. Sighpie. It all boils down to branding and reputation of the school. I hope I have no regrets. I have plenty of reasons to choose NTU and only that one reason to choose NUS T.T

NUS openhouse undoubtedly is boring, but the number of free goodies made up for it. I got passport cover, umbrella, sweets, cookies and many others. We finished walking the NUS openhouse in like only 1.5h (inclusive of the time we wandered all the way to the business school). And so we decided to travel all the way to SMU tea party (which is also held on the same day).

B. SMU Tea Reception

SMU openhouse is also boring, with a series of talks being held for an hour. Arghs. Rubbing my eyes consistently to avoid dozing off. But heh, there is a buffet as always. I have a great time eating. :D

C. NTU Tea Party

And I went for NTU tea party today with Manda. Met two girls on the way, who are under the Chinese Studies major, and I felt that they are very friendly creatures. :D We made small talks, and I realised they were actually older than us. Hmm, I feel like a 小妹妹 again. Hahahahas!

Yanlin and Manda's friend came to join us later for the talk in the auditorium. Then after the one hour talk, we were split up into our divisions for the buffet and another psychology-specified talk. The buffet is no doubt delicious - I think it is on par with SMU's. But I love the eclairs here hahahahas! :D

Headed for the psychology talk where they teach us about babies and their thinking, which is quite interesting. But I'm trying my best not to doze off because I guess it has been a long time since I attended lectures, and I do not have a pen and paper with me to keep me awake LOLOL! (: But wah, at least I learnt something useful during the NTU tea party. The other two universities did not touch on their curriculum at all, so it is a waste of time, except that I can enjoy goodies and free food. :3

Another reason as to why I prefer NTU.

But okay whatever. Since I accepted NUS, I will make do with it T.T

There's a firefly loose tonight,
Better catch it before it burns this place down.
And I lie, I don't feel so right,
but the world looks better through your eyes.

I'm always outside on the inside.

What is happiness?

Happiness is when your CFO goes overseas for a meeting yet she didn't forget about you...

(Treats from Germany!)

Waseh! For a non-chocolate lover like me, I have to admit that these sweet treats are absolutely delicious. I'm in cloud nine. /blissful/ Hahahas! :D Time to hit the gym to burn off the calories /procrastinates/ LOLOL!

It has been close to six months for this job (they should hire me as a permanent staff instead of temporary rights!), and I'm truly loving this closely knit bond. My colleagues, superiors and bosses all took great care of me. To be honest, I am quite reluctant to leave this job (so why didn't they hire me as permanent T.T). There's nothing for me to hiam (嫌弃).

1) The distance's great

2) The pay's not bad

3) I get to enjoy aircon whole day

4) Sometimes I'll hitch a free ride home from my HR manager

5) There's always free food (eg. currypuffs, bread, chocolates, pancakes etc)

6) The food in my area are relatively cheaper as compared to shopping malls

(so I get to save quite a lot)

7) My superiors are understanding (I often leave the workplace 10 mins before my 放工时间 and they didn't dock my pay or anything)

(I believe it is the cleaner who did it to my table)

I'm sure I can still find more reasons, but yeahs, too lazy to think now. :P My contract supposedly will end in May (~ two weeks time), but I am not sure if they are going to renew my contract for another month. And this is bad, because I cannot predict what's in front of me (as in, whether I'd be jobless), and I hate this. 我的前途是未知数. So do I start my job hunt or what? T.T

But anyways, I still felt the need to reciprocate 他们对我的照顾. So as a gesture to thank them, yours truly got down busy to bake something small for them.

Zeng zeng zeng!

(Cornflakes cups)

Hahahahas, okay. It is actually super easy to make these. But then again, I'm an amateur baker and this is the only thing that I can do without assistance from my mummy, so... Hahahahas! (: And my close friends should know that I will shun the kitchen at all costs. :3 Ohwell, it is the thought that counts! 

I wanna be drunk when I wake up,
on the right side of the wrong bed.
And every excuse I made up,
tell you the truth I hate.
What didn't kill me, it didn't made me stronger at all.

I am under no obligation to make sense to you.

A friend is someone who gives you total freedom to be yourself.

(Ripped from Tumblr)

Types of people I abhor:

1) People with no common sense

I don't despise people who are not suited for studying, but I despise those who don't use their brains when they have a smart one. i.e. ask stupid questions when the answers are laid in front of them in an obvious manner.

2) Domineering freak who loves controlling others' life and telling them what to do

Those who wants others to follow his 'orders', to be at his beck and call. Hey, we are living in the 21st century now. Everyone's equal. I have my own brains please. I can make decisions myself.

3) Sticky pestering person who wouldn't go away although you tried all kind of various methods to shun them

I'm ain't a magnet please.

4) People with no self-confidence

He who is afraid that people may leave him and stop being friends with him, and thus causing him himself to have some psychological depression and became suspicious of everything as a result.

And congratulations. You hit all four 'nails' on the head. I cannot fathom why exactly you kept thinking that we ain't friends. You said I shouldn't act this way just because I'm tired due to work. But y'know what? Yes, I'm tired because of work. But I'm even more tired talking to you. Why must I undertake your interrogations?

Freedom.

The state of being free or at liberty rather than in confinement or under physical restraint.

So stop telling me what to do. I have the right to freedom.

Don't confuse my personality with my attitude.

My personality is who I am.

My attitude depends on who you are.

There is no sincerer love than the love for food.

Needle in the haystack, limited edition.

Rare and original, indeed.

Thanks Vian ☆

(I love huggies)

(Smiley smiley)

Long overdued post, but thanks to le bestie for bringing me out to Lady M, Orchard Central. We have to meet up soon! Missing my cafe-hopping days. Awww, thanks for giving me something to look forward to after a long day at work.

(Eggs Benedict with salmon)

First impression: great wobbly eggs

I love it! But hahahas, the dish looks abit plain though with no 'side-dishes' at the side lmao, but it tasted great nonetheless! :D

(Tarte Au Citron)

My new-found love: Citrus tarts

I love the sour taste lingering on my tongue. LOLOL! I figured my favourite is no longer cheesecake, but citrus-flavoured tarts. ♡

(Vanilla Mille Crepe)

It smells nice, but a little too bland for me. I prefer something with a stronger taste; maybe I should have ordered the green tea crepe instead. But ohwell! The crepe cake itself is nice and I enjoy peeling the layers of it while savouring it in my mouth. :D

A short meet-up over dinner is what I need to revitalise for the week. 谢了! Happy midweek everybardy!

Another thing you should
Have known from the start.
The problems in hands are
Lighter than at heart.