Happy people focus on what they have. Unhappy people focus on what's missing.

"When one door closes, another opens"

I would want to believe in this. No, I should believe this.

I wouldn't say this was a pleasant experience, but I feel that nonetheless it was a good learning point for me. I think I have grown much from this incident. I learnt to be more independent, but most importantly, I start to understand myself better. At least, I have a better idea of what I want to do in the future (and what I don't want to do).

The root of the problem boils down to miscommunication and lack of rapport. It takes two hands to clap, so I admit that I did not play my part well also. Being a communications student, I say this is a good learning point because it allowed me to experience firsthand the impacts of ineffective communication.

(My biggest takeaway, Natalie)

It was a bad incident that I will never ever want to experience again. But despite all the bad happenings, I am still grateful to all the nice people I met. Small little acts such as sharing food may be a small matter to someone else, but it matters a lot to me. It makes me feel appreciated, and that my efforts were being recognized. It makes my heart warm and fuzzy, and that's the reason why I joined them in the first place.

I'm thankful to all the friends that I've made during my short stint.

(Dearest Natalie, I saw the words "twelve cupcakes" on the packaging, but why I only receive two?! LOLOL!!)

To Natalie, Chongyi and Anis: Thanks for looking out for me and taking care of me. Even though we only see each other that few times in a week because of my part-time schedule, thanks for staying by and making me feel a sense of belonging. Thanks for standing on my side. Even though we are powerless, thanks for restoring my faith in humanity once again.

He found the wild
Trapped within my heart.
Instead of trying to tame it, 
He tore the cage apart.

To love without knowing how to love wounds the person we love.

(Ripped from Tumblr)

I still think of you occasionally.

But today, for some reason, I miss you exceptionally.

I hope you are doing well.

She is strong but when you had her,

know that she is fragile.

Be gentle, speak soft words to her,

slowly run your fingers through her hair.

Hold her as if she is a newborn,

and it's the first time that you've

laid eyes on her.

We didn't realize we were making memories, we just knew we were having fun.

I'm sorry that this post came exactly one month late. I was having exams then, so I was too lazy to draft it out hahaha! Oops, forgive me. (:

(My bestie and I)

Happy belated birthday to my dearest bestie Amanda Seah - my aunt agony, my human hugger and my 出气桶 LOL!! Most importantly, my constant companion for the past few years (minus the past six months because you were away for exchange sobs).

(Throwback to the time when we returned to AJC as J5s)

Hahahaha, thank you for being my biggest takeaway from JC. (: What would I do without you? I still remember the times whereby I always pester you for answers because I'm forever stuck with my homework. LOL, and I always ask you for advice about everything. Thanks for encouraging me on and not giving up on me, and shaping me into who I am today. :D

Throwback to the time we returned back to AJC this May. Everything still looks the same but Amanda was suffering from memory loss because she mixed up the locations of the canteen stalls gosh. How can you forget your alma mater?!? We saw many teachers also, but they are still the same after all these years. Mr Bell is still buying coffee in the middle of the lessons (except this time he bought the coffee himself, instead of asking the GP representative to do the job - I was that GP rep back then LOL). Ms Yeo is still very dedicated giving consultations outside the general office. And Wendy Ng is still a fashion disaster HAHAHA.

(Yayoi Kusama Museum Tripping)

Oops I digressed. Back to the birthday girl LOL. This Yayoi exhibition was the last trip I went out with her before she flew for her exchange! I hope she is having fun over there before she come back and face NUS again hahahaha. But of course she is having fun, because she is having too much fun over there that we only Skyped twice throughout the past few months. Zzz. I'm so saddened by your act, Amanda :(

(Waiting for the bus after lunch at IKEA)

She's my favourite breakfast/lunch/dinner partner. Hahaha, with her around, I don't have to eat waffles alone. I am getting so sick of waffles already LOL. Quickly come back and accompany me to IKEA for lunch dates again! I have also been meaning to try The Tea Party at NUS Sports Hall for the longest time, but haven't had the chance to :( Amanda faster come back from your exchange, so we can go on our cafes/kopitiam/dessert-hopping soon! :DD

(Going all crazy at the Singapore National Museum)

Museum dates are the best because we always end up with million of nice pictures. All 'dem sweet memories coming back in a flash as I looked through our pictures together. Hahaha! :D Thanks for letting me feel comfortable around you. Thanks for allowing me to put down my guard and be myself around you.

I hope you had a great day celebrating your birthday! Once again, happy 21st babe! ❤

The deeper your scars, the more 
room there is o fill them up with love.
Don't hate your scars,
appreciate their depth.

May the next few months be a period of magnificent transformation.

Took two weeks plus but my module mapping was finally approved! And I also managed to secure those modules already. One less thing off my plate hahaha (: I'm grateful, thank you.

Met up with Moehan and Weina today (half of the JC clique), because Yangfan and Amanda were overseas for their studies, boohoo. Hahaha, guess who was late again. Thankfully I still managed to get Macs breakfast in time because the kind souls helped me order! (:

They are my low-maintenance friends because we only meet up like once a year (oops), but really thankful because our friendship is still going strong. Despite not seeing each other often, we can still joke around and crap nonsense. Hahahaha (: Really, really grateful for them.

Guys, I will book y'all two months advance for Chinese New Year. Hahahaha please make time for me. LOL!

(Egg Fried Rice)

(红油抄手)

Headed to Ding Tai Fung with Huiqi for dinner afterwards. Ordered plain egg fried rice to go with 红油抄手 which is damn delicious. (: Yay!

(Xiao Long Bao)

And not to forget about our favourite xiao long baos! :D

Sighs, now that it's the December holidays, I feel very restless because I have nothing much to do. All I do now is either catching up with friends, doing housework or clearing my wardrobe. LOL, damn sian. Hard to find any jobs/internships also because I'm going overseas soon for two weeks. T.T

Take all the bitterness inside you
and turn into growth.
Show the people who hurt you
how you turned the pain into
beauty despite their betrayed oaths.

Your perspective on life comes from the cage you were held captive in.

It's funny how I am busier when exams are over. LOL. There are so many things piling for me to do. T.T

I'm currently planning my itinerary for a Taiwan trip in two weeks' time, so if anyone have any recommendations please let me know! It's been like my fifth time to Taiwan already? LOL, so I would like to explore those hidden gems. :D The ones that I found on the Internet are quite mainstream hahahas. Thanks in advance!

Celebrated my grandma's birthday last weekend at Tunglok Teahouse @ Square 2. It was located at quite an ulu place seriously despite it being in a mall. I thought it was Saizeriya at first glance, because the colour theme and layout both look the same oops. x.x

(Tender Chicken)

(Mushroom with tofu thing)

(Xiao Long Bao)

(Fried Rice)

(Kueh)

(Chicken feet)

(龟苓膏) 

Hearsay 龟苓膏 is good for health, but not everyone likes it. Hahaha, I finally found a food stuff that my grandfather doesn't eat. LOL, they were traditionally made with tortoise shell, but I guess those that we are eating now are just made with Chinese herbs? Not too sure about this though!

Lunch at Tungluk Teahouse was a pleasant experience overall. But it's funny because I have to refill my own glass of water. Not that I am lazy or anything, it's just that I have all along feel that Tunglok is the type of restaurant which would provide quality service to all customers. So it came as a surprise to me when I realized that I had to refill my own glass?

And sighs, I'm craving for Oni (yam paste) so badly suddenly. T.T

When society has its way with me
I lose sight of values
and what's important to me.
The universe within
She has a way of healing
helping me to see clearly my humanity.

Moonlight drowns out all but the brightest stars.

Last paper down and this concludes the end of my Y3S1. Time flies, and I can't believe this is already my fifth semester in school. This semester has been hell of a rollercoaster ride - nothing is going smoothly. I'm just glad that it is finally over. I will worry about my grades when it comes three weeks later. I'm in a terrible need of a break.

Met the mother for a Pizzahut lunch because I absolutely love their student meals and their $8.90 set lunches. But the service at the CCK branch is still as bad, and the cleanliness remains an issue. x.x Sighs. However, the plate of spaghetti seems bigger now! Or did they only upgrade the size of the plate (not the amount of spaghetti LOL)? But anyways, it was nice and warm and good and filling. I am satisfied.

(Garlic Bread)

(Chicken Pomodoro)

(Hawaiian Personal Pan Pizza)

(Honey Wings)

Kind of over-ordered, because we thought that the sister will join us. But it turned out that she already ate, and it was something even better LOL. We managed to finish everything on the plate because food wastage is a nono. Hahaha :D

Went Health Promotion Board the other day with the mother to collect the Completer's Set under the National Step Challenge campaign, (: I was quite excited because we have an exclusive tracker for those people who completed all 6 tiers of the challenge the last season. This new tracker is so much better than the previous one! It looks more chic and there are more functions, such as the heart rate and calories. Yay to freebies!

(Starbucks 1-for-1)

Because the queue was rather long, I decided to grab Starbucks while waiting. Starbucks is back with their promotions for Christmas drinks! We grabbed a toffee nut and decided to try their new flavor - vanilla nougat. Verdict: I like vanilla nougat better! But the mother said it was too sweet. T.T

Anyways, it's funny how we were queueing to get our HPB trackers, like it was supposed to be a healthy living thing, but we were waiting in the queue with a Starbucks in our hands. Talk about healthy.

And I ended up queueing for 3.5 hours which is really damn long. Thank goodness the weather is forgiving, and I have nice aunties to talk to hahaha! We talked for 3.5 hours, goodness. T.T They are quite a funny bunch of people. But the queue was mainly made up of aunties and uncles, is it a sign that that I'm fast becoming one of them... LOL kidding.

The only boundaries

are the ones we create in our minds

the ones we create with excuses

the ones we share and add onto

we put the boundaries

which leads to our own limits

our own limitations

Friendly reminder to love yourself.

Feeling so depressed.

Two papers down finally, and one more to go. The past two papers were so tricky, especially NM2201. Wtf, why did people recommend me to take that module and send me to die T.T My mind just blanked out when she specifically asked for theories by specific persons. And I'm just like there's so many theories explaining the same concepts, and I have problems remembering all the theories already, and I'm also supposed to remember who created them? T.T Ded.

I ended up getting a Jumbo ice-cream cone from McDonalds to cheer myself up. It's a new product from Macs and the cone really looks damn delicious in the poster.

($3.50)

Actually it's nothing much. It's just normal vanilla cone drizzled with chocolate and caramel sauce, topped with a mini oreo biscuit. LOL, but the chocolate cone taste surprisingly good! It is crispy :D Okay luh, it's nice! I love ice-cream hehehes!

Throwback to last weekend at Pioneer Hawker Center with the family. My mother had always wanted to bring us here because they sell 'exotic' food LOL.

(Pioneer Hawker Centre)

By the way, this hawker centre has got the tray return robots! This is real, hahaha. The tray return machines will 'walk' around the hawker centre, and when people walk towards them (to put their trays), they will automatically stop in front of you.

Hahaha, but I guess what incentivise me more is when I return the trays at the tray return corner (instead of using the robots), you get back a dollar! Of course, the auntie in me is unleashed. LOL, will definitely return the trays because a dollar is enough for me to buy a vanilla cone from Macs.

This brought me back to thinking: why does Singaporeans not have the habit of returning the trays? My previous project with Mr Yang, the creator of the campaign Face of the Day, also tried to address this issue as well. "Why is it that when people left schools, they forgot how to return their trays?" However, I feel that the youngsters are still doing fine, generally it might be people of the older generation? Habits are hard to change.

(Pumpkin-flavored noodles)

I excitedly ordered this bowl of noodles for lunch. To be honest, I cannot taste any pumpkin taste in the noodles, so it just totally feels like I'm eating the normal banmian. T.T And this costs more than my normal banmian because of the pumpkin. Disappointed.

(Blue Pea flavored noodles)

This also tasted like normal banmian. Omg, I feel so cheated T.T On the bright side, they have lower calories than the normal banmian. Okay, I will take it as I'm paying more for healthier options. Finding positivity in every situation. LOL. 

Can you hear my heart howl at the end

It's the wolf that I keep deep inside.

I've been holding her back but tonight

Tonight we run wild.