Paper towns.

Drowning in school.

Can't help but feel overwhelmed with all the impending deadlines and quizzes. NM2212 is the worst module to take ever, I believe it could double up as a level 4000 module?! Why would anyone in the right mind give students three graded quizzes a week, and on top of it, a weekly forum post?! Arghs.

Say, yesterday for instance. I couldn't even attend my event meeting with a peace of mind because my brain kept wandering off to the quiz. Will I finish studying my readings on the way home? Will I rush home in time to do the quiz? It seemed like our dear professor is helping our parents to keep an eye on us because he set a 'curfew' for us to reach home.

But sighs, it is not an easy module. Even after studying the readings, I still failed/barely passed those quizzes. Is it I'm too lousy, or is the quiz too hard? I hope it is the latter. T.T

I understand where my professor is coming from, but this is really too much. I just hope days will be better as I get used to his style of teaching x.x I'm starting to regret not heeding Dewei's advice to change module. Arghs. T.T I deserved it.

Things are not made any better when I received my project grouping for another module just now, because more than half of my group are all exchange students. Nooooo. T.T

It is only week 4 of school, but I'm already super shagged.

But okay, no use complaining because everyone is probably going through the same thing as me. But still... x.x

Currently heading for tuition now, so I thought I could update a little about life. The few days before the Chinese New Year was super hectic.

So yup, I managed to squeeze in lunch with Kenneth on Monday despite our busy schedules. I really thanked him a lot because I made him travel down all the way to Buona Vista although he is the birthday boy hahaha! I got lecture at 2pm mahs, good girl like me don't skip lectures :P But yeahs, happy 21st birthday, my dear friend! 

(Yes to ramen!)

(Gyoza is life)

Unfortunately, we went at the wrong time and hence, we were stuck in the lunch crowd. We queued for thirty minutes or so, before we were ushered into the restaurant. We parted ways after that and I headed to my lecture feeling happy.

There were a lot of problems with my transcript application and so, I had to email and call, and even head down personally to the office to talk to the admin officer. While I was waiting for Amanda to finish her tutorial, I had to waste time trying to deal with all these problems, instead of using that time to complete an assignment T.T

Problem finally solved a few days later after multiple emails. Can the school just go and fix the online system?! 

(Saizeriya)

Dinner with Christel and Amanda over at Saizeriya. Humans are habitual creatures, because me and Amanda ordered the same old dishes. Again. LOL.

(Waacow)

Finally eating Waacow again after so long! Unfortunately they increased prices, so I burnt my wallet again. The food is still as nice, so it is good to treat yourself once in a while yeahs? (:

Thought that school will be better because I made some new friends, but no. Now I'm regretting overloading. T.T

When I look into your eyes,
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise.

I just need some time in a beautiful place to clean my head.

(Ripped from hdwall.us)

MAMIHLAPINATAPAI

(n.) A look shared by 2 people,

each wishing that the other would

initiate something they both desire

but which neither wants to begin.

Love may not make the world go round, but the encounters make it worth the trip.

It sucks to know that you suck. When your plans failed, and your backup plan failed, and your backup plan for the backup plan failed also... Sometimes I wonder why am I such a loser.

When you cannot beat people in terms of intelligence levels. And now, you cannot even beat people in terms of speed.

Am I really that failure in life T.T

Ohwell, at least I am enjoying my social life instead of wallowing in sorrow from my academics. Some happenings last week:

(Because it's Peggy's birthday!)

Headed over to Peggy's crib last Saturday to celebrate her 21st! It was my first time attending a 21st birthday party, so naturally I was quite excited. And I love the theme 'blue and white' because it is very simple, very pure and just gives off a very soothing vibe. (:

(Woo Ricebox)

(Mummy and Daddy's share)

I'm never ever going to patronize Woo Ricebox again. They have really poor customer service. I thought that I would give them another chance, but nope they blew it up. And the food is cold and hard and not that nice?! For your information, the shop is located at Jurong Point, and it serves Taiwanese bento sets.

(EAT's Laksa) 

(Satay Beehoon) 

Headed down to Clementi Mall because Daddy need to fix his step tracker. Yup, it broke down a couple of times but we always manage to fix it, until this time round, it was totally hopeless. And because I just went for my monthly braces appointment and my dentist helped me tightened the braces, I have super big problems biting my food. I ended up swallowing the whole bowl of laksa without biting. Omg. Indigestion much.

(Saizeriya with the bestie Amanda) 

It has been a long time since we headed out together. Or rather, long time since we ended school at the same time. So yup, went Jurong to shop for our Chinese New Year clothings. Decided to just chill and anyhow wear some comfortable apparels will do, because CNY is coming too soon and I am still not yet in the mood yeahs?

I love pictures so much.
The concept of freezing a moment in time
And capturing the essence of that moment is insane.

I was just another promise that you couldn't keep.

(Ripped from rebloggy.com)

Fear of happiness.

You are afraid to feel happy. Because you are afraid that you will lose that happiness soon after. Because you are afraid that happiness will slip through your hands when you are caught off-guard. Because you are afraid that misfortune will come along soon because you have already experienced happiness.

Because happiness is fleeting, it is temporary, it is delusional.

I miss you more everyday,
But some things are better
Left unsaid.

Be the captain of your soul.

(Ripped from Tumblr)

And yes, this came super late. But new year resolutions are a yearly affair so hehehes (: However, this post is just plain words because yours truly is too lazy to ransack the hard disk to find any pictures to complement this post. T.T But okay, let's move on.

2016 has been a great year. It has been a journey of self-discovery; it has taught me many new things, and I think that I have outdone my own expectations. I am really proud of myself for coming this far. So here is a summary of my achievements/amazing opportunities in 2016:

1. Attaining my driving license


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One step closer to adulthood, I have finally gotten my driving license. Just two more weeks to removing my P-plate, but hahaha I'm still so lousy at driving omg why. Nearly got into a few accidents or car crashes which my daddy was so frustrated that he actually cursed at me, but I thank my lucky stars that nothing happen to both the car and myself and my passengers T.T

2. Making quality friends and reconnecting with the old


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2016 has also gifted me with amazing friends, and I am determined to keep them close to my heart. I have been pretty much friendless in 2015 (with that, I mean most of my 'friends' are just hi-bye acquaintances), which often led me thinking that there is something very wrong with me. So thank you friends for appearing in my life.

2016 has also led me to reconnect with the old friends, although we didn't meet that often in the second half of the year, I'm glad that y'all stood by me, giving me courage. Really thanks to Amanda, Huiqi and Vivian. The three of you have really been my strongest pillar. I finally realised the significance of quality friendships over quantity.

3. Switching Major


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This year, I also came to the decision of majoring in Communications and New Media rather than my dream course, Psychology. I realised expectations and reality are really different (what a harsh reality), but I'm glad that I made the jump because I'm much happier now. I found an even stronger passion in my studies, and also hehehes, a new-found love in video editting. (: Yeahs, I'm still working on it.

4. Obtaining satisfactory grades


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2016 has been good to me because my grades were relatively good (relatively because there were still some annoying grades that pulled my CAP down like shit). My CAP has been improving, albeit slowly, like really crawling up. It was so freaking hard to improve, but I guessed I have to pay for my mistake of not studying hard during my first semester T.T

5. Awesome job opportunities

(Ripped from fox valley mall)

I'm glad for the many job opportunities that I have been blessed with. In 2016, I managed to find a holiday job during the summer break (even though I spent more time searching for a job instead of working, and yes I regretted because I could have better make use of the time to do something more practical like an internship T.T). I'm thankful for my colleagues for treating me so well, they are really very, very nice people. Even though the work is shit, you guys really made everything better.

Then I managed to find another part-time event job as well, which is something out of my comfort zone, because LOL, it is not office work. I have a fetish with working in offices hahaha omg. I guessed I learnt some soft skills here because this job requires me to really communicate and interact with customers. And part of the jobscope includes calling, which I absolutely hate. I prefer to interact face-to-face because it seems less intimidating (okay I'm just weird). But yeahs, it forced me out of my comfort zone (because you cannot possibly reject the tasks your bosses ask you to do rights!)

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I started giving tuition this year as well. And yes, it made me more confident of myself, like hey, I have the ability to coach people as well. (: It also brought me happiness because my kid never fails to cheer me up with his silly tactics and him getting excited over the slighest thing. I guess we did have some kind of knowledge exchange as well, like how I taught him academics and in return, he taught me how to play games. LOLOL T.T

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I also did some odd jobs, the most memorable being an invigilator! How cool is that! But I need to sacrifice my time and it was damn shag during that period because I had tons of assignments due. But ohwell, the job is too enticing. (: So I get to manage the class throughout the entire session, like prepare the examination room, read out the announcements before the start of the exam, walk around the room to ensure there was no cheating, and collect the papers. Hehehehes! The best thing? They trusted me enough to put me in-charge of an examination room. :D

6. Experiencing the world through travelling

2016 has also given me many traveling experiences. I realised I have travelled to three different countries, experienced their culture and way of living, and widened my horizons, but it also led me to better appreciate Singapore. No matter where I go, I miss home.

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Hong Kong. This was my first time travelling to a foreign country with friends. I'm thankful for my parents who sponsored everything (except my accomodation). I really feel like a mini grown-up then. Thank you Amanda and Weina for being such awesome travelling partners, and for making care of me especially when I fell sick during the trip and even puked. Eeew. I'm ashamed of myself. LOL.

(Ripped from tumblr)

Cambodia. I initially felt dubious of this country, at that point in time I will choose to travel to Vietnam anytime. However, I'm glad to make this choice in the end, because the country is just so beautiful. Angkor Wat is the main tourist attraction (it seems like we are playing real life temple run in the cultural site hahaha). Killing fields is another attraction, and it was really heartwrenching as we walked through the misery suffered by all these innocent victims under the Khmer regime.

(Ripped from anatomyoftheawesome)

South Korea. A country that I have been meaning to visit for the longest time ever, but it was always met with problems whenever I'm due to go. I'm no kidding, in 2015, I had to cancel the trip due to MERS and even though my air tickets were fully refunded, my accomodation was only refunded half of what I paid. T.T Then it came the Park Guen-hye protests, then there was the strikes by the pilots from Korean Airline. I even witnessed the protests during my stay in Korea, it was quite a sight. LOLOL.

7. Failing 

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However, I do have my fair share of tears. Getting constantly lousy grades for psych, failing to get jobs/internships, getting rejected for exchange and even failed my appeal, hurled at with vulgarities by the closest people because of tactless (?) driving, constantly getting put down by people, even by people who matter a lot to you. I hope all these failures will make me learn and grow to emerge stronger.

I hope my life will be like a J-curve (hell yeahs Econs, the only thing I remembered from Econs). Having hit rock bottom in 2015, I'm glad that 2016 is much better, and I hope that 2017 will be even better.


(Ripped from quotesgram)

I hope that with the new year, I can be a better self emotionally and rid myself of this inferiority complex; to be able to step out even more from my comfort zone; to spend more time alone without negecting my family and friends.

And one last thing, to sleep by 12am everyday. LOL!

Life has many different chapters for us.
One bad chapter does not mean it's the end of the book.

Place your past into a book and burn the pages.

Sorry for the lack of updates. It was a busy period for me: from unpacking my luggages to bidding for modules and trying to settle my timetable, to shopping for gifts for my friends' 21st birthday party and meeting up with old friends. To top it up, school started this week and life is really very hectic. Ohgawd.

So last Friday, I headed to school to print my notes before collecting my Taiwan souvenirs from JJ. Yay to 奶油酥饼! Omg my favourite ah! After which, I went to meet Huiqi for a KTV session and my heart was happy. :D

(injeolmi bingsu @ Nunsaram)

They changed their bowls and I'm sure the size became smaller whilst the prices remain fixed T.T Ohgosh?! Why must they increase price when they are already so expensive?! Recently went to grab a cuppa of Starbucks and was shocked that the price was also increased?! Or is it just me. T.T

(Creamy Mushroom Chicken Omurice)

(Tomato Prawn Omurice)

Found the lunch deals over at Miam Miam, courtesy of the discount queen Huiqi. Priced at $8.90, each plate comes with a cup of iced tea. It is quite worth it because after GST & Service Charge, it is even cheaper than Hot Tomato Hahahaha! And it tastes delicious, my tummy approve!

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Then another day, I headed to town to meet Vivian and her plus one to shop for Peggy's birthday. Finally bought a bag in blush pink after walking forever, but was pretty satisfied because I thought the bag was very pretty.

(Marche)

Virgin experience at Marche and I have to admit that the entire system was damn cool, like you pay using a card first. But I got a shock of my life when I realised my Rosti cost $16.90 and I'm not even a potato fan?! Gosh, I don't feel that the taste justify its price so. T.T But their tea is pretty not bad, go try their Hibiscus tea with orange. It is damn good!

(Green Tea Bingsu @ O'ma Spoon) 

I became a O'ma Spoon convert after Nunsaram changed the size of their bowls and became more expensive. Hahahaha, first time trying green tea flavour and I have no regrets, it was nice!

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Then it was meeting up with the Grumpies. It has been a long time since I truly laughed so much. Thanks guys for making the day so memorable for me!

(Missing Yangfan so much!)

(Dinner @ Hot Tomato)

And Amanda is going to get a scare when she sees that I screenshotted her posts here:

But yes, it totally resonated with me, so... Hehehehes! Love you guys so much! :D Can't wait for our next meetup, and hopefully by then, Yangfan can join us!

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(Timbre+)

Went out many days with friends, but I never forget my family hahaha. So yeahs, my mama dragged everyone to Timbre+.

(Japanese food for my daddy)

(Western for my sister)

(Japanese for my mama)

(Garlic prawn noodles)

They actually still charge GST gosh. Foodwise is okay, not fantastic, but okay, one can head there to enjoy the ambiance. They do have an interesting concept - it is compulsory to pay for your trays. However, the money will be refunded when you return the tray. I thought this was a great idea to encourage people to take responsibility to return their own trays!

Alright, I will try to update more often but my future looks bleak ah. The first week of school is enough to kill me, but I'm thankful that I have a friend with me for every module. This is the first time in my 2 years of University. LOLOL! 2017 is starting off good.

You're dark gray like a storm cloud that's
swelling up with rain that is desperate to be let out.
And I know it's a heavy load,
Carrying those tears around,
Carrying those fears around.
Worry makes the world go 'round.

Cause baby, I could build a castle. Out of the bricks you threw at me.

Backlog.

And yes, back to year 2016.

Christmas lunch with the mother at Ding Tai Fung because they have lunch promotions! :D But despite so, the bill still came up to $40 for two pax T.T Ohgosh. We are such big eaters.

(Xiao Long Bao)

(Egg that is doubly delicious)

(Yangzhou Fried Rice)

(Fried Noodles)

After returning from Korea, I really learnt to appreciate Singapore a lot. Especially the food here, we have tons of choices, such as Chinese food, Western food, Korean food, Japanese food, Thai food etc. However, in Korea they only serve Korean food. So guess who got bored of eating Korean food now? :3 I need to go for another round of Ding Tai Fung soon. LOL! (:

(Tai Cheong Bakery)

(Look at the wonderful goodness!)

And yes, the sister finally decided to contribute to the household by buying food back. Hahahaha! These little bombs are really expensive. T.T It costs $2 each, and the sister bought 8 in total. We baked the eggtarts before eating, and it tasted absolutely delicious :D Bring me back to Hong Kong, their Taicheong eggtarts only cost 80cents. Sighs.

(What's Christmas without Christmas drinks?)

Thankgawd Starbucks have the one-for-one promotions, and the sister gladly bought these cuties home for us again. Shown above are the Green Tea Latte and Toffee Nut Frappe. I really enjoyed the green tea latte except that it is kinda too sweet, but ohwell :DD Worth a try though!

(Yuzu White Chocolate Logcake)

Pretty looking cake that comes in a pretty looking box and bag. Can't bear to eat it, ohgosh. The cake is surprisingly not that sweet, so it really suits my palate. Just that it is a little dry, but I still find it acceptable. :D This year, I got my cake at $33 from Polar.

(Christmas present for the little kid)

Was doing a little shopping and I came across this cute little kit. I thought it would be interesting for my tuition kid, so I got it as a Christmas present. Hopefully, this gift can bribe him to study harder and bring back better results ah!

(A for effort)

The lazy me even went an extra step to go wrap the present. So kid, please show some appreciation for my efforts and study hard and do your homework. LOLOL!

After doing up this post, I realised my Christmas was spent eating and eating, and eating somemore. Ohgosh.

Growth is painful.
Change is painful.
But nothing is as painful as
staying stuck somewhere
you don't belong.