In between the blowing wind, you shine.

In The Summer - Infinite

In between the cracks of sunlight
In between the flowing white clouds
In between the blowing wind, you shine

Riding down the time, even tomorrow
Thickly spreading, every single day
Filled with longing, again to me

You come into me, faintly, shyly, you come upon me
You softly shake me, as usual, connected through the memories
Again and always, I’m living in longing
Already, already, I’m locked up in the memories

On each place my feet rests
On each place my hands touch
On each place I place my eyes, I see you

In between each small crack of a day
You slowly rise up for reasons I don’t know
Filled with fluttering excitement, again to me

You come into me, faintly, shyly, you come upon me
You softly shake me, as usual, connected through the memories
Again and always, I’m living in longing
Already, already, I’m locked up in the memories

I’m so grateful that I know you, that I got to meet you
I’ll grow this much to always protect you

You come into me, faintly, shyly, you come upon me

You softly shake me, as usual, connected through the memories
Again and always, I’m living in longing
Already, already, I’m locked up in the memories

Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.

Hey, I'm back! :D It was a meaningful day for me yesterday. Went gym for the first time in my whole life with my besties. It was awkward initially. So many people in the small-sized gym (because we went to some community centre kind of gyms), and there are only like 4 girls?! My besties and I, and one more girl only?! Ohgawd. Awkward to the max, and I was at a loss. Hahas! Furthermore,  we saw Moehan's best friend. Even awkward die. He was so shocked to see us!

Anyways, I tried on the treadmill. #toppriority  And many other more machines that I don't know what they are called. Hehes! :D Saw many guys doing weight lifting there. Found two eyecandies! Muscular, yet not as buff. Just the right size, and their faces are all super shuai. /spazzing/ They make me want to visit the gym often, :p Joking. I just want to get healthy.

A tired but fulfilling day for me. The first time I exercised after the last PE lesson. I am so unhealthy! x.x I think I will be going for a second round next week! It was fun, especially with my besties! Hahahas!

Current playlist on repeat: Amazing - Infinite <3 <3 <3

I'm only up when you're not down.

Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.

It's like no matter what I do.

Well you drive me crazy half the time;

the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.  

You fill my lungs with sweetness, and you fill my head with you.

Today was a mundane day for me as usual. Project Work all the way, and I had my second Oral Presentation practice with my Project Work teacher. I don't know whether to cry or laugh, because my consultation with her only lasted for a few minutes. Less than 30 minutes definitely. And my other classmates' consultations with her lasted for 30-45 minutes! Amanda's consultation was almost an hour plus. Saddened.

I wonder if she has anything against me. Hahas, because I had angered her in the past before (regarding General Paper, read my previous posts for more information). But I couldn't do anything about it. I hate cold and silent treatments from people. Please stop showing your biasness. It was so obvious. Annoying to the max.

Accompanied Jiaxin to do his slides today. Sat beside him, so I could keep an eye on him. My whole group had already decided to go through the slides today, but that guy apparently was unable to hand up his slides, and we couldn't do anything about it. Jiaxin, please. Do your part for once alright. That is a group effectiveness mark. I really need that, cause I knew I will screw up my Oral Presentation. I'm not much of a speaker, you see.

Alright, enough ranting. I shall start on my slides now. My teacher had commented that my slides are very disgusting. Hahahas, fine. I added that myself. But the meaning is there. But hey, I cannot do slides nicely! >.< No artistic talent in me at all x.x

Can I take it to a morning

Where the fields are painted gold

And the trees are filled with memories

Of the feelings never told?

When the evening pulls the sun down,

And the day is almost through,

Oh, the whole world it is sleeping,

But my world is you

You live your life just once, so don't forget about a thing called love.

Dang. Handed up our Baby today (Written Report for Project Work). We used 1 year to generate it, and I felt sad suddenly that our Baby will have to be given away to some other people now. Hahas, but nevermind, one less burden. Project Work is really burden, costs my beauty sleep and play time. -.- I slept at 1.40am yesterday because I was busy chiong-ing my Written Report with Kaiyuan and Evelias. Ohgawd, mourn the deaths of Prashanth and Jiaxin. Not literally. Hahas, they chose to disappear at this crucial time. Alright, except Jiaxin, who had never ever helped before. He had never touched our Baby before, alright. Disgusting shit.

Sorry if you ever read this post, but suck it up. You deserve it. Hahas, :D I am not this vulgar usually. Perhaps due to lack of sleep, my brain could not think straight now while I type this out. Dang.

Time to concentrate on Oral Presentation now. Sucks like shit. I am still halfway memorising my script, and tomorrow will be a dry run with my Project Work teacher. I hate using the slides man; I cannot multi-task. How do I memorise my script while remembering to click the clicker for the slides to change?! && to make it even more annoying, sometimes although I DID press the clicker button, the slides remain stationary and I didn't know. Continue to ratter on about my speech. Well done, girl. I hate my life. Joking, I actually love myself a lot more than you think. Hahas!

Ohyeahs, not to forget Insights and Reflections, which is another component for Project Work. Another disgusting piece of individual work. I am already braindead! All my ideas were already used up, I cannot generate more ideas now. >.< I NEED to get a A for my Project Work. I take pride in my work. Besides, I felt that Project Work would be the easiest subject to score as we will have more time to practice. Come on, we really spent one whole year on it! One whole year wasted on Project Work! Arghs!

Anyways, enough rattling on my irritating Project Work. Today is the start of the O's, I sincerely hope that everyone will do their best and strive for their dream JC. This is especially so to my Chinese Orchestra juniors back in ZHSS. :D Yuying, jiayous! You can do this! Hang in there a little more. There will be a rainbow at the end!

Because I'm someone who has nothing but my own heart.

Only Tears - Infinite

I love you. I’m sorry
But i can’t do this anymore
I don’t even have the right to get close to you
Don’t love me

I don’t have the ease of being able to give you my heart
I live every day beyond my strength
Each day is too much so i cry

Oh, i.. I don’t have anything i can give you
(but i’m) missing you
I can’t even give you loving words
But i’m missing you
I can’t even boldly wish for you to be mine
But i’m missing you
So i push you away

Because i’m a guy who has nothing but his own heart

I’m holding back, even though it hurts
Even tears are a luxury for me
I don’t even have the right to look at you
Don’t look at me

I know that my heart is wherever you are
Close enough our breaths can touch
Always in that same place

Oh, i… i don’t have anything i can give you
(but i’m) missing you
I can’t even give you loving words
But i’m missing you
I can’t even boldly wish for you to be mine
But i’m missing you
So i push you away

More than anyone else in this world

 I love you, so i hold back

Oh i… i can’t hold your hand
But i’m missing you

I’m worried i might just have my tears to hold
So i’m missing you
I can’t tell you to stay with me
But i’m missing you
So it’s too much, but in the end
It’s because i’m a man who has nothing but his own heart

Cause lovers dance, when they're feeling in love.

Strangers.

It was an awkward feeling. We had just started school recently, and within a month, we had to do a General Paper (GP) Assignment. It was during the March holidays break. It was a groupwork and I was assigned by my teacher to assign the groups for this assignment. That was when I first met you.

It was an awkward feeling. We seldom talk, just like strangers. The first time that we really talked was when we had lunched at Popeyes after my project. We went home together with our other groupmates. You lived at the West too, like me.

Friends.

We began to talk in school. Small talks initially. As the days past, we found more and more topics to talk about. We talked about practically everything. School, friends, hobbies. Everything.

Close friends.

I remember how we used to argue about which idol is prettier or more handsome. I remember how we used to argue who is our bias in each kpop group. I remember how we used to discuss our ideal types. I remember how we used to confide in each other.

Yupp, those are just memories now. Faded memories. It had been approximately four months since I last talked to you. I tried to salvage our friendship, but it still failed terribly.

Strangers.

I used to grumble about the efforts that you had never put in to continue our friendship. At a point in time, I just felt tired. Really tired. Tired from everything. But I perservered. I tried my best. It still didn't worked out.

I'm sorry. I had been deceiving myself. I know you were trying to push me away when you sensed that I'm starting to like you. I knew about it all along. But I refused to back down. I realised that I'm just self deceiving.

I should learn to let go now. It had been four months. Four months! This is so unlike me. Although the story had to end in such a manner, I just want to let you know, that I'm sorry for the trouble caused and am grateful for those days where you stood by me.

Thankyou.

I sincerely hope that you will meet somebody way better than me. Somebody who will cherish you more than me. Somebody who will treasure you more than me. Somebody who will love you more than me.

Somebody who is better than me.

You deserve better.

Thursday night beneath the stars.

Bleh. I'm back to blogging! (: Using my phone this time. Hahahas, so not used to it! >.<

Summary of today's events. I had school as usual. Project Work (PW) all the way again. Sian much. I did my Oral Presentation (OP) script today until I want to puke blood. The teacher said my previous draft is too passive. I need to use active voice! Omg, a challenge is posed to me. Zzz, then I have another problem with wordcount. Haish, I can't finish speaking whatever I wanted to by five minutes! Puke blood much.

Ordered pizzahut delivery today with Kaiyuan  Amanda, Weina, Evelias and Matien. Scrumptious lunch! Felt quite bad when my other classmates can only drool. Hehes! (: This reminds me of my Macs delivery a few months ago. So expensive, ohgawd! Pizzahut is so so so nuch cheaper!!! Pizzahut rocks, sarangheyo! Cravings satisfied.

Visited my grandfather today, who is hospitalised. He had surgery on one of his leg. Then I visited the doctor for my flu vaccine. My sister's leg was swollen. Perhaps due to a fall she suffered last week. Then our family doctor advised her to take a X-ray... Omg, why only disasters happen to my family?! Please get well soon!!

Alright, travellin back to the past... I went on a dessert date with Weina and Amanda near AMK. The mango pomelo is not that nice because the mango is sour. Zzz. But their durian is super delicious! :3 I LOVE IT.

I shall end my super short blogpost here now. Sorry for the lack of pictures because I'm lazy like that. Hehes, (: So tired now to even move. Haish, I think the flu vaccine made it worst. I can't even raise my hand now. T.T

A cute photo of L (Infinite)

Been madly in love with Infinite nowadays. They have the angelic aura, /spazzing/ Hahahas! Do catch Infinite TV as well, I'm addicted to it already. LOL :D

Thursday night in the fields,

You and I are painting stars in the sky.

Owls howl, crickets sing.

All I need is you, right here by my side.

Ten million fireflies lit up the world as I fell asleep.

Gah. I am absolutely disgusted with Project Work. Ohgawd. Seriously, why is it even included inside the curriculum. Zzz, just spent three hours of my time doing the last individual document, Insights and Reflections (I&R). Haish, I already squeezed out all my ideas for the previous two individual documents and the recent Written Report already. Brainstuck! No inspiration and the deadline for my I&R draft one is on Monday. Haish T.T I hate my life, seriously.

Hahas, *prays that I don't retain* Okayys, random. Tempted to watch Infinite TV but I have to finish up my I&R. Tired max :3

My little trip to Lot 1 today after my music lessons. Gah!

Went with my little sister, wanted to go to the post office to mail out a registered mail, but stupid me forget to check the opening hours of the post office. & wth, it is closed. Haish, went to buy Gongcha to share with my little sister. Waffles and curry puffs for everyone for tea! :D #happykid96 Then went to buy the super-belated birthday present for my mummy and daddy. Customised mugs! Woohoo, I'm excited! Can't wait for one week before I can collect them! $12.90 each for the mug. Now I am glad that Starbucks stop selling the customised tumbler, because it costs approximately double of the mug :3 I'm on a tight budget, you see. Hahas!

Alright, that's all for today! Shall head straight to bed already, my eyelids are drooping >.< Goodnights to the world!

It seems like a perfect night to have breakfast.

It seems like a perfect day to have dinner.

I'm lost in my own time, lost in my own world.

Let me sleep and wake up, remembering nothing.

So I will not be so pained like now.

You and I are painting pictures in the sky.

Blog post for this entire week.

Alright, there is not much things that I did during this week, except PW PW and even more PW. Getting sick and tired of PW already! I hate you, PW!! >.< Arghs!

Monday, I learnt how to play a bit of mah-jong. My clique taught me. It was quite addictive, but the game didn't manage to attract that much of our attention, because the application only allows one player. Hahas. :D So during the break time, on both Monday and Tuesday, we played daidi during our breaks. I missed those times manzxc. Absolutely love playing daidi! Good thing that my whole clique knows how to play. Hehes! P.S. I love my clique so much!

Tuesday was another mundane day filled with plenty of PW-related stuff. Gah, there was CO practice on Wednesday. A rehearsal that was so boring! Four hours worth of CCA left me shag while on the way home. Homed with Junho, because Wanying have to stay back for a little while for some exco meeting. Heng, I wasn't one of them! It was so time-consuming x.x Gah! Read somebody's blog on the way home with Junho, and laughed like shit. It was quite an entertaining blog. Hahas! No names shall be revealed to protect the identify of the blogger. Heh! :DD

Went Woodlands for Starbucks on Thursday with Amanda and Weina. Initially wanted to head there to buy my parents' presents. However, in the end the Starbucks tumblers are all out of stock. Ohgawd, heard from the staff there, that the customised tumbler will not in stock any moment. Ohno, are they going to stop the manufacture of that tumbler? OHNO. Amanda left first, leaving me and Weina to shop for a little while more. Went in search for a drink for Weina, (I feel quite bad drinking Starbucks in front of her). The basement of Woodlands is big, with many food to choose from! WOW, I'm impressed. Hahas! ^^

Today (Friday) was a sucky day. Did the editing of our WR draft for the whole of today, that I felt that all my brain juice had been sucked up dry, leaving me with just an empty skull x.x That was how shag I felt. Then went to my CO practice again, haish. Four more hours. Burden! It stopped me from meeting my friend >.< Seriously, someone needs to really go improve the efficiency of my CCA. I asked my section leader earlier in the week, approximately what time will the practice end today. She told me 5pm. But hello, I was released at 7plus. Totally spoiled my plan! Arghs! Frustrating CCA!

Feeling a little sick now. Mild flu. Shall sleep early today and wake up early tomorrow to practice my music. #sadlife Anyways, did I not mentioned my dumbness during the PW Oral Presentation workhop? It was a workshop conducted for us by the school to help students in presenting their PW ideas. To be honest, I felt that the workshop is not that useful. The teacher only access us in our speeches, little skills were taught. I need the tactic to stop myself from trembling too much (from nervousness) during my presentation x.x

The dumb part goes. I was feeling super duper nervous, that when my speech is coming to an end, I made a stupid mistake. I wanted to say, "Alright, now let me pass the floor over to ...". Yet instead, I mentioned that "Alright, now let me pass to the floor". The whole class had been laughing at me because of this, T.T Especially Hongwei and Yulian! Bangwall.

I'll forget the world that I knew

But I swear I won't forget you.

If only my voice could reach,

Back through the past.

I'd whisper in your ear,

"Darling, I wish you were here"

It takes two to whisper.

Tears - LeeSSang

After you left, I’m always sad

No matter how sad I am, the sadness is not enough

I look for a place to hurt and hide

In front of my dark house, in my stopped car, in front of your house

A life without love is like poverty, the only thing remaining is an empty room

You and I, we’re like day and night, which cannot be together

The only thing we split and shared is longing

You get drunk one night, come to me and fuss that you’re gonna sleep with me

You touch my happy trail and say that you wanna lay down in my arms

You ask me why I’m always so busy and silently cry

You say didn’t mean it and that you always believe me

You and everything of you that always protected me

Has now become longing

Alone between narrow streets in tears

In case someone sees, I secretly shed tears

I try so hard not to become weak

My tears

Sit alone on the stairs in front of my house in tears

In case you find out, I secretly shed tears

I try so hard not to become weak

My tears

We have bad attachments rather than good attachments

We fight all the time and go for days without seeing each other

But we wanted each other so much

Because we loved each other, because we couldn’t live without each other

The freckles on your body, the food you can’t eat

When we kiss and made up after fighting

When we tightly held hands while driving

I remember all of those things

Even if you’re not next to me for a moment, I get nervous

After letting you go, I easily get blank

I hate the changing world

I forcefully take out your memories

Your name, face, laughter, scent

There are so many memories you gave to me

There is so much soul that you left to me

They come to life and find to me

I crush them all with the word, love

Alone between narrow streets in tears

In case someone sees, I secretly shed tears

I try so hard not to become weak

My tears

Sit alone on the stairs in front of my house in tears

In case you find out, I secretly shed tears

I try so hard not to become weak

My tears

My tears, tears, tears

Once again tears, tears, tears

Again silently – I don’t wanna know

It smears my memories

Alone between narrow streets in tears

In case someone sees, I secretly shed tears

I try so hard not to become weak

My tears

Sit alone on the stairs in front of my house in tears

In case you find out, I secretly shed tears

I try so hard not to become weak

My tears

Isn't the lyrics touching? At least, both the girl and the boy have been in love together before. They can part with no regrets. Their story is touching. Although I didn't know the reason why both parties choose to part, but I think there will be some secret behind it. It is sad for two people to not being together although they love each other very much. D: I hope everyone gets their own happiness, and I hope I will find my own happiness soon.

I will pluck the moon and stars just for you.

Tada! :D I'm back after a long time! Hehes! Feeling excited because I have been on a interesting food trip recently! Scroll down to read more about my exciting food-tasting trip! Yup, I'm a glutton. (:

Proudly presenting to you, curry fish head! :D

I went to the Keat Hong area (Choa Chu Kang) on Saturday with my family to have a taste of the delicious curry fish head! :D It was yummy and affordable, priced at $23 per plate. Hahas, due to my flu, I ordered less spicy. It was really not that spicy, (y) thus enabling me to recommend to kids! :D P.S. I cannot take spicy food as well, x.x Then we also ordered fried duck. Sounds cool huh? It was deep fried with lotus, making the whole palatable food very crunchy. Best for family with kids as well! For a person like me who don't really eat duck, if I commented that this dish is great, it really must be great. Hahahas! ^^

(Curry fish head!)

Secondly, the IKEA meatballs! :D My all-time favourite Sweden dish.

Went IKEA on Sunday with the aim to buy a full-length mirror. However, stupid me, I went there without taking the measurements of my house. It was a wasted trip. Because it had been a long time since I have been there, everything looks fascinating to me. Amazing, I always thought to myself that I would want a IKEA room! Notice that their furniture are always beautifully decorated? :DDD Princess dreams. Hahahas! Ohwell, ate my lunch and tea at IKEA without buying anything and yet had to pay $15.50 for the carpark. /heartbroken/

(Chicken Wings)

(A cake which I forgot what is it)

(Poached salmon!) 

(All-time favourites meatballs!)

(Pork Ribs)

(Chicken Leg)

&& today, I went Swensens with huiqi to celebrate the end of promos! :D Late celebration, but ohwell. I was a bit sick and tired of Pastamania and since I was super hungry, we decided to head to Swensens for dinner. Dinner costs a bomb. I'm on a budget, hence only ordered chicken baked rice. Hahas, :D The best baked rice I have ever tasted! At least, compared to Pastamania. Oops! (But pastamania's pasta is nicer) Hehe! :D Then bought Andersen Ice Cream for dessert. My bias rum and raisin flavour, and tried a new flavour today - banana crunch. It was not bad! However, I do not know if it will suit your taste. Y'all that time when I bought banana milkshake, my friends all thought that I was insane. T.T Ohwell. I appreciate bananas. :D

That's all for today! :D Have a good rest and see you soon!

Sitting alone in the dark,

Gazing up at the sky, at the stars, at the moon.

The silence isn't too bad,

I'll doze off safe and soundly.

Until I look at my hands and feel sad.

Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly.

When darkness turns into light.

Hey guys! Guess what! It's the end of my promos examinations! :D  /claps claps/

Hahas, finally a breather. I had been waking up early early in the morning to study. *zombie mode on* The earliest was 3.30am. Can you believe it! Hahas, :D I really want to promote...

The exams are hard, with Chemistry and Maths being killer papers. Physics was surprisingly manageable, though it is still questionable if I can even obtain a pass for it x.x Econs and GP was ...  /prays/ Since exams are over, let's not think about it now. We have to enjoy during this one month before we receives our results!

Alright, so today was an interesting day. I am thankful for the company of my beloved JC friends (namely Amanda, Weina, Kaiyuan and Eve). They are really awesome people who always manage to brighten up my day. As I slept earlier yesterday night, didn't see the messages that they asked me to book Kiseki Buffet. So yeahs, we only made our plans for the day today. Last minute much.

With our budget, we decided to head towards Sakae Sushi @ Sembawang for our lunch. It is a buffet style priced at ~$20.80 after GST and everything. Hahas, :D Unlimited coloured plates of sushi, with one red and pink plate free. I was so full after the lunch that I decided to skip dinner. & yes, I'm still not feeling hungry even now. Great, the restaurant managed to settle both my meals. *savings*

(Ripped off Tumblr)

The food was delicious, with many salmon available. /salivating/. Salmon is my favourite! Hahas, sorry for the lack of photo updates, I was so hungry this afternoon that I gobbled down my food before being able to take any pictures of it. Glutton much.

So after lunch, we decided to slack at Mos Burger. Lepak corner! Initially wanted to head towards Teo Heng for karaoke, yet the rooms are fully booked. /sobs/ I am really in the mood to sing today. Ordered milk tea from Mos Burger and we sat there for approximately 3-4hours. Dang. I guess we were all distractions, as we are gossiping loudly. You can't blame girls, can you? LOL!

Reached home and watched the last episode of Big. I missed it when it was showing on the TV because I was hardworking and studied Economics. I hate the ending manzxc, it was not even a proper ending! Afterwards, I caught a bit of We Got Married of Taemin and Naeun, it was boring at the start (episodes 1&2). Decided to skip all the way to episode 16 instead, which features EXO! *smiles brightly* That episode was interesting enough to capture my attention. While I was watching the videos, I was secretly envy of Naeun, Taemin was so nice to her! I also want a boyfriend like this, but this types of boyfriends are like extinct already T.T

I shall end my post here. I'm sorry that today's post seemed a little boring, with my mundane life stories and all. However, I felt that it was nice having somebody to listen to your daily adventures. Ohyeahs, speaking of which, my criteria for boyfriend no.1: Must be a listener. I tend to be talkative when I am with my close friends. I really HATE it when people interupt me while I'm still speaking. Respect is the key.

Goodnights everyone! :D Sweetdreams and sleeptight!

You're a criminal, and you steal like a pro.

I don't want to face the harsh reality.

All the pain and the truth from you wounded me,

leaving me on the ground feeling broken and bruised.