They say that the world was built for two and only worth living if somebody is loving you.

(Ripped from tumblr)

People go, they fade away. They pull away from our lives. They disappear completely, forcing us to pick up the remnants and piece them up again. And the reason? Perhaps this isn't the time to point fingers, but instead to reflect on ourselves. Life is harsh. Life teaches us many lessons, but most importantly, lessons on ourselves.

Change is the only constant. Things will never remain the same way as they did previously. Things change. People change. It is only when changes occur that allow us to learn from it and to become a better and stronger person.

And yes, I think I am stronger now.

Though memories still flash back at times, and sometimes could be painful and overwhelming, I figured that instead of trying to forget all about it (which I feel that it is impossible to forget as some things/people will just be etched in our memories which will haunt us continually),  we should embrace the bad memories, whilst retain the happy moments. Am I right?

Can we pretend that airplanes
in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now.

And it was like slow motion.

I figured that if I am paid to do tutoring sessions with my sister, I'd had become a billionaire now. :/ It didn't help that she already finished her exams, her homework is piling up once again, and I'm dragged down once more. Ohgawd. I'm dog tired .____. I didn't even have an elder sibling to consult for my homework last time. :/ 

And I'm bored recently. There's not much social media updates. And everyone on a blogging hiatus?! There's nothing much to do with my phone these days. Sighpie.

So anyways, I've been eating out for lunch recently with the colleagues because the company's peak period was finally over. And after three weeks of eating out consecutively everyday, I'm starting to miss the days where I camp in the office for lunch :/

(Healthy living)

Looks good, doesn't it? I miss the salad my mama prepared for me for lunch-in. Sighpie. I have enough of hawker food. Hokkien mee, char kway teow, carrot cake. Omg. No more, no more.

(KFC)

And throwback to the KFC meal a few weeks ago wih my family. Tried their Bandito for the first time and realised that it suck. Even suck couldn't paint the picture quite right. :3

That contrast.

This town is alive with lights that blind,
Keeps me awake.
With my head up and lace untied,
The streets fill my mind.
Don't control what I'm into.

Beauty attracts the eyes but personality captures the heart.

(NUS with babes)

A. NUS FASS Openhouse

Went for NUS FASS openhouse last Saturday with my girl. How many openhouses have we already went to? T.T We talked to many seniors around, from Global Studies to South Asian studies, and I feel that they are really nice people. Friendly and all.  On the contrary, I feel that the psychology majored seniors are kind of cold. They either ignore you directly / talk among themselves and ignore you. To be honest, I really do not like the environment there. T.T

We know that there will be a series of talks scheduled. So we went to ask this psychology senior the location of the talks, and she just stare at us blankly, like huh what talks. And instead of trying to help us ask around, she did absolutely nothing. Wow, claps. We finally found our way to the talks after wandering around for eons, only to realised that we only left 10mins to the end of the talks, so no point already.

Chaomin did manage to go for the talk, and I realised another idiot thing from NUS. There will be a bell-curve marking for psychology?! Like whut. I'm sure they have a lot of 'surprises' up there. Initially they only said that the only criteria to declare psychology as your major is getting a B- for BOTH modules. I kept asking if there are any quotas and they kept replying no. Seniors and professors alike, they all gave the same answers.

I don't believe them. How can they not have a quota T.T I may be dumb but not to the extent of gullible. And so Chaomin confirmed my suspicion. Yeahs, there's a bell-curve. Zzz, this route isn't going to be easy. T.T /cries/

At this point, I really learnt critical skills of questioning and suspecting and perhaps getting evidence to support your claim. Is the school training me to be a crime scene investigator? That moment when you question your suspects, and they all refuse to speak the truth. And you'll have to try out other means to get the truth out. T.T Oh wow.

But I accepted NUS offer. Sighpie. It all boils down to branding and reputation of the school. I hope I have no regrets. I have plenty of reasons to choose NTU and only that one reason to choose NUS T.T

NUS openhouse undoubtedly is boring, but the number of free goodies made up for it. I got passport cover, umbrella, sweets, cookies and many others. We finished walking the NUS openhouse in like only 1.5h (inclusive of the time we wandered all the way to the business school). And so we decided to travel all the way to SMU tea party (which is also held on the same day).

B. SMU Tea Reception

SMU openhouse is also boring, with a series of talks being held for an hour. Arghs. Rubbing my eyes consistently to avoid dozing off. But heh, there is a buffet as always. I have a great time eating. :D

C. NTU Tea Party

And I went for NTU tea party today with Manda. Met two girls on the way, who are under the Chinese Studies major, and I felt that they are very friendly creatures. :D We made small talks, and I realised they were actually older than us. Hmm, I feel like a 小妹妹 again. Hahahahas!

Yanlin and Manda's friend came to join us later for the talk in the auditorium. Then after the one hour talk, we were split up into our divisions for the buffet and another psychology-specified talk. The buffet is no doubt delicious - I think it is on par with SMU's. But I love the eclairs here hahahahas! :D

Headed for the psychology talk where they teach us about babies and their thinking, which is quite interesting. But I'm trying my best not to doze off because I guess it has been a long time since I attended lectures, and I do not have a pen and paper with me to keep me awake LOLOL! (: But wah, at least I learnt something useful during the NTU tea party. The other two universities did not touch on their curriculum at all, so it is a waste of time, except that I can enjoy goodies and free food. :3

Another reason as to why I prefer NTU.

But okay whatever. Since I accepted NUS, I will make do with it T.T

There's a firefly loose tonight,
Better catch it before it burns this place down.
And I lie, I don't feel so right,
but the world looks better through your eyes.

I'm always outside on the inside.

What is happiness?

Happiness is when your CFO goes overseas for a meeting yet she didn't forget about you...

(Treats from Germany!)

Waseh! For a non-chocolate lover like me, I have to admit that these sweet treats are absolutely delicious. I'm in cloud nine. /blissful/ Hahahas! :D Time to hit the gym to burn off the calories /procrastinates/ LOLOL!

It has been close to six months for this job (they should hire me as a permanent staff instead of temporary rights!), and I'm truly loving this closely knit bond. My colleagues, superiors and bosses all took great care of me. To be honest, I am quite reluctant to leave this job (so why didn't they hire me as permanent T.T). There's nothing for me to hiam (嫌弃).

1) The distance's great

2) The pay's not bad

3) I get to enjoy aircon whole day

4) Sometimes I'll hitch a free ride home from my HR manager

5) There's always free food (eg. currypuffs, bread, chocolates, pancakes etc)

6) The food in my area are relatively cheaper as compared to shopping malls

(so I get to save quite a lot)

7) My superiors are understanding (I often leave the workplace 10 mins before my 放工时间 and they didn't dock my pay or anything)

(I believe it is the cleaner who did it to my table)

I'm sure I can still find more reasons, but yeahs, too lazy to think now. :P My contract supposedly will end in May (~ two weeks time), but I am not sure if they are going to renew my contract for another month. And this is bad, because I cannot predict what's in front of me (as in, whether I'd be jobless), and I hate this. 我的前途是未知数. So do I start my job hunt or what? T.T

But anyways, I still felt the need to reciprocate 他们对我的照顾. So as a gesture to thank them, yours truly got down busy to bake something small for them.

Zeng zeng zeng!

(Cornflakes cups)

Hahahahas, okay. It is actually super easy to make these. But then again, I'm an amateur baker and this is the only thing that I can do without assistance from my mummy, so... Hahahahas! (: And my close friends should know that I will shun the kitchen at all costs. :3 Ohwell, it is the thought that counts! 

I wanna be drunk when I wake up,
on the right side of the wrong bed.
And every excuse I made up,
tell you the truth I hate.
What didn't kill me, it didn't made me stronger at all.

I am under no obligation to make sense to you.

A friend is someone who gives you total freedom to be yourself.

(Ripped from Tumblr)

Types of people I abhor:

1) People with no common sense

I don't despise people who are not suited for studying, but I despise those who don't use their brains when they have a smart one. i.e. ask stupid questions when the answers are laid in front of them in an obvious manner.

2) Domineering freak who loves controlling others' life and telling them what to do

Those who wants others to follow his 'orders', to be at his beck and call. Hey, we are living in the 21st century now. Everyone's equal. I have my own brains please. I can make decisions myself.

3) Sticky pestering person who wouldn't go away although you tried all kind of various methods to shun them

I'm ain't a magnet please.

4) People with no self-confidence

He who is afraid that people may leave him and stop being friends with him, and thus causing him himself to have some psychological depression and became suspicious of everything as a result.

And congratulations. You hit all four 'nails' on the head. I cannot fathom why exactly you kept thinking that we ain't friends. You said I shouldn't act this way just because I'm tired due to work. But y'know what? Yes, I'm tired because of work. But I'm even more tired talking to you. Why must I undertake your interrogations?

Freedom.

The state of being free or at liberty rather than in confinement or under physical restraint.

So stop telling me what to do. I have the right to freedom.

Don't confuse my personality with my attitude.

My personality is who I am.

My attitude depends on who you are.

There is no sincerer love than the love for food.

Needle in the haystack, limited edition.

Rare and original, indeed.

Thanks Vian ☆

(I love huggies)

(Smiley smiley)

Long overdued post, but thanks to le bestie for bringing me out to Lady M, Orchard Central. We have to meet up soon! Missing my cafe-hopping days. Awww, thanks for giving me something to look forward to after a long day at work.

(Eggs Benedict with salmon)

First impression: great wobbly eggs

I love it! But hahahas, the dish looks abit plain though with no 'side-dishes' at the side lmao, but it tasted great nonetheless! :D

(Tarte Au Citron)

My new-found love: Citrus tarts

I love the sour taste lingering on my tongue. LOLOL! I figured my favourite is no longer cheesecake, but citrus-flavoured tarts. ♡

(Vanilla Mille Crepe)

It smells nice, but a little too bland for me. I prefer something with a stronger taste; maybe I should have ordered the green tea crepe instead. But ohwell! The crepe cake itself is nice and I enjoy peeling the layers of it while savouring it in my mouth. :D

A short meet-up over dinner is what I need to revitalise for the week. 谢了! Happy midweek everybardy!

Another thing you should
Have known from the start.
The problems in hands are
Lighter than at heart.

You're my favourite kind of nights.

Simple, good and cheap.

(A little snack time with my mama last weekend)

I enjoy chillax sessions with my mother. She is my role model, my confidante and my soulmate despite being an annoying ass by ordering me around to do housework. :P I still love her all the same. But I guess I'll love her even more if she would stop asking me to do housework chores. It is really a chore! /cries/

Sighpie. I finally understood the pain of being a working mother (now that I've been forced to accompany her do her chores). As if working long hours is not enough, they still have to cook dinner the moment they reach home, followed by other tiresome household chores such as washing the dishes and clothes.

To the one who wakes up at 5am to cook lunch for me to packet to office, thanks for sacrificing your time for your children. You're really noble! /thumbsup/ :D I mean, not all mothers will wake up at such an unearthly hour to cook rights!

So they should make Mothers' Day a national holiday or something to reward their hardwork! (Using that as an excuse just because I want more holidays)

Below are just some pictures of my Mothers' Day treat @ Pizzahut to my beloved mama:

(Seafood thin hand-stretched pizza)

(Salmon with pasta)

(Gelateria)

I really love ice-cream that contains alcohol. New-found favourite flavour: Bailey's Irish Cream. Hahahahas! :D

Before the day ends officially, just wanted to tell this favourite woman of mine, thank you for everything. Love you plenty plenty ♡

I'm moving in reverse, under your mighty curse.
I hate myself for loving you.
I turn my head away, but my heart remains,
till the day I learn, you're no good for me.

Through chaos as it swirls, it's us against the world.

Moodswings up again.

I get pissed off easily when I'm tired (and yes, I am really super duper worn out recently). So don't come stepping on my tail and blame me for snapping at you.

Sighpie. But I'm always game for a food feast. Anytime, anywhere. Yay! :D

And I decided to give my family a treat. Hahahas! :D I have promised them a treat with my first salary long long time ago but it was only until now then I fulfilled my promise. Lmao. #badkid96

Keng Eng Kee Seafood
Bukit Merah

(Salted egg crabbie)

(Buns that are as big as your palm)

(Claypot Pig Liver)

(Cuttlefish with vege)

(明珠卷 that I find it soso only, but my entire family loves it to the max)

(Marmite Chicken)

My parents are so excited about this that they even took the initiative to glance through the menu and reviews before heading down to the restaurant. First time, first time. And everything we ordered are recommended. Hahahahas! (: And the best part? It only costs $104 in total. I thought the price was reasonable. :D

Good money spent, although $104 amounts up to approximately my two working days. T.T

P.S. My company gave me this tray thing to put on the table in a bid to clear my messy table. But I regard it as a burden because it occupies yet another space on my already-full table. :/ Sighpie. Can I just put it on the floor?

She's like cold coffee in the morning.
I'm drunk off last night's whisky and coke.
She'll make me shiver without warning,
and make me laugh, as if I'm in on the joke.

We'll never fall apart. 'Cause we fit together like, two pieces of a broken heart.

#happykyuziziday

Happy belated birthday leader Sungkyu!

(Birthday's on April 28, but I was too busy that I forgot x.x)

(The sexy)

(Album photo)

Sungkyu's going to drop the long-awaited solo album on May 11. Ahhhh, I can't wait! 8 more days hahahas. I love his voice like seriously, and his funny character where he always 'bully' the other INFINITE members just because he is the eldest. LOLOL! Loves.

So anyways, despite all the 'chaos' and hastiness this week that left me feeling blue, I am in high spirits because INFINITE just released their Japanese songs a few days ago. It was yet another job well done. Well, they never disappoint! /smiley/

(INFINITE)

I'm loving it although this time round the songs are quite different from their usual style. && Woohyun got a lot of singing parts this time (okay, he is main singer, so will definitely get more singing parts than the others, but then this time round he got even more singing parts than usual)! *fangirl mode on*

(Teaser photo!)

First row: Sungjong, Sungkyu

Second row: L, Hoya, Woohyun

Third row: Dongwoo, Sungyeol

(I thought this one looked super cool)

(More Woohyun)

Hahahas, INFINITE will have another Korean comeback later in this month. Something that will keep me going throughout the arduous month of May (because my workload in company is on an exponential rise recently, sighpie). I'm eggcited omfg!

~

Anyways, recently I've been thinking. Three more months left to university, but I have not accomplished anything that I wanted to. Xiaofang went for a birthday staycation, and is heading to Taiwan with her friends this coming month. Vivian went for a Super Junior 6 concert two days ago. Huiqi stepped out of her comfort zone and went to learn dancing. But what have I done? Nothing. Just shopping and singing and singing and shopping. x.x

Okay. I am having a 'mid-life crisis' now. Lmao. Feel like trying out something new that I have not done before, but I don't know what can I do. :3

Sighpie. 1am now. I just finished watching the latest episode of Running Man (the dangerous bride episode) to keep myself from thinking too much. The variety show was super hilarious I cannot. It is really a good remedy.

I'll make you a heart pendant,
with a pebble held in my hand.
And I'll carve it like a necklace,
so the heart falls where your chest is.
And now a piece of me
is a piece of the beach
and it falls just where it needs to be
and rest peacefully.
So you just need to breathe,
to feel my heart against yours now.

Take these broken wings and learn to fly.

The biggest challenge in life is discovering who you are. The second biggest challenge in life is being happy with what you find.

(Ripped from ewallpaperhub.com)

I've made some resolutions after A's last year. Hmm, more like a list of must-do things before university starts officially. However, apparently I've learnt that resolutions are useless. How many of us actually follow the resolutions we made? >.< I am a classic example. Three months left to university and I haven't completed any of my resolutions :/

~

1) Continue to pick up my electone (but I'm lazy to travel to Dhoby Ghaut weekly for the lessons)

2) Learn my ukelele (it was simply too hard for me and I often get finger cramps)

3) Join camps and socialise more (and I'm going to miss a upcoming FASS camp due to my Korea trip)

4) Learn driving (yet I haven't even pass my BTT)

~

0/4 accomplished. Good job, yanqi, good job. Lesson of the day: Do not procrastinate.

Well you only need the light when it's burning low.

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow.

Only know you love her when you let her go.