Like fingerprints, our love was unique, complex and impossible to replicate.

Scrolling through Instagram and seeing all the happy souls having a whale of a time in their summer exchange programs. I am so jealous, but it's okay, I will wait for my turn. Hopefully my application gets through. To be honest, when some of my friends told me that they will be going to their respective summer schools alone for a month, I was a little shocked. I can never imagine myself stepping foot on a foreign land alone, must less a month.

Isn't it scary? There won't be anyone to help you if you needed help, especially if you are going to a foreign country where you cannot speak their language. But I guess it will be easier to make new friends. LOL.

I guess I am too dependent on people, but it's hard to change sighs.

Anyways, stopping by Clementi for a seafood dinner with the family because yours truly is craving for stingray. I have expensive tastebuds, LOL! :D Check out the stingray, sambal sotong and other side dishes! These food are nothing short of amazing!

(Incredible yummies)

(Complementing with satay)

On a side note, school is really reopening soon. Sighpie. How I wish time would stop now and let me continue to be a free man. Gone are the freshie days as I embark on my second year of candidature in university. It was fun while it lasted. I miss being taken care of by the seniors. :3 Sighs.

He described love as being touched by fire,
always burning you in different ways
each time differing but always hurting.
Always so intense, so beautiful, painful,
ever changing like the flame.
Scared to feel again he fills his nights
with a new love affair,
ending each morning at sunrise
when the whiskey is gone and
the song plays no more.
All he left with are lonely walks tripping
over memories of her.

You help me face all the darkness in me. You help me shine light in the spaces between.

Walking under the rain umbrella to Marina Barrage.

(Cloudy day)

I love the fact that there is no sun, except that we have to hide in the shelter most of the time because it was drizzling. I forgot to take pictures. It was drizzling so I didn't take any pictures. The view is still as splendid as ever, and the best part? There is nobody else there except for tour groups who appear in intervals for a short period of time. So it is as if we have the entire Marina Barrage to ourselves hehes! :D Some parts are under construction though, but it is alright, it didn't bother me much.

(Picnic under the gloomy skies)

To be honest, I feel ashamed of myself because out of everything, I only prepared two bottles of drinks. Sighs, I suck. I shouldn't be a girl. A million thanks to JJ because he handmade everything, from baking cookies and egg tarts to preparing sandwiches and wraps. Ahh, blessed.

~

Dinner with the family at WanChai @ IMM because the outlet in Lot 1 closed down. LOL! Should enjoy the last bit of holidays while I can, sighs school is starting again, and I can feel my stress levels coming back. This semester would be busier for me as I have more commitments now. Nooooo.

(Pork Cutlet and Seafood Baked Rice)

(Portugese Curry Chicken Baked Rice)

(Steamed Chicken Rice)

(Ginger egg pudding)

Also, I'm feeling very stressed about driving these days, because I still couldn't park after so many months. I really ought to feel ashamed about myself. Help Hexuan, I need your help.

There's nothing like deep breaths
after laughing that hard.
Nothing in the world like a sore stomach
for the right reasons.

Hold tight to the lie you sold to them.

Mentally confused.

(Ripped from Tumblr)

Unable to think with clarity.

I guess, when things get complicated, my mind will automatically shut itself off so as to stop thinking about it. Things will eventually find its way through rights?

No. That's just self-comforting.

It has been too long. Time won't heal everything. I think I owe certain people an answer. An explanation. But I myself don't even know what I want. Things are just complicated and I just don't want to think about it. Maybe I should just hibernate and cut off all connections with the world.

Sighs.

I need a light to lead me the way.

I suddenly feel like a player.

Unintentionally.

I hate myself.

You can taste the dishonesty, it's on your breath.

This time, it was hiking at MacRitchie Reservoir. :D Thankfully, it was a cloudy day, but unfortunately, it also means that I didn't sweat much T.T Sighs. Double-edged sword. LOL. And it sure is a popular spot for nature lovers, I think I see more people than trees. :3 Anyways, it was funny how there ain't many monkeys around that day?! It is not that I like seeing them around, but isn't this their habitat? Where have all the monkeys went to?

(That pristine waters)

Let's take a moment to admire the beauty of the reservoir. Sighs, but I didn't manage to catch anyone canoeing, hahahas, is it I come at the wrong timing? No hunks to ogle at LOLOL! :D 

(The only way is up)

It took me approximately 3 hours walking at moderate speed to hike up this 10km worth of route. It was tiring for a non-sports enthusiast like me LOL. It was just plain trees, trees and more trees until we reached the stretch nearing the tree top where the scenery finally change. Fresh air all the way, I feel healthier. :D

(View from the tree top walk)

Spot the trees overlooking the golf course. The view was breathtaking. The only regret I have is not taking enough photos. LOL. Or rather, I looked too shag for a 'photoshoot'. Hahahas! :D I really like this place a lot, especially the sense of serenity it gives me.

On a side note, met up with Kenneth the other day for dinner at Yoshimaru Ramen Bar @ Holland Village. It was a great meetup with this dear friend of 6 years. :D We only meet up for like 2 times a year, but we never seem to run out of topics to talk. Thanks for being my super low-maintenance friend, and hahahas, thanks for having my back.

(The ramen is delicious!)

Ordered their set meal for $20 that comes with the ramen, side dish and drink (exclude GST/service charge). I cannot get over their flavored egg, I really really love it. Hahahas! :D And should I say that he is an idiot for not eating it, so I had two flavored eggs in total. Mwahahahas! My lucky star is shinning on me.

I am the dragon breathing fire,
Beautiful man, I'm the lion.
Beautiful man, I know you're lying.
I am not broken, I'm not crying.

Clear eyes. Full hearts. Can't lose.

Saw this on L's snapchat and I fell in love with the lyrics. :D

餘波盪漾

By 田馥甄

不是你我不會 懂世界有多大

那一片薰衣草的海浪 在回憶中餘波盪漾

感受風的溫差 和人世的無常

一個人在蔚藍海岸上 送走你帶我看的夕陽

天上死去的星星 依舊在夜空閃亮

穿越千萬年的光 陪伴在我的身旁

有些溫度 不會被遺忘

就像死去的愛情 依舊在心裏閃亮

留給我無可取代

那些愛的瘋狂 讓我的生命更輝煌

你開車的模樣 你吉他的指法

你每天清晨的咖啡香

有多少懷念 被你留下

天上死去的星星 依舊在夜空閃亮

穿越千萬年的光 陪伴在我的身旁

為一場燃燒 留個念想

曾經美好的感情 美好了我的模樣

任誰都無法想像

我失去了天堂 卻得到美麗的翅膀

Keeper of my heart.

Having mixed feelings about my last day of work. Hahahas, I feel good to be relieved from all duties (LOL) and I can finally get to do my own stuff / enjoy / recharge myself before the reopening of school. However, at the same time, I will miss seeing my colleagues sighs, and most importantly, there is this loss of income. Zzzz. Dilemma much, LOL! :D I need to save money for SEP sighs, maybe I should really go buy a money tree plantation like what L says, and hope the money trees supply me enough to enjoy a luxury life for a lifetime. LOL, #dreamon

(Ripped from clipartpanda.com)

Yes, I'm dreaming, and I like to dream. LOL.

Ohwell, no work means more meetups with people rights. Hahahas, brought my family for a Bak Kut Teh meal with the family a few days ago at Bukit Panjang Plaza. :D Sighs, the mall really has nothing other than food, maybe they should really go upgrade it. T.T 

(That amount of food)

(Dry ones, and I thought this dish is interesting though I prefer the soup ribs HAHA)

(Drinks are redundant because the soup can be refilled LOL)

I guess soya milk is their best-selling drink as suggested by the name of the restaurant. Their sour plum is really good as well, I enjoy it very much. However, their barley drink is really no-go. Bland and tasteless and I hate it. T.T

And I hate the fact that school is reopening because my modules are giving me a headache. Yet again.

We had roots that grew towards
Each other underground, and
When all the pretty blossoms had
Fallen from our branches,
We found that we were one tree,
And not two.

Her beauty is a myth, her love is a legend.

So during Hari Raya a few weeks back, I went Hortpark with the family. Fortunately, it was not very crowded that day although I cannot really take a picture without any photobombers T.T Geeez, why does everyone not want to run into shopping malls to enjoy aircon but rather come outdoors and squeeze with me?! Arghs.

(Colourful buildings)

(All dem 'skyscrapers')

Disclaimer: I did not put any filters on the pictures

The scenery is darn impressive and the weather has been awesome. It is cloudy! I hate the sun and the rain. LOLOL. It was a nice trip, and I would have taken nicer photos of myself if I'm not decked in my lupsup wear. Hahahahas! :D And yes, it feels great to be outdoors again and breathe in the fresh air. I feel good ahhh! :DD

Since we are in the vicinity, we decided to check out this stall in a hawker center near IKEA Alexander because it has super long queues, which must mean the food served should be darn awesome rights! :D So I'm excited to try their food!

(Shop's Name)

(Sambal Stingray)

(Sambal Sotong)

(Prawn Paste Chicken)

(Baby Kailan)

And true, the food is really scrumptious hahahas! It has been a long time since I tasted awesome stingray even though I have to drown down my sugarcane with watery eyes because of the spiciness. Nonetheless, the food is really good! Too bad that my sister did not join us for the hike/dinner. :P

Anyways, I'm getting angst over my school. Zzz, yes, the onus is on us to do research to find out about the offered programs and all, but I hate having such a responsibility because the information online is often not updated / informative enough and I always end up doing extra work, and this is giving me a headache. Arghs. :/ How I wish life can go on smoothly without any hiccups. Sighs.

To be happier, be less shallow;
To be less shallow, express more of your
True thoughts, feelings and dreams;
To express more truth, be less fearful;
To be less fearful, be more willing to learn.

Baby, you think you can hide. I can smell your self-demise.

No idea why but suddenly everyone is so interested in my affairs? -.- I have no idea when all this started, but it seems like suddenly everyone is asking me for my schedule. Geeez, usually I would be more than willing to share, but LOL now it seemed a little overwhelming when too many people ask me and I have a feeling that I am being stalked. :/

INFINITE:

(Ripped from Google Images)

Anyways, I am having a bit of writer's block these days, hence the lack of updates. Instead, I have been diligently catching up on my dramas and variety shows heh. :D Running Man these days are getting increasingly hilarious, kudos to them! So happy that I finally found back my source of entertainment. I've been watching my Infinite Showtime as well, and ahh it feels good to be seeing my boys again. ^^ Lastly, I am also finally following the craze and catching Descendants of the Sun (DOTS), but err, I don't feel that the show is worth all the hype so I'm only slowing inching forward, LOL in other words, sad to say, yours truly is only at episode 6 after 2 months?! Hahahahahs! Sorry guys, DOTS fans don't kill me please. :D

(Ripped from Drama Fever)

Went on a Claypot craze the other day. Claypot for lunch, and claypot for dinner. Wew! :D

A One @ Jurong Point

(The noodles are yummy)

(This Chicken Claypot Rice is quite flavourful)

(This has got to be the bomb, how can porridge be so smooth?!)

(All empty)

Hahahas, I recently figured out that taking photos of our finished plates can further help to emphasise the tastiness of the food? Hahahas! :D Don't they make you feel damn hungry also LOL.

Dinner at this hawker center @ CCK area which serves awesome claypot rice! Apparently this shop is frequently patronised by my parents in the past, it is simply wonderful that the food stall is still around. Hehehes! :D

(We ordered this super humongous $20 worth of Chicken Claypot Rice)

I was driving to the area and it brought me memories of the times when my driving instructors will bring me there to drive (one of my test routes apparently). Ahhh, I miss those funny jokers! :D

Weather the storm and enjoy the rainbow.
Life happens in seasons.
Get a lesson from them each.

Now we're slipping near the edge, holding something we don't need.

Current mood: exhaustion

Hahahahas, I'm so weak ya. Having a 4-days work week this week due to Hari Raya holidays (yay!), but it didn't feel like I rested enough. :/ I'm like out every single day, sighpie, I just want to nua at home.

Attended an events job meeting on Monday and headed to Causeway Point to get my Llaollao fix with Amanda after that hehes. Met her again on Tuesday after work for a shopping date. P.S. I have been meeting her so often that L even asked why I always go out with her. LOLOL! #overlyattachedfriends

(Saizeriya for dinner)

We researched on Ramen restaurants the day before, but in the end we ended up at Saizeriya again because we are feeling broke. LOL! Saizeriya always sell cheaper alternatives (despite smaller portions). LOL. I had risotto and Amanda had squid ink spaghetti, and it was freaking hilarious to see her eat her food because of all the black sauce on her lips and teeth. Is it vampire coming out soon? HAHAHA.

(Last week at Saizeriya with Amanda)

See what I mean by going there too often?! Hahahahas! (: But lesson learnt: always order spaghetti. LOL, the portions are bigger so more filling I guess.

(Twelve Cupcakes)

Anyways, I finally bought Twelve Cupcakes home for the family because I was feeling rich that day (LOL), and it was my first time trying hahahas. I really like their packaging ohgawd. What a lovely pink and I have an obsession with everything pink. Hahahahas! :D

Check out these gems:

(Box of goodness)

(Chocolate Banana)

My favourite flavour among the whole lot. Hahahahas! (: They have banana oozing out of the cupcakes when I bit into it, and it is so yummy! #happygirl96 Now I finally understand what the craze over Twelve Cupcakes is all about. LOL, but still... very expensive ah. T.T

And I miss cafe hopping. Sighs. It is an expensive activity zzz.

The only possible moment of
Happiness is the present.
The past gives you regrets.
And the future, uncertainties.

Keep every promise you make, and only make promises you can keep.

I thought the words are beautifully written.

(Ripped from Tumblr)

"One day, you will ask for my forgiveness.

And I will tell you this.

Where were your sweet words when your words tainted my soul?

Where was your loyalty when your broken promises broke my heart?

Where were your tears when my eyes choked on mine?

Where was your heart when my beats fainted in my chest?

Where was your pain when mine ran through my veins?

Where was your love when mine for you lit through my eyes?

Where was your light when you captured the moon from my night?

Where was your depth when you took the pearls from my ocean?

Can you remove the darkness that you shed off my soul?

Can you mend the promises that you broke?

Can you cry my tears back into smiles?

Can you beat the beats back into my heart?

Can you cleanse the pain from my veins?

Or can you weave my love for you back into my eyes?

Can you put the moon back into my night?

Can I trust that you'll dive into an ocean you've already stole?

If it's my forgiveness that you want,

Take it.

It is not for you,

But for me.

Take it and walk away.

But don't you wait for more.

The doors you closed have been welded.

And the keys have been thrown into the seventh sky."

-Najwa Zebian

This and that.

Have been on the receiving end these days, and I cannot help but feel blessed. From the hawker center trippin' dinner treat from JJ, Yoogane dinner treat from L, Shabu Shabu lunch treat from Yiai and Ben, and the many, many times of McDonalds' treats (eg. nuggets and ice-cream) from Ben, deep down from the bottom of my heart, I am really grateful. What have I done to receive all these kindness?

Now that my work contract is really nearing to an end, unknowingly I also stopped counting down to my last day (that irony, or maybe it is just because I am just too overwhelmed with work to cross out the days one by one LOL). In the earlier days, I really wanted to leave the company asap and I used to tell myself that I will never ever step foot into this company again, but after 4 weeks, my perceptions have changed, because having nice colleagues make me comfortable with staying, and I even request for extension of contract (but subject to approvals luh). :/

Really grateful to the nice people I met in my life. I should stop complaining that I do not have any friends, because I think I am too blessed to be surrounded by so many nice people. I just hope that this is not temporary. >.<

(Before)

(After)

Anyways, featuring the $55.55 Yoogane dinner for 2 persons. Heart pain. :3 The food is not worth it. T.T But still, really a million thanks to L for the treat! :DDD

(Shabu Shabu)

I forgot to save the close-up picture of my pork. Damn it. Hahahahas! :x Ohwell. But the peanut sauce is the nicest that I have ever tried! (Or I am just too famished LOL). But yay, lunch treat from colleagues to celebrate my farewell. No wonder the food taste exceptionally good that day, because "free food always taste good", quoted from Benedict. I LOL-ed.

What goes on in one's mind is far
More beautiful than anything a
Photograph will ever be able to display.