I've never heard silence quite this loud.

Internship Week 14

(Last Day of Internship)

It is my turn now to leave this wonderful organisation. Thanks National Library Board (NLB) for everything - my bosses and colleagues, my fellow interns, the guidance they provided me and the opportunities for me to grow.

From left to right:

Chim, Gwyneth, Elyssa, Anna, Cheryl, Ain, Jasna and Sabritri. Missing Taufiq and my designer! 🖤

(Last Lunch)

Last day of lunch with my lovely intern friends! Thanks Shaoyuan, Colin and Haziqah. Colin finally made the right order this time. Background story: he can't take spicy but he ordered spicy sauce the previous time. LOL, he was craving so badly for Eighteen Chefs but he couldn't eat a single bite! HAHAHAHA.

(Farewell Gifts from Colleagues)

Love the gifts that they gave me! (: Thank you all, I will use them wisely! My team also treated me to expensive three-course lunch by the way. Words alone can't express my gratitude to them.

(Farewell Gifts)

Tada! Revealing the farewell gifts that I have prepared for my team - hand drawn with love. P.S. I am quite proud of my artwork.

I ain't good with words, but I would like to express my heartfelt thanks for all your kind gestures. Than you for your guidance all these while, I really learned and grew a lot. The entire internship journey was tough yet an enjoyable experience. I would really miss y'all!

The battle is in your hands now.
But I would lay my armor down.
If you'd say you'd rather love than fight,
So many things that you wish I knew
But the story of us might be ending soon.

She is the type of girl that the moon chased and the stars wished for.

Internship Week 13

(NLB Camaraderie)

Work these days really make me appreciate colleagues better, LOL. Fatiha had some business to clear in the headquarters today hahaha, so I introduced her to my other intern friends (we were stationed in the headquarters except Fatiha). Had a great lunch today, and I'm happy that everyone can click so well together! (: You guys really make my day! Appreciate it.

(Ah Chew desserts)

Back to our daily grind - Ah Chew desserts - with Colin and Shaoyuan. I swear all our hard-earned money all went to eating desserts, specifically at Ah Chew. T.T All Shaoyuan's fault for the jio, because he knows that I can't resist desserts!

(Wok Hey Takeaway)

One of the rare times where we takeaway food back to office to eat, because we just wanted to avoid the crowd. Thought that the packaging for the Wok Hey was cool, but I didn't quite like the food because I find it too oily (and expensive). But apparently, Colin buys it often. LOL.

(Ah Chew Desserts)

Another day, another bowl of dessert. I guess we really need to stop eating, I need to watch my weight already?! This is the second time we were back at this place this week omg. T.T

(Jason's last day)

Time flies! It was Jason's last day for his internship already. Ded, we only knew of each other's existence last week during the intern presentation LOL. Better late than never, at least we made friends for a week now. Hahaha! (: And it's also soon going to be Caeryn's last day. Gonna miss the both of you, and all the best for your future endeavours!

You're the one that never lets me sleep
Through my mind, down to my soul,
you touch my lips.
You're the one that I can't wait to see
With you here by my side, I'm in ecstasy.

You know it's deep when someone's absence has an effect on your entire being.

Internship Week 12

Time flies, and I am really looking forward to go back to school! LOL, they always say grass is greener on the other side uh. When you are schooling, you feel like going to work. But when you are working, you feel like going back to school. These are my thoughts and feelings currently. Hmm x.x

We had this intern luncheon last Friday, and I am so glad that I decided to do the presentation in the end. I had an internal struggle initially because on one hand, I didn't want to do it because the thought of presenting to the senior management sounds scary and it is definitely not nice if I screw it up. On the other hand, I wanted to do it because it will force me to step out of my comfort zone, and yeahs I also wanted to impress them luh :P

(My favourite friend, Fatiha)

The presentation went quite well, and I am quite proud of myself. :D It was so sad that Fatiha had to miss my presentation because she had to run some work-related errands, and she only came after the presentation sighs x.x But ohwell, glad that she is embarking on this journey with me! The mingling session also allowed me to know other fellow interns, which is quite nice because everyone is so friendly and welcoming! P.S. I only knew of the existence of this other intern who is working at the headquarters during the mingling session T.T Goodness, I thought I was the only intern working at the corporate office, why nobody ever introduce us to each other?!

(Eighteen Chefs)

Finally eating some 'atas' food with the interns. LOL, Colin was not feeling very well so we decided to accommodate him and head to Eighteen Chefs for lunch. Guess which idiot place the wrong order? He ordered some spicy sauce to go with his baked pasta. However, he cannot take spicy and it came with chili padi somemore LOL!! We wanted to make him feel better by eating nicer food, but ended up he only ate one-third of his lunch. LOL, this is a joke seriously.

To celebrate the end of internship presentation, my family decided to head to Swensens for dinner. (LOL I made it sound like some super big project, but it really was eh - I had to went through four rounds of meetings and six revisions before my slides were finally approved T.T).

(Cream of Mushroom)

(Chicken Baked Rice)

(Carbonara)

(Rosemary Chicken)

(Lasagne)

This reminds me of the reason why I had not been to Swensens in such a long time. LOL, the food really not nice ehs! In my honest opinion, the bread with the soup was too hard. Soup spoon is so much nicer! I think you can also get better lasagne at Pizzahut. >.<

I suppose I love my scars
because they have stayed with me
longer than most people have.

Love's a little messy and you are too.

Week 5 Internship

I think I have found my calling in life. I may be complaining a lot, but I really enjoy my job. I like the tasks that I'm doing right now, except that it is still too fast-paced. I'm still learning how to adapt. But yeahs, there were many things to do and it leaves me a headache almost everyday, and it doesn't help that I'm sick for the entire week and I'm on medicine so I'm constantly drowsy. And my supervisor loves giving me urgent tasks last minute which I really hate it a lot. But I guess this shall be the pre-empt to my working life? 😅 Positivity.

(Aloha Poke)

Backlog, backlog. So that day, I met Amanda for dinner after work and she had a craving for poke bowl. It was expensive but I relented and decided to splurge a little and indulge myself in this tasty bowl of goodness! (: Aloha Poke was not bad and the servings were fine, so I'm pretty happy that day.

(Bingsu)

So happy that we went for desserts and we were such direction idiots that even with Google maps, we were still lost. We simply could not find our way around to Nunsongyee. LOL, we ordered the cheesecake bingsu and I love it!

It was a good meetup where we just talk about anything and everything under the sun, like those good old times. Too bad university suck us dry, and even though we were studying in the same university, same faculty even, we seldom meetup during school time?! LOL. Sighs of adulting.

(Salted Egg Chicken)

On a separate occasion, I met up with Shi Wei for dinner at Chargrill Western! First time at the restaurant, and it feels good because I like checking out new eating places. The prices here are comparable to Astons, but I feel that Astons still win hands down LOL. So anyways, he ordered the Salted Egg chicken whilst I ordered their signature chargrilled chicken.

(Chargrilled Chicken)

Yes, I'm just typical. The food that I ordered also very typical LOL. And we ordered cheese fries also! As much as I love cheese fries, it really was fries overdose because we didn't realize that our main courses already came with fries. LOL. Okay, joke.

(Love dem cheese fries)

We walked around Northpoint City and grabbed Share Tea in the end cause I'm too thirsty. It was nice meeting him after five years LOLOL. Didn't thought I will be meeting him after JC ended, but I guess maturity comes with age and I learnt to cherish friendships more now.

(Hot pink balloon)

Phototaking with my sister's helium balloon which she received as a CCA farewell gift. Must make use of this phototaking opportunity LOL. The lighting sucks and I'm too lazy to do any post-processing so yup, here's the photo in its original state.

But here I am an open book
Turn the page it's all the rage
Get a look on the inside
Oh what you get is what you see
Baby you hold the key
To the diary of me

Happy people focus on what they have. Unhappy people focus on what's missing.

"When one door closes, another opens"

I would want to believe in this. No, I should believe this.

I wouldn't say this was a pleasant experience, but I feel that nonetheless it was a good learning point for me. I think I have grown much from this incident. I learnt to be more independent, but most importantly, I start to understand myself better. At least, I have a better idea of what I want to do in the future (and what I don't want to do).

The root of the problem boils down to miscommunication and lack of rapport. It takes two hands to clap, so I admit that I did not play my part well also. Being a communications student, I say this is a good learning point because it allowed me to experience firsthand the impacts of ineffective communication.

(My biggest takeaway, Natalie)

It was a bad incident that I will never ever want to experience again. But despite all the bad happenings, I am still grateful to all the nice people I met. Small little acts such as sharing food may be a small matter to someone else, but it matters a lot to me. It makes me feel appreciated, and that my efforts were being recognized. It makes my heart warm and fuzzy, and that's the reason why I joined them in the first place.

I'm thankful to all the friends that I've made during my short stint.

(Dearest Natalie, I saw the words "twelve cupcakes" on the packaging, but why I only receive two?! LOLOL!!)

To Natalie, Chongyi and Anis: Thanks for looking out for me and taking care of me. Even though we only see each other that few times in a week because of my part-time schedule, thanks for staying by and making me feel a sense of belonging. Thanks for standing on my side. Even though we are powerless, thanks for restoring my faith in humanity once again.

He found the wild
Trapped within my heart.
Instead of trying to tame it, 
He tore the cage apart.

There are two kinds of people in the world. Those who keep you grounded, and those who weigh you down.

Three weeks into my part-time internship and I was already feeling the shagness. Sometimes I question my life decisions, why did I even take up this internship when I'm studying full-time in NUS. Moreover, I'm not even underloading - I'm taking the average workload in school. LOL. My exhaustion, I brought it upon myself yeahs. T.T But then again, being busy gives me the false impression that I'm productive. LOLOL. The feeling feels so good.

(Parmesan Garlic Fries)

Throwback to my first lunch with the colleagues. They brought me to this atas cafe called Wine Mansion located at Outram Park. The walk from the MRT was so complicated that I have no idea how to go there again without the help of Google maps. LOL. Anyways, we wanted to get truffle fries initially but cries, they changed their menu so there's no truffles fries anymore. We ordered parmesan garlic fries instead and it tasted superb as well! The portion is so generous, gosh.

(Shashukha)

This is a dish of beef gravy, eggs and bread. Quite interesting yeahs?! It is scrumptious too! I'm quite happy that my colleagues can all take beef, LOLOL. Anyways, I swear the whole group of us was being quite 'suagu' because we kept asking the waiter questions. To be honest, the menu looked alien to me because I cannot understand what are the dishes half the time. I mean, how would I know what's this 'shashukha' rights? I went to google, and I realized that it is of Tunisian origin, and it quite a popular dish in Middle East and North Africa. #interestingfacts

(Beef Kebab)

This is the main highlight of the day! I ordered beef kebab, but regretted instantly because the beef was quite overcooked. Should have stick to the chicken instead, it is more tender. Nonetheless, I still enjoyed the dish. The portion they gave was so huge that I only managed to finish the entire beef kebab, half the rice and a few mouthfuls of salad. LOL. My colleagues looked at my speed of eating and went "I'm sure you cannot finish". Hahas, yeahs I really cannot finish. Gosh. This is too much.

The cafe is actually not bad yeahs. I only paid $15 in total for everything, and I was seriously stuffed to death. I had a food coma after that, so I kept dozing off at my work table. LOL, oops. #exposed

Anyways, thanks for recommending such an interesting place! It was quite cheap considering the quality of the food (and it is a cafe LOL), and they specializes in wine. I don't know how to drink wine luh. T.T

She's desperate for more dreaming,

more feeling, more giving, more loving.

She is in need of more Mother Earth.

Leave footprints of love and kindness wherever you go.

Missing the carefree life.

(Movie Night)

Movie night two weeks ago with the entire PAD department. No longer an intern there, which means I do not have access to events like these. But yay, I have a good friend who managed to get me in. Thanks Hsienhean for the invite. (:

Watched Spiderman again, and it was my second time watching this. I watched it in 4D when I was in Korea! But yeahs, no matter what movie it was, it was the company that matters. I felt very happy to be able to catch up with my fellow interns! :D And the best part? They have catered buffet dinner! Woohoo! 

(Chestnut Nature Reserve)

(Into the woods)

Explored a new hiking place with the family last Sunday - Chestnut Nature Reserve. It was located in Bukit Panjang area, and it was very near Dairy Farm. Hahaha (: It was a relatively easy route because there's wasn't any slopes or stairs. *throws confetti* And it wasn't sunny because there's alot of trees. *double celebration*

There are a total of three routes, but we only managed to walk two. Does this mean we will go back again very soon to explore the third hiking trail? Hahaha, by the way Chestnut Nature Reserve do offers mountain biking trails as well. To be honest, I see more bikers than trekkers during my time there. LOL! I guess it should be a good place for mountain biking? (:

(Sesame Bingsu)

Then we went to get a bingsu for tea. Went Hillion again, because it's one of the cheaper places that sell bingsu. But warning: my mummy had weird taste and she ordered sesame bingsu (who the hell orders that?!) and it really turned out to be really queer...

By the way, after I came back from Korea, I noticed that there are a few changes to Lot 1 shopping mall. And one of it is the new addition of Chateraise! Omg. Yaz!

We underestimate the
Power of silence
Silence is power
It can take away from what's right
It can add onto what's wrong

I think it is great to find out someone's story. I think it's even better when you become a part of it.

This was a super backdated post. Oops!

I ended my internship two weeks ago. It was my first internship, and to be honest, it was to a company that I have never ever thought of joining, or rather interning at. Hahahaha, it totally doesn't suit my personality but ohwell, I have no choice because I was rejected by many companies after knowing that I am only going to intern for a short period of time. Like really super short period of time. T.T

But no regrets. I really love this internship. The jobscope, the work culture and most importantly, my team and my fellow interns. (:

(Farewell gifts from my supervisor and colleagues)

This is so cute?! Hahahaha, thank you all for being so patient with me, for guiding me, and for giving me advice on life/work. I have the chance to interact with many colleagues and to work with them for various programs (or rather shadow them LOL). It was absolutely a good opportunity to see what my future media job entails. 

(Farewell lunch treat)

I'm so blessed, my assistant director Simon Ng treated the entire team to lunch at Kenny Rogers for my farewell. It is a restaurant located at Velocity, Novena, that serves Western food. I was famished that day, and so I ordered as such (as shown in the picture) and everyone commented on how much carbs I'm taking. LOLOL, paiseh I just want to be full. But anyways, this restaurant is freaking expensive ah...

(Interns ftw)

And not forgetting my cute interns: John, Shaokai, Jasmine, Jiawen, Huiyi, Donovan, Richmond, Isaac and Rachel who is not in the picture. LOL, it was such a large group yet I was so amazed that we can actually bond quite well?! LOL, I miss eating lunches with them, going home with them on the dot. Sighs, just because I left the internship early, please forget me not. :D

(My cute New Media Team)

Special thanks to my supervisor, Winnie. Thanks for bringing me everywhere for various events, not to mention, shoots and filmings. I was quite involved in the filming for the K9 dogs and I was amazed by myself, because I am really scared of dogs. LOLOL! (:

Not to forget, my other colleagues: Evelyn, Kexin and Jianhao. They really helped and guided me a lot. Thanks for believing in me and giving me the chance to take charge of projects, like the interviewing of candidates. LOLOL, gosh. I was so nervous for it.

To be honest, I really felt saddened by the fact that I would not be able to see the project, that I embarked on with my fellow interns, to the end. Sighs. At that point in time, I really wish to extend my internship arghs but I can't. Isaac was saying that perhaps I can extend, then take leave for a month (because I was due for summer school). HAHAHAHA What nonsense!

(Jasmine, my partner-in-crime)

My fellow intern from the same team under different supervisors. Hahahaha, what would I do without you. I will always remember the times the both of us sharing a laptop to do work. LOLOL, thanks for being there because my workload is halved. I'm sorry that my absence meant that you have to tank everything by yourself. But I'm sure you will enjoy it! :D 

(The closest interns)

Thanks for always bullying me, and giving me the strength to grow and fight back HAHAHA!

Sighs, speaking of that, recently the interns had the chance to meet Nathan Hartono and had their pictures taken with him. What on Earth?! Can I just fly back to Singapore now sobs.

(The NS boys)

My former intern, YanYi. Even though we only worked together for a week, thanks for giving me all the tips and advices, e.g. Who to look out for in the office. LOLOL! So stroked to find out that she also joined the Criminal Behavioural Analysis Competition (CBAC) which I also did join. HA, so the interns and the NS guys should stop laughing at me for taking half-day leave (and slogging my guts off through OT-ing to compensate the hours) just to join this competition.

Then we have the NSboys HsienHean and ChiHian. Just endure for awhile more because y'all are going to ORD soon! Thanks for being the big brothers in my life, for tolerating all my nonsense. Hahaha!

I always pester HsienHean to help me login to the computer because somehow my account was shut down T.T And I actually nagged at ChiHian, my cubicle mate, to stop throwing his food waste and packaging into the wastepaper baskets at our cubicle because it will attract cockroaches. LOLOL! 

(Farewell gifts)

I got my team some tea and biscuits from Marks and Spencers. They are not the cheapest, but I really like the packaging and I hope it taste good! :D The broke me can only afford oreos for my interns and other colleagues HAHAHAHA. 

I took pictures with the team leaders Diana, Edward and Ricky as well. The pictures are on my Instagram you can check them out hehehes. Uniformed man lehs :D

All in all, I really thank everyone for their help and guidance. I really enjoyed my short stinct here. It was a good experience and to be honest, I'm actually thinking if I should apply to go back and intern during my next break HAHAHAHA. 

We paint things
We paint people
the colors we want to see
to make it easier to love
to make it easier to hate

I'm at a place in my life where peace is priority and negativity cannot exist.

Lack of updates because I'm busy preparing for everything sighs. I am done with both my internship reports and have submitted them. Yay! I can finally breathe! :D 

Previous week's happenings.

1. Intern lunch @ Standing Sushi Bar

Guess who's feeling rich that day that we all decided to Grab all the way to Bras Basah for our sashimi fix? No wonder my monthly expenses were doubled that of Amanda's. With that said, I haven't gotten my pay yet LOL. T.T

(Plate of salmon sashimi)

It is quite a good deal actually! They have a promotion on Mondays, and so it only cost $3 for 5 sashimi slices! I paid $7 for mine, including service charge and GST. It is cheap and good, yumz! :D

P.S. The restaurant must be so happy to serve us. We only ordered salmon sashimi and we only stayed there for 30 minutes or so. But they earned ~$75 from us. LOLOL.

2. Mother's Day celebration

Belated celebration because we refused to squeeze with the crowds on the actual day itself. Blame it on me because I forgot to reserve any restaurants. Oops. But ohwell, in my defense, I managed to get a great deal! :D

(Big platter)

(The legendary pot)

(Cheese sauce)

So I booked The Flame Cafe using the Eatigo application and I received a $5 Capita mall voucher. Say whut?! I am a happy kid. LOLOL. (:

With that said, I didn't actually like the restaurant. The waiter tried to 'con' us into getting some expensive set ($38 per pax), but lucky the sharp-eyed me found a $20 set. The two sets were similar, just that the more expensive option includes expensive seafood such as Tiger Prawns. But the cheaper option serves prawns as well, so I don't see the reason why I should pay more...?

Shortly after we were served our food, the soup started spilling out. I guess they didn't tighten properly or the pot might be cracked, I don't know. We had to request for a change. T.T

There was a wide variety of food available, and the best part? It is free flow! From vegetables to the different types of mushrooms, different types of meat to different types of seafood. They do serve drinks such as Thai milk tea and fruit punch, and ice cream which is damn nice.

But wait, I haven't gotten to the problem yet. So despite the wide array of food available, the waiters forever cannot get my order rights. One moment they served me the wrong food. The next moment they missed out some food from my order list, and it still didn't arrive even after I submitted my order list twice. There was also once when they lost my entire order form. I have waited for so long for my food to arrive and now they were telling me that the order list was gone?!

This restaurant is featured on a lot of platforms, and is endorsed by many bloggers. However, customer service really means a lot to me. So my verdict for The Flame Cafe: not worth the hype.

3. Dinner @ Griddy's with Amanda

Finally met this girl after what seems like eternity. Hahahaha! She's always too busy to make time for me tsktsk. Popped in to Griddy and gosh, the both of us started coughing non-stop. The smoke from all the cooking is really $('&) :&=% terrible. T.T

(Soup in a cup)

I like this idea of serving soup in a cup. And their cups are so minimalistic, very aesthetically pleasing. Thumbs up! :D

(Sides)

The set meal comes with a side as well. It was quite worth it - $10 for the three-course meal. I approve :D

(Chicken steak with Aglio Olio)

It is not spicy, thankfully. But I didn't really like their main course. It is lacking somehow. Hmm... And dry I would say. Ohwell, wouldn't come back again unless I'm feeling broke yet still craving for atas food. Hehehes :D

(Mango Shaved Ice)

After the recent Bingsu craze that took over Singaporeans, I'm sure many of us would have forgotten the taste of one of our all-time favourite Taiwanese dessert - mango shaved ice! :D Glad to find this shop selling mango shaved ice in Westgate, Jurong East. I forgot the shop name. LOL.

(Teriyaki Squid)

My favourite food ever. Hahahas, super stroked to chance upon the Japan festival (?) after dessert and they have a discount for this because late at night already LOL. We got this box at $5, and it is really a huge portion! :D Yessss!

This was never meant to work.
I was holding on to nothing.

I'm going to make everything around me beautiful - that will be my life.

(Ripped from Tumblr)

End of Week 5 internship. 

Time flies and I only left one more week to go. Gosh. I got new tasks to do and I'm feeling pretty excited about it. Hehehes :D I embarked on this project, but it is quite saddening because I cannot follow up on it so T.T Sighpie.

Suddenly regretting signing up for summer school because I want to extend my internship but I cannot. Zzz. Ohwell... I will miss everything. My job, my friends, the work environment. Most importantly, I want to see my project materialise. x.x

1. CBAC with Yan Lin

Took a half-day leave to join this Criminal Behavioural Analysis Competition and it was quite an interesting experience. Thankfully YanLin is free to join the competition with me, and it was quite fun and enriching as we were given puzzles to solve.

(Buffet lunch organised by CBAC)

Didn't know we could get replacement for our missing teammates (LOL, they couldn't get here because of work), if not we would have gotten other friends to join us instead! But ohwell.

I realised last year it was also only me and Yanlin who attended LOL because the rest have lectures/tutorials during the competition time. LOL, me and Yanlin were jokingly saying that maybe for the next year, we could just sign up with both our names will do :P

2. Lunch with Boss

Went out for a shoot that day and I had lunch with my boss alone. Thankfully it wasn't that awkward. LOLOL, I realised Winnie love taking photos of food also! Hahaha, that moment when she went "this angle good, this angle!" I got a shock of my life. Hehehes :D

(Omo Omo Food Concepts)

(Boss ordered three different types of chicken)

Aesthetics 10/10

Taste 10/10

Worth checking out this eatery. It is $8 for this bowl of goodness. Would totally go again if it is not located at Kallang Wave Mall which is 100,000 miles away from my home. Hahahaha! T.T

(Getting our Starbucks fix)

Slacked in Starbucks for a good 1.5h because we were waiting for the crew to arrive. What an excruciating wait because we have nothing to do. But I'm thankful for the aircon and the one-for-one Starbucks promotion. My boss even thought of a caption for me in case I wanted to post the picture on Instagram. Isn't she cute! (:

3. Lunch at NTU with family

Back to NTU again. This time we tried the Szechuan food stall and I wasn't that impressed with the food. LOL, should have just stick to our usual Ayam Penyet.

(Egg with tomato)

(Greens)

(Pork with celery)

A lot of greens this time. I feel healthy LOLOL. I have been eating so much junk food these days, thanks to intern life. Time to cut down, hmm...

4. Bingsu with the sister

The sister decided to extort money from me again. LOL, this time round she brought me all the way to Hillion Mall to satisfy her Bingsu cravings. And guess what? We found this cheaper alternative at the food court at Hillion Mall!

(Hillion bingsu)

Injeolmi bingsu which costs $8, it tasted fine! Next time can go visit again. :D But someone please control me from eating too much bingsu. I'm having an overdose now. LOL. 

While trying to be, still subconsciously
thinking how others may want us to be
ask yourself: are you doing it for you
or are you doing it for them
it's okay to let it all go
the constant journey
and battle for growth