High off his love, drunk from his hate.

Countdown: 3 more days

Monday Blues.

Yup. That's the day of the release of the A's results. 2 March 2015. I dread it. After two years of torturous studying, the 'long-awaited' moment to prove myself has finally arrived.

This is all too nerve racking for me that I have been suffering from countless of sleepless nights already. Tossing and turning in bed, thinking about my results, envisioning what will happen on the results day itself. I often have such panic attacks, hahahas. I can never be calm. T.T

*crossing my fingers and toes*

Throwback to happier times. I hope I can be as happy and carefree on Monday as I were during our Marina Barrage trip with my homies. Yes. Faith. Believe. I think I am already prepared for the worst. Now, we shall leave it to fate, because I know I tried my best already.

(Snap One!)

(Snap Two!)

We walked all the way from Marina Bay to Marina Barrage which took us nearly an hour, lmao. We acted like tourists, with our maps and selfie sticks and all, snapping pictures wherever we go. It was a super windy day, hence our wild wavy long hair just kept flowing with the wind, so our faces became like this ._______. I tried my best to control my hair already! :/

(Stupid photobomber)

That vast greenery. It was not very crowded fortunately. We brought nuggets, fruit salads, snacks, sandwiches and drinks for a picnic. We were famished, and thus we gobbled down our food quickly. It was a good day, except that our kites wouldn't fly during such a windy day. What is this?!

The weather went a little unpredictably crazy that day. It shone hard, shining so radiantly, before drizzling, then went back to the scorching hot weather again T.T Alas, I got sunburnt. Badly. My skin peeled and my tan line is freaking disgusting :3

(Chocolate Indulgence)

(Oreo Cheesecake)

(Chocolate Lava Cake)

Yay to sweet treats over at Sweet Recipe. (: Virgin experience, but I think the cakes tasted not bad. So I am a happykid. Hahahahas! :D I think someday I will go back to try their main courses. They look delicious.

Then home sweet home. It was a freaking tiring day... But I was basking in happiness.

And I will too on Monday. Yes, I can do it. I can do it. Faith. Believe.

We keep this love in a photograph.
We made these memories for ourselves.
Where out eyes are never closing,
Hearts are never broken.
And times are forever frozen still.

I gave it all, but all you do is tear them up.

Zoom zoom! The five days of holidays are over. T.T So fast, omg. I hope everyone had a great Chinese New Year! I did enjoyed mine. :D And now, it is back to the dreadful thing: work. !@#$/^&*()

初三: Shopping > ABTM3 Midnight Movie

(Ripped from Google Images)

So I was freaking excited because my friends were all telling me how great this movie is, like it is a die-die-must-watch. And I got even more excited when my parents agree to a midnight movie (it was my second time because the previous time I watched with my friends when we stayover at a class chalet lmao!) #happykid96

"The only easy day was yesterday."

How true. Things will only get more difficult in the future. Sometimes, I do miss the pre-A's life. Studying is definitely easier than working. Gah. Speaking about that, 6 more days to Doomsday. T.T

初四: Waffle Date & Running Errands

Did practically nothing, except running around everywhere. With a car, that is. To the bank, to the temple, to the sports complex to activate my sister's card. Tired die me. T.T

(I thought this was blog worthy)

I love spending time with my family, especially because I hardly see my Daddy around as he works overseas. Thanks for making me feel loved over and over again. I love y'all very much ♡

These foolish games are
Tearing me apart.
And your thoughtless words
Are breaking my heart.

So let's take a walk and get lost. Let's take a chance on finding us.

I used to think monkeys are harmless...

I spent my 初二 over at MacRitchie Tree Top Walk. :D Hahahahas, last year I spent it at Labrador Park, and we 'trekked' all the way to VivoCity. LOL! (: So yeahs, I seem to be always doing unexpected things. Hahahas!

(Nice scenery)

(Selfie!)

I looked like some tourist, taking pictures wherever I went. LOLOL! (: Spotted many angmohs (hawt guys) and Malays and Cheena families (which are kind of unexpected?!)

(Monkey!)

So there are like hundreds and thousands and millions monkeys there (I don't remember seeing so many the previous time I was there. Monkeys reproduce at a fast pace arhs??). Witnessed another monkey-snatching-food episode, which was kind of scary. LUCKY THEY NEVER SNATCH MY BREAD BECAUSE I AM SMART ENOUGH TO BACK FACE THEM. LOLOL, what will happen if you are there munching your food in bliss and a monkey just swoop down the tree and grabbed your food while SCRATCHING your face in the meanwhile ._.

And they are freaking disgusting. Because when we were on the return route, and had to pass by a river of monkeys (they were literally in the canal thingy), one of the monkey decided to just gnarl at my mummy, which made her screamed and run with her arms in the air. NOT FUNNY OKAY. I was in shocked too. If the monkey really attacked my mummy, and my daddy bashed it up, I think my entire family will be attacked by the army of monkeys there. O.M.G.

(View from the Tree Top)

(The prettayes)

On a lighter note, here's a view at the tree top. :D Hahahahas! LOLOL! See the angmohs at the back??

(Lunch)

Surprisingly, the hawker center nearby was opened for business. And gosh, since it was the New Year's, they increased the price of the dishes by 50 cents to a dollar. T.T Hahahahas. But it was still crowded though.

(Tower)

We then ventured over to Upper Seletar Reservoir to snap a picture with this tower thingy. I don't know what is it, but my Daddy says it is a historical thing blahs blahs blahs. So yeahs :3

And this is how I celebrated my 初二. Lmao! (: Fulfilling day.

Broken love in a broken world.

Picture perfect in a broken frame.

I would like to be able to gently drift in and out of existence whenever I want to.

Happy 初一 guys! :DD

Woke up late. Bad start because I have to keep rushing around. But thankgawd I predicted this situation to occur (as usual), so I got ready everything the night before. Hahahahas! :D Smart me!

Not going to post ootd like everyone because I looked freaking weird. Like my face and hand postures and everything. And my super red dress that makes me look like a red tomato. First time wearing such a orangey red dress that till now I am still in shock. Hahahahas! (:

(So I will pose a we-fie instead)

Visit relatives. Collect red packets. Yeahs, the norm. Saw fascinating pineapple tarts with cheese on it that tasted not bad. But I was so freaking tired that I dozed off in the midst of eating 鱿鱼. Lmao! :/ Chatted awhile before heading home to lou hei! :D Hahahahas!

And that pretty much ended my day. Ohgawd. So boring. I want play Bridge why nobody play with me. && somebardy please teach me how to mahjong please!

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Throwback to Kenneth's birthday. Hahahahas! (: Thanks for the 6 years of friendship. A great soul that made me realise that platonic friendships do exist! Hahahahahas!

So we plant ourselves in D'good Cafe @ Holland Village. Again. Sighpie. I am so freaking sick of Holland Village T.T

(My best buddy)

So I was rushing to meet him after my work but his guy over here was late for nearly an hour (55 minutes to be exact), and I was like exploding. But y'know I can't stay angry for long so ... T.T

(D' good dinner @ D'Good)

I did not treat him.

(Yummy Chicken Tikka Masala)

So he ordered this dish over here, and he was like some guniang (oops sorry!) and asking me worriedly if it is going to be spicy. Yup, the first guy on Earth that don't eat spicy like me. Lmao! Then I was like ._____. This dish is delicious, by the way.

(Fresh Prawn Chilli Aglio Olio)

Yup, I can take this level of spiciness thanks to the presence of my lovely cup of green tea latte. Hahahahas! (: I love how the enormous prawns are fresh (not the frozen kind), though the aglio olio just taste meh. Pizzahut better I guess!

(Green Tea Latte)

I love this kitty latte art. I love animals latte art. So kewt that I can't bear to drink it! Hahahahas! :DD I need a daily dosage of this omg.

Lay a whisper on my pillow.
Leave the winter on the ground.
I wake up lonely, there's air of silence
In the bedroom and all around.
Touch me now, I close my eyes
And dream away.

You are music to my heart.

Happy Chinese New Year Eve everybardy! :D

Applied for leave today, and spent my entire morning spring cleaning. Housework is indeed cumbersome. Sighpie. I need a maid.

Headed to my maternal grandparents' side for reunion lunch and we were greeted with a huge table of delicious-looking food. From yusheng, to noodles, to pig trotters, to roasted chicken, to curry. Mouth-watering! :D Hahahahas!

Chatted a little with my relatives and it was not too bad. (: I managed to get rid of the damn awkwardness (perhaps because my cuzzie is stuck in UK and is not present and the whole situation looked less intimidating). LOLOL! (: Caught a bit of the tv and had a sing-a-long session (okay, I think I am the only one T.T). It was pretty mundane, but I guessed I have passed the past 18 years of CNY like this tooos. :3

Then we headed to my paternal grandparents' house for reunion dinner. It was more crowded, and some of my relatives even have to sit on the floor. Oops, somehow I think my cousins grew shorter over the past one year. LOLOL! OR DID I GROW TALLER. Hahahahahas!! :DD

Yusheng again with my favourite abalone and salmon. The buffet that we ordered came with almond jelly, sambal prawns (?), fish, more abalone, yam rice, scrambled egg and more. (: The food is nicer than last year's although we ordered from the same caterer. Hahahahahas!

Watched some random movie with them (I don't know what is what) and I nearly dozed off whilst everyone is laughing their asses off. Whut?! Tried to get my friends to talk to me, but the connection over there really sucks. Sighpie.

We didn't stay for too long and we headed home after that. (: It was a long day but I'm loving my yusheng. Cheers to a happy me! :DDD

I didn't take any pictures today because I still find it awkward to take pictures with them. So yeahs, throwback to a Korean meal at Yoogane a few weeks ago.

(A full plate of chicken)

(The size of the thing)

(Octopus!)

(Ramen)

(Side dishes)

(The strawberry sauce on the I-dont-know-what-veggie)

(Yeahs, we wore a bib)

(Cheese in topokki?!)

(With my lovely mama)

Great but expensive meal ($80+ for three people). Heartache arhs! (: Hahahahahas! Anyways, I'm looking forward to my Korea trip in June! I'm nearly done planning it already. Woots! :D

The bed's getting cold and you're not here.
The future that we hold is so unclear.
But I'm not alive until you call.
And I'll bet all odds against it all.

You had my heart inside of your hand.

So it was Valentine's Day yesterday. I didn't have any guy to celebrate it with, so ta-da! This is when your girl friends come in useful. LOLOL! :DDD Oops, exposed. :P

Day out with HuiQi

(With my favourite)

So the plan for the day was:

table tennis > lunch > ktv

1) Table Tennis

Venue: Yishun Sports Hall

Duration: 2.5 hours (because too many tables available, so we ate into the next slot)

Comments: Rusty skills / legs sore from all the picking up of balls

2) Lunch

Venue: Swensens, Northpoint

Comments: Disgusting food (cheese is watery & bland and unpalatable)

Other Comments: Too little of everything but I'm freaking hungry (rice/cheese/chicken)

I actually have nice memories of the dish. What happened?!

(Chicken Baked Rice)

(Hazel-something Ice Cream)

But thank gawd the ice-cream saved the entire meal. Awesome taste, but I'd really appreciate it more if the scoop is bigger. Hahahas, but the ice cream looks pretty. So okay. (:

(Mike, my best friend)

3) KTV

Venue: Teoheng, Sembawang Shopping Centre

Comments: Sore throat after 3 hours of intense singing (and shouting perhaps) 

BUT why everyone comment on my NMS shirt?!? :3

It was a long and tiring day, but the day's good. Cheers!

P.S. My butt really hurts now from all the playing of the stupid table tennis. Omg. I have problems sitting down now T.T

And if you hurt me,

Well that's okay baby

Because only words bleed.



Wishing you were here because the memories are not enough.

(Ripped from Tumblr)

These days, up and down I go on an emotional roller-coaster ride, and the feeling sucks. Terribly.

I've been trying hard, really hard, to extinguish this tiny fire within me, whilst telling myself that it's alright, everything will be fine. I've been trying hard, really hard, to control, so that I will stop becoming a burden.

And I thought I have succeeded.

But sadly, no. Within that few minutes, because of your one small tiny minute stupid act, you reignited the flame and got me burning inside out. I felt as though I was on cloud nine. I was flying. Carefree, wide smiles. Happiness. I thought life was finally going to go the way I planned.

But. I should have expected it.

Happiness is short-lived. Or maybe it is simply my fault. With a past that could never be erased no matter how much I wanted it to be. Yes, it was all my fault. I bring it upon myself. I deserved it.

I fell back down, and hit the cold unfeeling ground. Hard. Pain. Bam. My hopes were all dashed. Back to reality.

It was just simply a sweet dream.

Ouch. The truth hurts.

I let down my guard, I fell into your arms.

Forgot who I was, I didn't hear the alarms.

Now I'm down on my knees, alone in the dark.

I was blind to your game. You fired a shot in my heart.

Take me home where my dreams are made of gold.

Happy Birthday Woohyun! ♡

(Sweetheart)

Hahahahas! :D To the best singer with the strong powerful vocals, the cutest guy with the greatest aegyo, the talkative guy who never fails to brighten up the lives of his groupmates, happy birthday!

And yup, he's my ultimate bias in INFINITE. ☆ Cheers!

On a side note, this post will have nothing to do with food because somebody complained that my blog is filled with wayyyyyyyy tooooooo much food. I guess he's just salivating at all my food pictures. :P Y'know, jealousy. Hahahahahahas!

(Day out with my senior)

So I will post my pretty face instead. Lmao! :DD

It's been a long 3 years since we last met. Hahahas, he was my CO senior in Secondary school, and I guessed he had sort of watched me grow. Hahahahas! I made him sound old rights, but the truth is he is really old. :3

I still remember how my entire batch hated him because he always tried to sow discord between us and the seniors. Maybe not intentionally, but the harm was inflicted. And yes, it soon became a war where we hated the seniors and the seniors hated us.

P.S. I saw on Instagram before that our seniors and juniors went out together without inviting us. That's quite... hurting? But ohwell. I fell out with my Secondary school clique cum CO mates as well x.x

But yeahs, over the years, I guessed we have all matured. We are more rational, logical now. We learnt to look at things from different perspectives, and we learnt to let go. I guess that's the most important lesson that we had learnt from the transition to adulthood. (But I'm not that old luh hahahas, just that I had known this senior of mine for the 7th year now.....)

Yup so, I met up with him the other day at Holland Village for a dinner, and I was so shocked that he has become a changed person. Both visually and mentally. Hahahahahas! :DD He told me he has abs now but I took that jokingly. LOLOL, on a side note, I realised NS men love wearing snapbacks. Hahahahas! :P

Just wanted to say thank you for all these years. You have been a great senior, a great friend, and a great listener. 

My senior, Ang Gee Tat.

A weird name and I laughed it out and got into trouble for that when we first introduced ourselves during the first CO seniors and juniors bonding sessions... Hahahahas! :D

Life is not measured by

How many breaths we take,

But the moments that take

Our breath away.

Simplicity of a goodbye.

What a hectic week! Most of my closer guy friends are enlisting this week, so I spent three consecutive days out for dinner to 'celebrate' their new chapter of their lives. Hahahahas! (: Which is kinda tiring if you ask me. :/ And I missed my TV shows because of them T.T Be honoured!

Day 1:

(My one and only poppyflower)

Yeahs. So it was us two again because Moehan & Weina were late as usual. Spent an hour plus camping in Xinwang Cafe catching up while waiting for the two slowpokes. We nearly died of hunger I swear.

(Reminiscing our childhood)

Hahahas! (: we are missing Yangfan again, but nonetheless, it was a splendid expensive dinner.

Day 2:

Finally, our first CO dinner after A's, or rather our first dinner after we stepped down from CO. Hahahahas! (: That was like a few months ago...  -.-

(Lousy iPhone quality)

Okay maybe not. iPhone picture quality is the best. I guess it is just Junho with his selfie stick and shaky hands and lousy phototaking skills. T.T

Hahahahas! (: So we finally decided on Hot Tomato for dinner (it was such a bother to settle on where to eat with such a big group T.T). We camped there for a few hours, and in the end we were cued by the waiters to leave because we were the last customers hogging the seats and they couldn't clear and pack up and go. Lmao! (:

(Last group shot)

Although it is not full strength here, I love the no-awkwardness between us and we can just speak our minds. (: We can talk about anything under the sun, and I suddenly miss the memories we shared together. I mean, they are the closest family to me in school after my clique. (Since my CCA took up most of my time and we always spend our after-school sessions together figuring out some ways to pon CCA -.-)

Day 3:

(Secondary school mates)

Yeahs, and three of us are in AJC. Hahahas! (: First time dinnering with this group, and to be honest, I was a little reluctant to go out with them initially. As in, I'm fine with Xiaofang & Tionglei, but me and Jocelyn had stopped talking 2 years ago. As y'know, I hate awkward situations omg.

But I'm glad I did in the end. The atmosphere was fine, but I just couldn't open my mouth that day. Hahahahas. I feel uncomfortable not talking (I tend to talk a lot), but I have no idea how to join in the conversation -.- So I guess I'm just an awkward turtle there omg. Yikes.

But anyways, to the guys, have fun in Tekong. (: Glad that you guys made it into the February batch because there are many holidays around the corner, like the upcoming CNY. Hahahahas!

And talking to them made me realised for the first time that, they are actually super nervous about NS. Tionglei even went to watch videos, read blogs and everything else to mentally prepare himself, whilst the three of us just laughed at him. Hahahahas! :DDD He is so freaking hilarious omg.

Because if I let you in,

You'll break a part of me

from the inside.

'Cause it is just too precious

for me to have it.

Memories are special moments that tell our story.

So I am actually quite bored at work so here I am drafting my blogpost again. LOL! (: I sounded so free omg. But hell no, I am too efficient that I finished all my assignments on hand. Fast and furious. Yeahs! :DD

So TGIF with my bae last week. Hahahas! :D Thanks for working OT for me! Who ask you so early release. Hahahahas! :P Life's unfair, /cries/.

So we went Ichiban for their fish cheese curry. I love the curry, but unfortunately the amount of curry that they served is ~!@#$%^&*() little ._____. But I still love the curry. Hahahahas! Ate some sushi off the conveyor belt, camwhore a lot, and left the restaurant feeling full. :D

P.S. Feeling the pain of being adults. No student meals, and gawd. WHY IS EVERYTHING SO EXPENSIVE.

(Cheese Curry)

And tada: llaollao for dessert! :D I finally got my first taste of it. #lagorlag Hahahas! The queue's long, yet fast. The food's alright, but nothing too fantastic. It is a little overrated like what Seah said. Hahahas! :D But yeahs llaollao > sogurt, but I'm yet again broke. T.T

(llaollao!)

Then went shopping/window-shopping a little for Valentine gifts but ended up not purchasing anything because everything-is-too-expensive / we-are-too-poor. -.- Can my boss please report to work soon so she can sign and pay me my salary?!?

(Wefie!)

Then we lepak at Long John Silver because we are too tired to continue walking. LOLOL! :D #oldhags Hahahas! A great day out, and cheers to more TGIFs together!

SIGHPIE. Back to work. /roll eyes/ Gosh, I'm so tired. But first, let me eat pineapple tarts first :P Hahahahas!

This is the bend before the break

when we forget the harmony.

This is how watercolours fade into

distant memories...