You make my heart feels like it's summer, when the rain is pouring down.

Continuation:

Day 9:

Attended PL2131 lecture with Amanda and Hsuwen, and we saw Lash again. (: Lecturer was teaching a new chapter but I am catching up bit by bit. Perhaps because people around me all commented on how bad she was, I guessed I had made sufficient 心理准备 so I found her to be exceeding my expectations. She knows her stuff well at least, and after attending her third lecture, I am beginning to understand her accent better and it is not too bad.

Immediately after the lecture was my PL2131 tutorial, and the lecturer took the first lesson. We were taught SPSS, a software often used by psychologists for research purposes. I must say, it is too much for my brain to absorb because I am a technological noob. Thanks Amanda for being the mountain that I can rely on when I am lost during lesson. Hahahahas! (:

Went for my Rotaract sub-committee interview whilst Amanda headed for her next tutorial. And LOLOL, I think I messed up a little hahahahas. But whatever, I don't care anymore. Thanks Amanda for helping me and Minghan for thinking that I seemed as though I have the capability to resume such roles, it is really an encouragement. :DD

(Update: I got in my third choice, publicity department, for the Rotaract's Project Embrace. Not sure if I will enjoy it since it is my third choice after all. But ohwell, I shall accept any challenge that come my way. Hahahahas!)

Day 10:

Thursday blues. Met up with Amanda earlier for subway 1-for-1 (cheap cheap!) for lunch, before heading back to school for five hours of lessons with only one hour break in between. :/ My life....

But yay, good day because I met up with Huiqi for dinner at Jurong Point! (: Saw Xiaofang around also, so it is like double happiness. That feeling when you saw your old good friends (Y) Bliss.

(Swensens for us)

(Not forgetting dessert!)

Complained a lot about university to Huiqi because we haven't met up for ages. Feels good to have someone to drown my sorrows to, lest I really turn bonkers from university. And I'm sorry for the lack of human photos these days. :/ I forgot to take selfies with Huiqi again, lmao!

Day 11:

Worst day ever because I went to walk one round in hell before coming back. T.T Most stressed tutorial ever in my entire 19 years of my life, and it had to be a psychology tutorial. Arghs!

Long story cut short: I felt dumb and useless in the tutorial because my classmates & tutor are like damn smart?! How can people memorise the entire chapter so fast and even went tutorial without notes?! Omg, amazing. Come I give you a clap. :3

The only comforting words that I can tell myself now is to convince myself into thinking that those people studied biology before, and I have never touch it before, so it kind of give me a reason to not know the contents well. LOLOL! Self-deceiving much. And I suddenly realised the importance of biology. Bangwall.

Thankfully that my first Malay Studies tutorial went well and it ended much earlier than expected and the class was pretty chillax (at least I don't feel dumb and useless even though I didn't contribute anything).

'Cause our two
Hearts will make it easy
Joining up the pieces
Together making one.

It's yesterday once more.

(Ripped from chibird.com)

Tormenting week 3 of university, because tutorials started this week and it meant that I have to start following my lousy 5-day work week timetable. Sighpie. However, thinking on the bright side, I placed 3 of my tutorials on odd weeks, which means that next week (even week) I am free-er! :D Whoopie!

Day 7:

Went to school as usual for a 2h GES1003 lecture, and after that we held our first GES1003 project discussion (without our fifth member, Rich, because he is way too busy T.T)

To be honest, I don't really like my group, because I guess our views differ quite a bit, and our personalities don't really click (only Jinyi is on the same frequency with me). But on a positive side, they are hardworking and contribute much to the project, which is good. Having slackers in your group is the worst thing ever.

BUT next time try not to get Faculty of Science (FoS) people as your members because ums, their timetable sucks and it is very tiring to schedule meetups with them. Hahahahas!

And yeahs, girl X of my group said something which made me super pissed off. I have to say this: even if you are in FASS, it doesn't mean your analysing / writing / critical thinking is good. Because yeahs, it doesn't imply to me. I went FASS purely because of my interest, not because I am 'gifted' in the above attributes. :/ So put away this notion please. Zzz.

I'm sorry for those who already heard me rant for the umpteenth time, this shall be the last time already. Unless someone / something provoked me again LOLOL! :/

After which, I met up with Manda to head over to Trybe welcome tea. The events sound cool and I wanted to join, but after thinking it through, with my Roteract and Archery on hand, I don't want to overload myself by taking up a third CCA. So yeahs. I wasted my time attending the welcome tea. LOLOL! :/

Reached home pretty late that day on a school day, at around 9pm plus. And I am dog tired. Oh, Monday blues. T.T

Day 8:

Finally early (for once) for my EL1101E lecture. There are relatively lesser people in the auditorium, oops, all pon arhs?! Hahahahas! (: And yeahs, the lecture is still as boring as shit.

(Saporo: Italian cuisine)

Then Amanda and I met with Zia for lunch at Saporo something, UTown. And it was definitely a wrong choice made. I'm never stepping into the restaurant ever again. Omg.

The food are super expensive, ranging from approximately $15-$25. Yeahs, I know that's the average price for Italian cuisine, however since it is located in a school compound, shouldn't they sell it cheaper or something? :3 The pizza that we ordered tasted not bad, but because the crust is very thin, it is not filling. So cries. :/

After which I attended my first tutorial in university (GES1003) with a half-filled stomach. The lessons went on fine. The student teacher went through the concepts and then we discussed with our groups for a bit before presenting. And this guy from my group he presented EVERYTHING by himself, so my other group members doesn't have anything else to add on, which is bad. Because there's class participation points. Sighpie. :/ But anyways, off-topic, fact has been proven that if you are alone in a class, the chances of you making friends is higher.

Went on to recreational archery training with Amanda after that. And yay, because it rained before that, there's no sun! Phew. I don't want to get any tanner. Hahahahas! (: Enjoyed my first session, but I think I am still not skilled in setting up a bow. Hope the remaining five sessions of archery be good to me! 

You're the clearest sky in the darkest weather.
There was a big rain cloud hanging over me.
You came along like a lightning bolt from heaven.
Then you stole my heart and you set me free.

Dagger, it cuts so deep.

너 귀엽다 , 你好可爱

吴克羣 feat. 宋智孝

Jihyo:

너 귀엽다 (Neo gwi yeop da) 遇见你的第一眼

너 귀엽다(Neo gwi yeop da) 第一句爱的箴言

Kenji：

一开始我没发现 天使降临在身边

第一句台词是 唉呦 我的天

耳朵红到了脚尖 还要假装看不见

应该没人听到我的呼吸声

Jihyo：

是谁的喘息声

Woo ~ Woo ~

喘的那么认真

Woo ~ Woo ~

隔壁这个男生

Woo ~ Woo ~

难道他也和我有相同港觉

Together：

너 귀엽다 (Neo gwi yeop da) 遇见你的第一眼

너 귀엽다 (Neo gwi yeop da) 第一句爱的箴言

너 귀엽다 (Neo gwi yeop da) 直到白发苍苍还是觉得

너 귀엽다 (Neo gwi yeop da)

Da Da Da ~~~

Just find this super kawaii despite it being repetitive. Happy mid-week peeps! We are halfway there :/

You took my soul and wiped it clean.

(Rose)

Beauty can't last forever.

This is a rose that yours truly folded a few years back, and I thought that it looked pretty, so I left it on my bedside table for decoration purpose. However, it soon became dusty and so I threw it in a bin.

Indeed, beauty cannot last forever. People say that it is not good to get real flowers, because they will wilt, and fake flowers can just continue staying pretty. I beg to differ. No matter real or fake, the outcome will still be the same: thrown away miserably in the bin.

Some things can't last forever. No matter how hard you try, you just cannot get / maintain it. You simply can't water the withered flower and yearn for it to bloom again. It is just wishful thinking. But memories stay gold. Memories don't back out on you. Memories just stay there.

Sometimes, I really wish things could just go back to before. 

High hopes, when it all comes to an end.

But the world keeps spinning around.

Our love was made for movie screens.

Throwback.

This is a late post on how I spent my National Day. Hahahahas! (: Happy belated birthday Singapore! #stillproudtobeaSingaporean #stillproudtocallSingaporemyhome

So basically, I only break camp on the 8th August, and I reached home past midnight, which means technically I only left 2 days of holidays (9th and 10th August) before university starts officially.

So for the first day of holiday, I slept my way through till noon. I had maggie for lunch because my mama is too lazy to cook lmao, and was nagged to unpack my 'luggages' from camp. Took me a whole two hours to sort out everything, and viola there are piles and piles of clothes to be washed?! :/ I felt as if I just went on a shopping spree. Hahahahahas! (:

Headed to Jurong East for a simple dinner, which is a bad idea because it was ever so crowded?! But free transport was an attractive incentive so... LOL! :D And that basically ended my day, boring shit omg.

For the second day of holiday, I am honoured to say that I finally made a step onto the newest UNESCO World Heritage Site - Singapore Botanics Garden! (: Whoopie! What a great birthday gift to Singapore. So proud of Singapore!

(That green landscape)

(Flowers)

(That greenery)

(That aged tree)

(Mummy's favourite)

(White with a tinge of purple)

(My first picture)

(Selfie with mummy)

(Shade)

(I realised I like orange flowers)

(An exotic-looking one)

(Pinkish-purplish)

(Waited for long for this, finally I can take a decent photo without any photobombers)

(They have photo-taking spots LOLOL)

(Ain't my mummy cute??)

(Resembles a trumpet, LOLOL I don't know)

(They even have gardens with flowers named after certain world dignitaries, but I only recognised Margaret Thatcher and Ban Ki-Moon T.T)

(This is a really weird one)

(I like these white and pure flora)

(Cluster)

(Looks like a bunch of grapes from far)

(I don't know what are these)

(I don't really like this colour combination)

(See what I meant by I don't know most of the world dignitaries?)

(Small and tiny)

(Disgusting but interesting)

(A weird but nice-looking tree)

(And they are too tall for me to have a close-up :/)

(Yay, more orange!)

(My mummy being pretty here)

(And they are hanging over my head)

(Exotic exotic!)

(The 'leaves' are very soft in fact)

(Hahahahas)

(Weird again)

(I like this colour)

(More grapes-like looking flowers)

(Reminds me of a bird's beak)

Okay, sorry for the spam of photos. However, I only visited the Orchid Garden (because it was free due to SG50) although I already walked for three hours plus omg. Had to leave earlier than scheduled because it started pouring again and we don't want to be caught up in the rain. :/ I swear that the Botanics Garden is really HUGE?!

Overall it is a great place, but perhaps they could plant more trees because there isn't much shade and it doesn't help if we are in the sunny Singapore. Another tip: consider having a picnic there because there are alot of empty places and you get to enjoy the nice vast greenery (just pray that it isn't sunny but cloudy), and also because the restaurants/eateries there are limited and expensive, unless you want to travel to town for food.

And do bring your partner along. Because certain views are just romantic. /winks/

Broken bottles in the hotel lobby,
Seems to me like I'm just scared
of never feeling it again.
I know it's crazy to believe in silly things,
But it's not that easy.

Slipping into the night love. It grows dark, but you don't mind.

Week 2 of University

Barely surviving...

(A random shot at the NTUC Warehouse)

Continual of my university life (I am able to pen down everyday's happenings now because I am still not yet busy yet, but when tutorials kicked in...) 

Day 4:

Met up with my fellow O'weekers Joey and Aloysius for lunch at The Deck, NUS. Had a great short lunch with them and we talked about various mind-intriguing matters. And at this point in time, I finally felt the age gap between the 10s and the 20s (hahahahas, I just made myself sounded super young LOL).

Forget about Moehan and Yangfan. Although they are 20 years old, they just don't act their age. Sometimes I think that I am even more mature than them. Hahahahas! (: But yeahs, no wonder people always say that in university, you'll meet all kinds of people.

But it was still a great lunch, I got to learn many things just from our conversation, like how to pluck out wisdom tooth. LOLOL! (:

Glad to meet my secondary school friend Jinyi for my GEM lecture. I was actually very nervous initially because I hate going for lessons alone, so can you imagine my happiness when I saw a familiar face?! Although I didn't really talk to Jinyi before during our secondary school days, I'm glad that we hit it off just fine without any awkwardness. :D YAY!

Ended the day with a notes-printing session. AGAIN.

Day 5:

Attended EL lecture whilst sitting on the floor because Manda and I were late again (blame it on the shuttle buses this time because we were early for once but the buses were just too crowded).

Then I lunched with my 1/5 of the O'weekers Huixia, Siming and Minghan at the SDE canteen (P.S. Their canteen is not bad, hmm or at least the stall that I bought my food from is not bad. Hahahahas!). So lucky of them because they had nothing on after lunch and so they just go home / went out with friends, while I am stuck in a psychology lecture with Manda. :/

There was some open house along the Central Library corridor and I managed to buy a FASS green shirt from the booth and I am in love with it. <3

Had a walk around the Community Service Club showcase and their activities mostly are on Saturdays (which I can't make it, ohwell). However, there was this external party Trybe that I wanted to try. They offer programs such as being facilitators for camps/programs, and befrienders for drug addicts/boys'home. I figured it would be great to interact with them so it can help to deepen my understanding of the reasons they do things and to assist them to reduce the stigma they face give me a sense of achievement.

Dinnered at Yusof Ishak House with Manda, Manda's OG friend Zia and Zia's friend, before attending the Roteract Welcome Tea at 6.30pm. I am quite interested in their projects, especially the art therapy one. I actually tried to enrol myself in some art therapy courses after A's, but high school fees / requirement certain qualifications prevented me from doing so. There was also Project Embrace, a project on autism, that I am considering to take it up. Sighpie. Why are there just so many things that I want to do?!

Reached home late, and shag.

Day 6:

Ended PL2131 Psych stats module at 12pm, followed by a lunch at Yusof Ishak House with Manda and Teckling. Hanged out at a secret place to study that I find conducive for studying (and I'm not typing the place out lest anyone go snatch the seats from me :P)

Went for archery introductory shots with the two, and I think I quite enjoyed it. The feeling is great, everything is great, and it would be even better without the sun and my bruise. :/

I am contemplating whether to join archery as a recreational member. Hahahahas! Manda's mum is right. Since the start, Manda did not join any sports CCA so this is kind of the the last chance to join one (same for me). But I didn't join any clubs before too, so ... Omg, I realised my whole life seemed to revolve about erhu'CO last time. Ohgawd.

I. Have. No. Life.

Running through the heat heart beat,
You shine like silver in the sunlight.
You light up my cold heart,
It feels right in the sun, the sun.

You shoot me down, but I won't fall.

University life really sucks. Ohboy, I really really really, from the bottom of my heart, misses AJ a lot! :/ I miss my JC friends, my teachers (even Mr Adrian Bell lmao), the canteen food, the classrooms, the field, the parade square, the bookshop auntie, the Bridge and Daidi sessions and all. Sighpie. :3

I guess I am still unable to adapt to university life well. I was busy doing nothing. Omg. I just felt like nua-ing around. I felt stressed whenever I see people around me mugging. Wts, how can they get into the studying mood so easily after a mere 2 weeks of school?! Or does the problem just lies with me. :3

It has only been one lecture but my group mates for my General Education module (GEM) GES1003 (Changing Landscapes of Singapore) had started discussing about the project actively. And I am ever so lost, because lazy me haven't start researching on anything so I have no clue on what they were discussing. :3 And to think in JC, I am the one who was actively pushing everyone to discuss the projects because I wanted to get them over and done with.

Throwback to the ktv session with Huiqi the other day before school started. Life has been so sweet then! (:

(I swear the lighting at ktv sucks)

(Huiqi's virgin attempt at blackball)

Brought her to try the The Siam Kitchen (Thai food) and she loved it so much that she started pestering me every now and then to accompany her to savour Thai food hahahahas! :D I have great taste rights! Recently I've been hooked up on Thai food too. Tomyum, green curry and phad thai, here I come! ~

(Phad Thai and Green Curry!)

Anyways, am I a bad friend? :P Because I made Huiqi travelled all the way from Hougang to CCK again for the ktv session. Oops. But you know I love you truckloads. <3 Thanks bestie!

Back to reality.

Sighpie. University, please be good to me.

Sometimes, it's hard to tell how fast
the current is moving until you're
headed over a waterfall.

So I'm just waiting for fate to come, to wrap around me.

Beware of a long post ahead hahahahas!

(Click clique)

Life's been hectic recently. My Arts O'week camp ended on a high note (will blog about it soon), and two days later, it was the start of university. University life sucks big time, me and Manda practically spent our time at the library/bookshop trying to print notes. But printing is not as big as a problem, it is the finding part that costed our lives. T.T Sighpie. Speaking of this, I haven't printed all my notes. I felt so frustrated about it, that I just pushed it one side. Oops. :/

But ohwell, other than this, everything went on just fine. :D I'm thankful for the people around me who helped me survived week 1 (and yes you, special mention to my best pal, Manda Seah) :D

DAY 1:

This was a good day because my EL1101E (English exposure module) lecture ended in 48 minutes. Manda and I were late for around 10 minutes because we could not find the auditorium (ohboy, I missed AJ!). So technically we only attended 38 minutes worth of lecture. Whoopie! :D

People say that, the more you try to avoid, the more you will see it. And yes, that was true. T.T I was trying to avoid my psychology camp OG mates (just somehow felt awkward), but I ended up sitting next to them during lecture. :/ Because we were late, I was just focusing on finding 2 empty seats and after I settled down, I turned my heads and saw the row of my OG mates. Bangwall.

Went to NUS CO-OP and was caught in a daylight robbery. The coursebooks are super expensive?! Spent a total of $138 for three psychology compulsory textbooks - two hardcopies and one e-book - (luckily I shared with Manda, so I only paid half the price). Sighpie. And to think that I used to complain that JC books are expensive when we paid less than $20 for a hardcopy T.T

Went to the library next to find our books. It was tiring omg. Then we decided to print the psychology e-book out but apparently the printed quality isn't that good, so in the end I offered to copy and paste the entire document into Word before sending it to print. It is not an easy feat okay, I'm only done with Chapter 1. Sobs.

And my day zoomed past. We didn't even lepak or something, but by the time we finished our stuff and headed home, it was already 6pm plus. Zzz. Whut. Time flies when you are busy T.T

Day 2:

Attended PL2131 Research and Statistics I (Psychology compulsory module) in the morning with Manda, and we had a good laugh at the lecturer's accent. She's from Taiwan by the way. But I guess that's the good thing about her because it keeps me awake and want to pay attention in order to catch every word she is saying.

Ended the day earlier as compared to the day before. Just lepaking around and continue printing our notes (ohgawd life sucks).

Day 3:

Went for the Student Life Fair (aka CCA open house) with Manda, her secondary school friend Teckling and Teckling's friend Yijun. We met by chance, and I think they are nice people. I guess I can communicate with them, so I'm feeling good. :P

Signed up for a few clubs (but none really caught my interest omg), and I am just so lazy to attend their welcome teas. Omg. Went for lunch later on with 1/5 of the O'weekers at Singapore Poly (specifically Minghan'BFF, Darryl, Yewonn and Aron), and I swear Darryl drives like a race car driver omg. I think if I sit in his car any longer, I am bound to have motion sickness omg.

Then went for two lectures for the day: MS1102E Malay studies and PL1101E Introduction to Psychology. I find both lectures boring?! They were just so dry and I couldn't concentrate. Just kept using my phone throughout which is bad because I didn't really pay attention.

Met a new friend, Chi Ting, who attended both lectures with us. (I just remembered her name after Manda told me). I guess she's nice and all, but I am kind of on a different frequency with her. So we only make small tiny talks. :/ Awkward max.

(The special spaghetti set)

Ended week 1 of university with a dinner date at Miam Miam, Westgate, with the clique. Yay! I survived week 1 omg. #achievementunlocked I realised how much I missed the girls when I saw them. Those good old days... hmm...

Riding on waves, walking on sand.
Digging in caves to find the treasures of the land.
And if we find gold, well, we'll just throw it away.
We can write stories about the journeys that we made.

When you said your last goodbye, I died a little inside.

(My closer colleagues/superiors: Rachelle, Celeste and Feifei)

Most of my friends stopped working for a long time before I stopped. So when Amanda and Huiqi told me that they missed working a lot, I took it with a pinch of salt. I could not understand why would people miss working. Work is just a burden. We have to commit ourselves to the job, sacrifice our time to chill with our friends, and to face the ever-changing moods of the bosses. The only thing I look forward during working is payday. LOL! :D

However, I was so wrong. On my last day of work, I got so emotional that I really tried my best to stop my tears from falling because it would have been so embarrassing. Thankfully that I already took my pictures with my colleagues beforehand. If I really took it on my last day, I bet most of the pictures will turn out bad because I would have been teary-eyed. :/ That's how emotional I am. I finally realised that it is not work that I miss, it is the company of my colleagues/superiors that I miss dearly. :3

(Gift that my colleagues got me)

Special thanks to my superiors Rachelle, Celeste and Feifei for getting me this Espirit bag as a farewell gift and treating me KFC on my second last day of work. :D I went to check the price of the bag (sorry, being kaypo here), and realised that it is not cheap?! It costed $49.90 lmao omg. I am really thankful to the three of them. It has been great working under them for they took really good care of me. (Y)

(Gifts and cards that I got for them)

I got my closer colleagues a set of Hello Kitty hand cream and hand sanitizer each, and the others NIVEA hand cream. I figured that working in a air-conditioned place with the laptop as your best friend, their hands are bound to get dry/rough, hence the hand creams. I also wrote a letter for them each, as well as printed polaroids to serve as memory. :D Thoughtful of me? Hahahahas! Keeeding!

(With Rachelle, my finance manager)

(Celeste, assistant finance manager)

(Feifei, accountant)

Didn't took a picture with the rest of the colleagues because I was too shy to ask for one. Hahahas! :D Anyways, many thanks to Catherine, my CFO, for the lunch treat on my last day as well. Curry fish head is the new love. She was so nice that she even helped me scooped the fish and removed the bones before passing the fish to me. Awww, so sweet! <3

(My last day selfie)

(My workspace)

I guess I will really miss this place dearly. Heard that the lease is going to be up soon, and it will be ending next March. Sighpie. My company is going to be relocated I guess.

(Buildings and cars that I see everyday on my way to work)

(The cross junction where one have to wait for eternity before the green man comes on)

(The warm golden rays after the rain)

Warning below!

(Dead bird carcass)

It is not very clear here, but I guess you could see it if you zoom in. Dead bird carcasses are commonplace in my work area. So... even after seeing countless of them, I still get goosebumps whenever I see them. Eeew! Anyways, special mention to Daniel for comforting me everytime I see this unsightly scene. Hahahas! :DDD

All I want is nothing more

to hear you knocking at my door.

'Cause if I could see your face once more,

I could die a happy man I'm sure.