Time changes everything. Even you and I have changed.

(Ripped from tumblr)

"Life is like a camera.

You focus on what's important.

Capture the good times.

Develop from the negative, and

If all things don't work out,

Take another shot."

But easier said than done.
Nobody understand you.

Nobody truly feel your pain.
You only have yourself.
I'm tired already.

Frozen by the hands of time into a permanent Monday.

(Ripped from tumblr)

Having really bad mood swings these days. Really stressed over everything. T.T

Having meetings every now and then but we were so unproductive?! I don't get why every meeting we just have to fend off each other. Stop being so aggressive.

I know you have the project's interests at heart, and you were frustrated because we just keep getting stuck at the same place. I know. I can tell. I know you really want to do this well.

But I don't think the rest of us give useless suggestions? You, being an exchange student, have no idea how the system in NUS works. So stop it.

Things just get very tiring for both you and us. Sighs. Project is due next Monday and we were still stuck arguing on the front parts instead of the thinking of ideas for the campaign T.T Just fml.

~

Having a mundane life which is just a repetition of school and sleep. Worked for an event last week for the entire day which was plain tiring. Glad that I was able to handle the credit card machine myself :D And many thanks to my payment partner, Joanne, for being so on-the-ball. Hahahaha! 

I have a short-answer quiz and two forums due on that day of the event so I wasn't able to go out for dinner T.T Sighpie. Life. My life is a mess, it is just chasing deadlines. But okay, I saw Chateraise and I got four of my favourite cream puffs for supper for the family. Hehes. (:

KFC lunch with the family on Sunday. They have this new menu item, Shoyu Sansho flavour, and it was not bad in my opinion. But yeahs, I won't have cravings for it because it is fried chicken and I don't like anything fried hahahaha! 

(KFC's Shoyu Sansho)

Starbucks with the mother when we went to explore the new Hillion mall! There were many interesting shops on the first floor, shops that sell apparels especially, and I came across these jelly shoes that I am tempted to buy! For your information, I wear Crocs but their designs were getting from bad to worst, so I'm hunting for other jelly shoes now. Hahahaha! I didn't buy them in the end because the mother complained that I have too many shoes x.x

(Cappuccino)

Starbucks have a 1-for-1 promotion for their hot drinks, so the mother was feeling rich and we grabbed a cappuccino for me and latte for her. (: Starbucks is life. Hahahaha!

(Rocku grilled meat)

Amanda was craving for these the other day, so we headed all the way to Bugis for this. The shop is called Rocku and they serve amazing meat. Hehes, they have a variety, ranging from pork collar, to pork belly and beef tendon. There were also octopus, cuttlefish and mussels, and their enoki mushroom tasted amazing as well.

(Meat, and more meat)

It was around $16 after GST and service charge, so it was quite worth it! We didn't have to travel down to take the meat ourselves; we just need to fill up an order form and pass it to them.

(Entire plate of seafood)

The only downside is that their jug of water cost $15. And they charge for mineral water as well. Whut. We resisted our thirst because we refused to pay such exorbitant prices for the drinks, and went to grab Share Tea in the end. x.x

If I could find the words,
If I could shake the world,
If I could turn back time,
Would you still be there?

Some scars are seared on our souls for eternity to witness.

"You are poor, because you have no ambition."

(Ripped from Tumblr)

"Ambition is living a life of great ideals; a magnificent goal in life that must be realised. In the world, there are things that are deemed unfathomable, but there is nothing in this world that cannot be done. The depth of one's ambition determines the potential of one's future."

~

Backlog post.

Met up with Vivian N during the recess week to discuss summer plans with her. Sure, I did feel regrets because I didn't manage to get into the same summer school as her. But ohwell, we will make do with this. Hmmm. Just hoping that I will make new friends LOL.

I realised that our conversations used to revolve around silly things. Then it evolved to friendships and family problems. However, now it is more of mature talk, like schoolwork and internships. Is this a sign that we are all growing up?

We talked about many things. But one very memorable thing that we talked about, is our previous failures at not being able to meet the mark for our desired degree program. But as circumstances forced us to change major/specialization, we both found a new love in our current studies.

Thankfully we changed/jumped ship, because we were both happier now. Perhaps it was fate that we failed our initial expectations, because it leads us to better opportunities. Fuelled with a passion that is stronger than before, maybe that's why we find it easier to study our new subjects.

I met a primary school friend on the MRT a few days ago, and she shared with me how she just changed her major in her Y2S2. For someone to only change their major in their fourth semester, it really takes a lot of courage because they risk extending their candidature. But still, I feel happy for her because she is happier now.

In life, nothing is easy. You may make wrong decisions here and there, but eventually everything will pick up.

The prettiest smiles hide

the darkest secrets.

The prettiest eyes cried

the most tears.

The kindest hearts felt

the most pain. 

The quieter you become, the more you can hear.

A very busy week.

Decided to hop over to Resort World Sentosa with the family last Sunday. We took a bus instead of driving over because the car park fees will be quite expensive (but my bus trip was $2.50 per trip per pax also) T.T Sighs.

(Pretty sights)

('dem atas feel)

I reckon there was nothing much for me to do over here, because we were not here for the amusement park or rides. The food here is so overpriced, that we had to bus back to IMM for dinner instead. However, since we were already here, we decided to head to Toastbox for tea. Even their Toast set costs $8, and their meal set was $11. Gosh.

But ohwell, sometimes it is good to travel a little (RWS is so freaking far) and breathe in some atas air. Hahahaha! 

(Pepperoni Pizza)

Saw this on a acquaintance'a dayre before and wanted to try it. They serve super huge-ass size pizza, so it was quite a novelty for me. However, it was quite expensive so we didn't manage to. T.T Hahaha, but JJ suggested this place, and I decided to give in to temptations. Hehes.

We ordered a large pizza for the two of us, which comprises 8 slices. Disclaimer: we are not gluttons to order a large one, it is just that the crust is very thin and I am very famished because I skipped lunch. LOL.

We got half salmon and half seafood. The pizza really tasted amazing, so much better than Pizzahut omg. But then again, if you are on a quest to save some money, Pepperoni Pizza might not be a wallet-friendly. LOL.

Headed to Botanics Garden for a walk after that. It is pitch-black at 8.30pm, and it was quite scary. Thankfully there were some joggers around. D scolded me insane for heading to botanics at such unearthly hours LOLOL. 

(Back to Toastbox)

Brought the little sister to Toastbox for lunch before she head to school, and I hoping to get some work done there as well. The downside is there was no wifi available, so I'm stuck with my readings. Hmm.

The Nasi Lemak set cost $8.10 (recall RWS' costs $11). It is quite small but quite nice, especially the fried chicken. Hehehes. (:

就这样吧,
我想我听懂你话中的话

My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations.

(Ripped from saralongfellow11.wordpress.com)

"If these walls could talk,

they'd tell you my secrets;

all of which if you could read my mind,

you'd know -

On the days we do not speak,

all I want to do is sleep..

so I can kiss you in my dreams,

once more.

And on the nights I spend without you,

I lay awake to write about you..

once more,

once more,

once more."

-Christina Pavone

You were not the answer, but you made me forget all my questions.

Things to be grateful for ♥

(Ripped from Tumblr)

1. NM3215 lecture was cancelled last minute due to preparations for NUS open house tomorrow

2. Which means I can finally eat lunch on Fridays!

3. I have a lunch buddy as well. Went to packet chicken rice from the Deck with Chermin.

4. Licheng helped us all buy Sharetea, and I finally satisfied my cravings for pudding milk tea.

5. They brought me to a new place which is quite conducive for studying. I'm so sorry for the guy next to us, we were all eating and talking at the top of our voices and the poor guy beside us was trying very hard to study.

6. We ended up not studying but talked rubbish instead. Reasons why I love hanging out with them hehes (:

7. Jamie's friend joined us and I'm glad that he is like friendly, just that I cannot remember his name hahaha.


Attended the dreadful NM2212 lecture after which, and we were forced to take the front seats because we were late. This was so horrible, because it probably means that we will become 挡箭牌. Hahaha, professor is always shooting arrows at people asking them to answer.

And true enough, the professor pointed to both Licheng and I to answer one of the question. Omg, I was so tensed up. But thankfully Licheng was quite detailed in his explanation so I don't have to speak up (because usually both parties have to speak up). Hahahas thanks a lot for saving me!

If I know the answer I wouldn't mind being called. However, after eight weeks of lectures, I am still unable to figure what the hell is visual design. Indeed, I'm very lost.

Be a loner.
That gives you time to wonder,
to search for the truth.
Have holy curiosity.

The heart and mind are the true lens of the camera.

(Ripped from lovethispic.com)

Sending out lots of love

to anyone not feeling loved today.

You are loved more than you know.

So we caught our first movie together. Contemplated for very long before we decided on the movie/time/venue. LOL, because all the timings for the movie suck. Ended up catching the one at 8.20pm, and I got home 15 mins past midnight. It was a cold journey home with the strong winds, but my heart is feeling warm. (:

(The Grand Cathay)

My first time being at The Grand Cathay, and it is such a beautiful place. The walls and lighting are amazing! The movie Logan was not bad, but I prefer the other marvel movies though because in this show, everyone died in the ending. LOLOL, which is quite saddening. And being the emotional me, I teared up again Hahaha!

Thank you for coming all the way to school to find me. Hahaha, did some work together for a while first before heading out. Heh (:

I really appreciate everytime we head out together. Thanks for letting me forget all about my troubles (read: schoolwork and academic stress). It was always a good time with you.

By the way, did McDonald just increase their prices for the ice cream again? McFlurry now costs $2.70 and sundae is priced at $1.70 now?! Decided to try the lychee flavorburst instead, which I found quite refreshing, but he doesn't like it LOLOL!

A heart of gold,
a hand to hold. 
A good soul,
that's what I'm looking for.
I want somebody real,
to show me how it feels. 

We all fall down from the highest clouds to the lowest ground.

Finally a breather from school.

Submitted project proposal three days ago, and am feeling very accomplished about it.  This was the first time I really put my all for a project, and I finally fully understand how it feels like to tank projects. T.T I learnt to appreciate smart and hardworking groupmates more.

And I submitted yet another assignment today. It was a flier individual assignment which I was quite excited for, but expectations often fail you yeahs. As I looked at everyone's submissions, I couldn't help but feel sour. Geeez, how come their fliers look so great but mine so ugly?! Praying to the bell curve god now. Art is so subjective, sighs.

(Meesiam)

Found this gem with Manda at Kent Ridge the other day. Newly opened store which sells Singapore delights, such as meesiam and laksa, as well as Vietnamese and Thai milk tea! Yay to more food options! (:

(Llao llao)

First Llao Llao of the semester. Geeez, I think we really have no life. Used to eat llao llao like once a week, but for this semester we only ate once?! Geeez. And I also realised how much tv watching time I cut down this semester as well arghs.

Y1S1 - Just watch everything

Y1S2 - Watch tv, YouTube and variety shows

Y2S1 - Watch tv and YouTube

Y2S2 - Watch TV only

Sighs. Life of an undergraduate.

(D'good Cafe)

Met Huiqi for dinner over D'good the other day because someone complained that she is too bored with Jurong East already HAHAHA. Overpriced spaghetti, but thankfully there's student discount which actually doesn't really deduct much because there's still gst.

(Daily Scoop)

Saved some money from not ordering green tea latte from D'good Cafe, so I can order ice cream. LOL! Would prefer Sunday Folks anytime but we forgot that they were not open on Mondays... Zzzz.... 

I still hear the sound of that runaway train,

Roll through my heart is lost lovers refrain.

But I know in my heart I can never go back,

To the way that we were on that runaway track.

In the lonely space, between my heart and your lies, lays my wasted time.

Last day of recess week was spent attending Kaiyuan's 21st birthday party. It was great because it has been close to 6 months since the last clique gathering LOL (whatever happened to us). I miss us.

(Happy together)

Initially, I thought her theme was unicorn because she asked us to dress in pastel colours. Side note: Weina was right to wear pastel blue, but apparently not colour-coordinated with us LOL.

Anyways, so the theme was alpacca. Hahahaha how could I forget her love for alpacas! LOL, but yeahs. If I were to have a party, I thought of having a unicorn theme (see Naomi Neo's), so pretty! But nahs, I'm not having so yup. Just fantasizing.

Anyways, it was JR's birthday as well. But we drifted so much till I'm don't know what to say, except to feel apologetic. Partially my fault. Sighs. I'm sure you don't read this space, but still I'm thankful to have met you. Happy birthday :D

(Platypus with Amanda)

Throwback to Week 6 of school. We realised that we had not once stepped into Platypus this semester, so yup there we go! Decided to give the salad a miss and try their pasta instead, but boy, it was a terrible choice. LOL. So not worth it, because the pasta has nothing inside except for bacon bits and cheese? It costs $5.90 somemore. Geeeez. Conclusion: boycott. LOL. 

(But this is nice!)

I'm not a fan of expensive coffee (except Starbucks LOL), but decided to try this because it looks promising. But yup, it is really good! I got caramel espresso at $3.20 which is great because it is not too bitter, nor is it too sweet. Perfect! Amanda got this double chocolate drink, which is also not bad because the chocolate is very rich. It is very sweet but at least you got your money's worth because it's chocolate. LOLOL. Verdict: Go Platypus and try this! No regrets.

Take a shower, wash off the day.
Drink a glass of water. 
Make the room dark.
Lie down and close your eyes.
Notice the silence. Notice your heart.
Still beating. Still fighting.
You made it after all.
You made it another day.
And you can make it one more.
You're doing just fine.

There's only makeshift love tonight.

(Ripped from rebloggy.com)

"To my smile. It's been a while since I've sincerely felt you. When you were real and carefree, when you were honest and genuine and when you were effortless. Now it seems like I'm climbing a mountain to feel you again, it seems like you've been doing nothing but faking it and forcing yourself to pretend that you are happy. I miss you when you didn't know how to act, when you were truly from the heart."

-

Shitty days.

When you get rejection letters over and over again... When people say that grades ain't everything, they are lying because they do matter. They are what people use to judge you before meeting you, they determine the opportunities that you will get.

When the rejections come one after another, you start doubting your self worth. Are you really worthless in the society? Why can't you get what you want? Are you asking for too much?

But no. You are not asking for too much. It is just that there are other people out there who deserve better opportunities than you. They are much capable than you, they have better achievements and better grades. You work hard, but it doesn't correlate to your results. Maybe people work harder than you, you don't know.

People don't understand you. They try to comfort you by saying all the bad things about those opportunities / good things about not getting them. But little did they know that, all you are looking for is some form of validation for your hard work. You are just measuring it in the form of opportunities.

Just suck it up, yanqi.