And yes, it's a beautiful mess.

This was a super throwback post. Hahahahas! (: Procrastination just got the better of me.

(PDG 09/13 Girls' Chalet)

Hahahahas! So glad that me and Manda had the impulse to organise this chalet because we had such great fun before university starts. Psssh, this was the first time that I actually organised a class event (even though it was just co-organised), but I felt so proud of myself after the entire thing. (Y)

(Starbucks' white chocolate yuzu chiffon cake)

So before we meet the girls, I met Manda first after work to head to Bedok Mall for lunch. I dragged her along because I haven't been there before and my 'Dora-the-explorer' instinct decided to kick in. Hahahahas! (: As usual, we couldn't decide what to eat, and so we just went to chill at Starbucks. And just nice, Starbucks was having a one-for-one cake promotion. Whoopie! :D

After 'lunch', we walked over to Downtown East, D'resort, under the scorching hot sun, thanks to Manda because she didn't want to take the bus. Why sia?!

(Chalet's lobby that looked so high-class)

(Our room!)

(The BBQ area which is directly outside our room)

So I was super excited at the sight of out chalet room because it really did looked and smelled like a legit hotel room, with the lighting and facilities and all. And it costed only $280+ for two nights (if I didn't remember wrongly).

P.S. Pardon Manda's face in all my photos. She really need to maintain and stop appearing in all my photos!

First day: BBQ night

So we checked in late afternoon and only had time for BBQ dinner. BBQ was a success even with all girls! (: But this was one of the rare few occasions that I actually stood near the fire to help out. Proud of myself! Yay! :D

(Jocelyn hard at work)

Special thanks to Jojo and Evelias for starting the fire. It was really tough job. :3 Thanks Yiran for being helpful and helping us to bring margarine and ice tray and everything, and reminding us to bring lighter to start the fire. (I actually forgot about it omg). Thanks to the rest who helped to prepare and barbeque the food. Life's great!

Night was even better because Manda decided to bring up all her mind games (that she played during psychology camp), so she had fun trying to make us guess the trick to her mind games. And she definitely made all of us looked like idiots trying to figure out the game omg. It was fun though!

Played other games like Murderer and Cards against Humanity, as well as 中级密码 amongst others. Then we had a mini heart-to-heart talk session whilst playing Truth or Truth :P Glad to know the other clique better. :D

Second day: Wild Wild Wet (WWW)

Woke up late because we slept at around 3plus the night before and everyone was just so shag. After a long nua-ing session in the room, 6 of us decided to head out to WWW. We have 4 free tickets, so thankfully we only need to buy 2 tickets and divide among the 6 of us. #typicalsingaporean #cheapskate

(Our faces before WWW)

WWW was fun with friends. The rides weren't as exciting as compared to Adventure Cove. But the plus point is that there is practically no queue and the water level is lower (which is better for me because I cannot swim). The layout of the theme park is similar to Adventure Cove, eg. both have the lazy river and the tsunami. And also WWW is cheaper than Adventure Cove! Hahahahahas! (:

But there was this 90 degrees drop ride (I forgot the name) that seemed very very scary at first, but after I tried it, I find to be alright! So practically they made the whole setup very frightening - you have to step in this 'container' where the ground below you will give way, and you fall at free fall of 9.82ms^2. :/

(Free polaroid service by the staff)

Too bad there's only one polaroid, and after multiple scissors-paper-stone session, Manda gets to keep it. Hahahahas. My legs looked super tanned in the polaroid and I have no idea why?!

(Photo that everyone can keeps)

Reasons why I prefer taking photos using phone. Hahahahas! (: Thanks Xingyu, Evelias, Amanda, Kaiyuan and Yeeying for making my virgin WWW outing fun. Hahahahas!

Had tzechar for dinner (which doesn't taste that great overall, but the curry fish head saved it) at Downtown East. Then we went NTUC to buy some alcohol (my virgin attempt buying myself) for a drinking session in the night.

So armed with drinks, we played many games (thanks to Kaiyuan for conducting, she's the best!). My favourite was Resistance. Hahahahas! (: I was pretty blur and everything, always getting the wrong Merlin and stuff omg. #isuck #ifailedinlife

Slept earlier that night. Cause alcohol just makes everyone feels like sleeping. Hahahahas! :D

Day three: Break chalet

Technically we were supposed to check out by 12pm, and we really did nua in the room and checked out at 12pm. Hahahahas! (: We did nothing much except packing, packing and more packing. Went our separate ways after chalet because the other clique wanted to go Changi Village for lunch but I'm just too tired to carry all my barangs there.

Headed to Jurong East with Manda for a lunch at Hot Tomato, before rushing home. Because my chalet was a few days after my psychology camp, so it made me felt as though I spent 2 weeks sleeping outside. I really missed home, my bed especially. (A reason why I don't stay in halls) :/

(Starbucks' almond coffee chiffon cake)

Since the Starbucks' promotion was still on-going, I grabbed 2 slices of the cake to bring home as supper for my family. #filialpiety hahahahas!

So in conclusion, it was a great and fun-filled chalet. I wouldn't have imagine that we will have such great fun without any awkwardness. I was initially against the idea of inviting them (it was supposed to be a clique chalet but Evelias complained that it was too expensive) because I am a weakling for awkward situations. But thankfully I did, because I really enjoyed myself thoroughly. Saded that the guys were busy defending our country that they could not join us. Next chalet please!

We used to have it all,
but now's our curtain call.
So hold for the applause,
and wave out to the crowd,
and take our final bow.

You haven't seen the best of me, I'm still working on my masterpiece.

Old is gold. :D

I'm really thankful for the once-in-a-while meetup sessions with Xiaofang. She is one of the rare few secondary friends that I still keep in contact with, and I am really grateful that she didn't choose to drop me as a friend even though I know myself that I have been a really bad friend. Really. :/

So this girl was having tuition over at CCK two Sundays ago, and we decided to meet up for a k session (since she already travelled to CCK, so why not? :P) I love to sing, ohyeahs baby!! :D

(Seafood ramen)

Ajisen for lunch. Seafood ramen for me, comes with the octopus side dish and ice lemon tea. Xiaofang ordered her usual, some pork ramen (?) and her favourite gyoza with ice lemon tea. No more Ajisen for me, it is so expensive omg?!

So anyways, I was glad that there was a SG50 promotion going on in the CCK kbox (free flow of snacks and drinks). I was overjoyed because SG50 finally benefited me. I mean, most promotions for SG50 are mainly targeted towards the pioneer batch, so it doesn't really affect me, and I was sad. Wasn't I part of Singapore as well... :(

Hahahahas! Anyways, we got a big kbox room to ourselves (feels pretty spacious as there were only two of us). We sang our hearts out non-stop for three hours and geez, I think my voice broke. T.T After the k session, I just went croaking like a frog omg.

Ohwell. Met my family for a dinner afterwards @ Paradise Dynasty. One of my favourite Chinese restaurants. (Y)

(Some noodles which I forgot what)

(Xiaolongbaos & seafood fried rice)

(Spicy dumplings)

(Dessert!)

Yum yum in my tum tum! :D Today, I give thanks to my family, especially my parents, and to Singapore. Because of their hard work, we get to eat whatever we like, and as much as we want. To the kids in the poor underdeveloped countries, food to them is luxury. Compared to them, we are so much more fortunate. So with a thankful heart, do not waste food. Order and eat the amount of food that you can.

(Sorry, I was getting a little emotional because the table beside me just ordered a whole load of food, to which they cannot finish. And it is only to be cleared and thrown away by the waiter. Ouch. I guess those wasted food are enough to feed a child.)

He carries stars in his pockets
because he knows she fears the dark.
Whenever sadness pays her a visit,
he paints galaxies on the back of her hands.

It's my broken heart in the making.

(Ripped from favim.com)

That sense of famarility. Walking the same route to work everyday without fail. I can remember all the small little details that I see every morning. The various types of floras, the exact places where fresh birdshits are bound to hit, the annoying cyclists speeding on the pavements that are meant to be only for pedestrian use, and the jovial smiles on the Lakeside residents' faces as they stroll with their pet dogs. I know all the last minute details, even their apparels, for I'll know whether it is a newly-bought piece or a worn-before one. Omg, I sounded like a professional stalker. LOLOL! :D

That sense of familiarity. Every morning immediately after I plopped myself on the office chair, 'Angie' will start to echo. That resonance still strike my head every now and then. I was so used to them calling my name that I will even hallucinate sometimes. Ohgosh, I guess I will miss this dearly.

That sense of familiarity. I'll often make my way from the front of the office (where my desk is located) to the back of the office (where my superiors/colleagues are situated) to ask them for new assignments. I'll trudge over with heavy steps because I don't feel like working but slacking the entire day. :/ My colleagues and superiors will too frequent my desk to assign me work (which I dreaded very much, but shh, don't tell them that). However, once in a few days, they will walk over to 'serve' me food instead. From pancakes to kueh lapis to currypuffs and my favourite Baker Talent bread, I get to stuff myself silly all the time. Everyone is just so friendly here! Sorry guys for not getting food for y'all (I did made cornflakes cups for them once though) because I'm just a lowly-paid temporary staff. (Still feeling exhilarated when Rachelle always introduce me as their intern to people from other places. I mean how cool omg. Accounting intern, although it is just a name LOLOL)

That sense of familiarity. My colleagues love to gossip at the back of the office, making my entire office seem like a fish market. In my earlier days, their gossiping sessions will indicate my break time (self-given, oops). Yet as months passed, I'll join their gossiping sessions too. Ohmy, how long has it been since I last gossip? I sure miss them. That thrill. :P Females being females.

That sense of familarity. My colleagues simply love to produce weird sounds with their throats (better way of putting it? :P). Hahahas! Whenever the CEO/CFO is/are not around, music will be blasted and sing-a-long sessions will be held, and I'm just down there waiting for the glass windows to crack. LOL! I will hum along to the tune too if I know the song (which is usually, woots!), and yay, it really helps in making office admin work less boring (and less sleepy) (Y)

It just feels so surreal that I'm going to be leaving this enjoyable workplace of mine in 3 days time after 8 months. No more food, no more free buffets, no more hitching of rides. I guess I'm going to miss this sense of familiarity as I head towards a new chapter of my life in an entirely new environment - university, specifically NUS FASS. I'm actually having mixed feelings about it. :/ On one hand, I'm actually quite excited to make new friends, and to start studying (because 8 months of no studying actually makes me miss it, weird huh). On the other hand, I don't want all this freedom to end. I love my chillax life now, where I can meet up with people and have fun at my own will. Ohgosh, that irony. :3

Pictures in my pocket

are faded from the washer.

I can barely just make out your face.

Food you saved for later

in my refrigerator,

It's been too long since later never came.

The rain, the winter spring has made us fade away.

I have just decided to begin my music journey once again - electone. Today's my third lesson already, and I am feeling quite overwhelmed about the practices and lessons because I have only continued to pick it up again after a long year and seven months (due to the stupid A's and procrastination :3).

I am feeling super rusty, and my fingers and legs weren't as agile as before. (Oops, signs that I'm getting old). However, I'm actually feeling super excited because it is an instrument that I quite enjoy (at least for the playing of songs aspect, not the improvisation and hearing segments).

P.S. If you ask me to pick up the erhu now to play, I think I don't even remember the basic fingerings. LOLOL That's how bad I am. But perhaps I would pick it up and play afew songs in the near future, if not it will just rot at home. (Literally rot because erhu is made of wood, hahahahas!)

Sighpie. I love music. I love the touch of musical instruments. But when can I ever stop procrastinating and pick the instruments up to play? Perhaps I should sign up for some ukelele lessons, and that would probably ensure that my ukelele is not collecting dust in the corner of my house. LOL!

However, the con is that music lessons are freaking expensive?! I am paying $50/h per pax for my current electone lessons. (Fyi, my sister is taking with me). Geeez, looking forward to quickly passing my teacher's grade so that next time I'll be the one charging people $$$ instead. Hahahahas! :D But that would be 3-4 years later, ohwell.

Throwback to a lunch @ Adam Food Center

(Mee goreng)

(Carrot cake)

(Prawn noodles)

Inconvenient place to go to without a car, because there is no MRT stations in close proximity. But the food is finger-licking good! (Y)

Grief is like the ocean,

it comes on waves ebbing and flowing.

Sometimes, the water is calm,

and sometimes it is overwhelming.

All we can do is learn to swim.

-Vicki Harrison

The light bulb symbolises our thoughts and how over-thinking can kill us.

(Ripped from Google images)

I guess that being decisive is one of a key attribute in life.

Like how my superior Rachelle likes to put it, a psychologist should never be fickle-minded. What happens to our patients if we cannot be firm and make correct decisions in the shortest time possible?! And it is true, in a sense. Being decisive is indeed an essential quality not just in psychologists, but in life.

Recently, I was invited to the Durian Fiesta organised by my subsidiary company, and I took a uber long time to decide whether to accept or reject this invitation. I will definitely land myself in an awkward predicament with all the big shots around if I go, yet the durians are beckoning me. (Oops, glutton me). Tough dilemma here. I chose to go in the end, and have never regretted. The fiesta turned out to be alright - my colleagues stayed by me, and I was surrounded with a mountain of durians. :D

So it got me thinking. There's no point in thinking so much about something. Just follow your heart and do it. There's no right or wrong decisions. Most importantly is that we do not regret the decisions we make.

And it is the same with university. Thinking about which modules to select just kills me. It isn't as simple as selecting whatever I like. Other than having to ensure that the workload is spread out, we also have to make sure that the timetable does not clash, the exams do not all fall on the same day, the professors for that particular semester is alright, the university / faculty / major requirements are met amongst others. And what's worst, is having a lousy NUS coordinator who gives two extreme sides of the story when Manda and I emailed her to ask her the same question. I have been on this for quite some time already, and it is getting on my nerves. I hate myself for not being able to confirm the modules that I wanted to take.

Life is all about making choices. And this sucks. But that's what life is all about. Making choices.

Life's actually very simple, but we tend to over-think and complicate matters. But I guess this is innate? I often tell myself that, if the decision I made was considered to be 'incorrect' which resulted in the path in front to be difficult, so be it. One grows up from experiencing obstacles anyway. But I guess this is simply self-deceiving.

Over-thinking can indeed kill us.

Life is beautiful.

When you combine many 

simple things together,

you create something complex.

This is life.

If I lay here. If I just lay here. Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Happy Hari Raya Puasa! (Did I get that right? LOLOL!) Glad to have a day of holiday (no work!) because I just came back from chalet yesterday (and feeling damn shag now). Hahahahas! :D

Will update more on my chalet when I'm in the mood to type long posts.

/procrastination kicks in again/ x.x

So the initial plan for the day was to visit Botanic Gardens, but thanks to le sister who wasted half the day sleeping (who in the world sleeps at 8pm the night before and wake up at 1.30pm the next day?!), we were all too lazy to travel anymore. And we ended up just lunching and shopping. #lazysisterwhoruinedallmyplans

Sinful day @ Wanchai, Lot 1 with family.

(Seafood Baked Rice)

(Chicken Baked Rice)

Wanchai serves one of the more delicious baked rice in Singapore (better than Swensens) :P

Okay, I'm going to end abruptly because my 7 pm show is starting soon. Hahahahas!

/tv addict materialises once again/

We all have bad days,

But one thing is true.

No cloud is so dark that

The sun can't shine through.

-Miranda Kerr

Autumn is a second spring when every leaf is a flower.

I gathered myself for yet another social activity after a long hiatus. Hahahahas! (: Finally met up with Tionglei (after 4 months?!) and Xiaofang for lunch @ Eighteen Chefs last Sunday. Awesome time spent because I felt very at ease with their company. Finally revert back to my talkative self, and we had a great time sharing our camps. Hmm, my psychology camp, Fang's engineering camp and errr Tionglei's field camp LOLOL! It felt great to be mocking him :P These are times where I am thankful that I am a girl and thus not a need to serve NS and defend our nation. LOLOL!

And just a mere 4 months of not seeing him, how can I forget his frequent sarcasm on me T.T Omg. He mocked me for being too tanned, for having super bad complexion, for having lopsided hair, amongst many more. Tsktsk. I suddenly felt a drastic drop in self-confidence now. Lmao. x.x

Rushed off with Fang afterwards to meet #xyz弦乐组 (CO section mates) for a k session @ Cineleisure. Learnt it the hard way after going there twice. Never ever go Cineleisure ktv anymore because they cheat $$$ one (by cutting short our singing time?!). Sighpie, and I paid $19 because yours truly forgot to bring her student pass. Zzz.

As predicted, they kept playing English songs (that I have never hear before, omg I am a country bumpkin I swear). Fang and me hurriedly added in some Chinese songs (Since I already paid $19, I want the mike LOLOL). Thankgawd the guys knew the Chinese songs and were able to singalong. Yay, family! :D

(3/4 strength)

Featuring the tall Xinze (oh why oh why did I stand beside him, that height difference), yours truly, Wanying, Fang, Chaomin, Shiwei and Junho. Sorry for being a burden for dragging you guys back for a photo after we parted ways LOLOL! :D

(Photoshopped those who went off earlier)

And not forgetting the two traitors, Kangwei and Shermaine, who went off without dinner.

Grateful for a catchup session (I love the HTHT session especially, Junho's BMT life is just so dramatic) before school starts. Promised myself to not join CO anymore in the future (after going through 6 years of torture), so I'm gonna keep these old friends close! :D Love y'all!

I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
make a change and breakaway.