Be in love with your life, every detail of it.

Grandma's birthday today! :D We celebrated two days in advance because I had a EL1101E paper today and MS1102E paper two days later. LOLOL. Hope to see her in pink health again, because I still want her to be actively standing up to scold me. Hahahahahas! :D Speedy recovery, ahma!

Throwback to a mini feast at Novena with family. Yummy! :DD Mummy's favourite. And speaking of this, I'm craving of tzechar. Sighpie.

(Prawn-paste chicken)

(Tie Ban Tofu)

(Vegetable)

Hehehes, yum yum in my tum tum! :D Looking forward to more feasts after exams. I'm saving money now to splurge after my exams (LOL, as if I even have any money).

Anyways, just a mini story to share that I find quite meaningful. My uncle was queueing for coffee yesterday when an elderly in front of him suddenly fell. My uncle rendered assistance by helping to stablise him and bringing him to a nearby chair to rest. He even helped the elderly to buy his coffee. After having a mini-chat, my uncle found out that the elderly unfortunately had cancer and he was here for chemotherapy. The very next day, this same elderly actually camped in front of the 7-11 with a packet of chocolates and waited for my uncle to turn up to thank him for his help. He didn't even know what time my uncle will arrive at the hospital but the elderly just stood there and waited for him.

I guess, it is the little things that we do sometimes even without noticing that matter. Even though my uncle just helped the elderly and it was nothing much really, yet the gratitude he received was so great. And it is because of these small acts that made me realised that mankind is inherently good after all.

Everything will be okay in the end.
If it's not okay, then it's not the end.

May the night wrap its arms around you and protect you while you rest.

Press on, the finals are soon coming to an end! :DDD I am actually super happy today because I'm finally done with the most burdensome PL1101E. Whoopee! Putting 'how have I done' aside, I'm just relieved that it is finally over. All my previous papers weren't well done, but ohwell. One can only be forward looking, I just want this nightmare to end quickly! Two more papers to freedom!

(Ripped from Tumblr)

"You do not get to choose the events that come your way for the sorrows that interrupt your life. They will likely be a surprise to you, catching you off guard and unprepared. You may hold your head in your hands and lament your weak condition and wonder what you ought to do. To suffer, that is common to all. To suffer and still keep your composure, your faith and your smile, that is remarkable. Pain will change you more profoundly than success or good fortune. Suffering shapes your perception of life, your values and priorities, and your goals and dreams. Your pain is changing you."

-Pastor David Crosby

Half the world is starving, and the other half is trying to lose weight.

(INFINITE's Dongwoo)

A mini post because it is Dongwoo's birthday today hahahas! :D Happy Birthday! Come, quick everyone wish him happy birthday. He's so cute luh, hahahahas. Okay, back to mugging. Finals in three days, ohno and I feel so ill-prepared T.T P.S. I used to hate my exam schedule, cause I don't really have a break in between (ie. most of my exams are held on consecutive days). But after seeing Hexuan's exam schedule, I think I should be thankful for my schedule already. Hahahas! :/

Throwback to my Eighteen Chefs meal with family the other day:

(Eighteen Chefs)

Japanese curry which looks a little unappetizing, but it actually tasted fine.

And seriously, it is a signal for me to refurbish my house soon. What's up with the recent hoo-ha in my house -.- Light bulb fused in kitchen a few weeks ago, and I just changed it. But yesterday the light bulb in my storeroom-cum-wardrobe/changing room fused. Water taps start leaking. Sofa was suddenly 'bestowed' with split lines. Wts. 

Sometimes we're too quick to count

down the days that we forget to make

the days count. Don't rush life.

Angels raining down on me.

A special day for my love. ♥

(Reusing my insta's photo)

生日快乐 bimbz! A year older, a year wiser. Glad that you finally matched up to my intelligence and maturity level (hopefully), hehehes. Hope you enjoy your day and have a blast with your Junjun LOLOL! *oh goosebumps, gross shit* Hahahahas!

I miss your company omg. I love how we always deesiao each other, you always make my life as interesting as hell. And how you are always there for me even though I am a bad friend, much loves. ♥ We need to go out soon, Itacho Sushi date please! Happy birthday bestie! Hahahahas! Miss you plenty plenty, and I can't wait for finals to be over. Burdensome only. Arghs.

~

Stupid finals got me feeling like ~!@#$%^&*(). Falling sick in the midst of reading week is not fun at all. Surviving on low levels of sleep and high levels of caffeine/snacks. Sometimes I wonder how did I even manage to made it into University. LOLOL, struggling in JC and now University is worst. Omaigawd. :3 P.S. I think I sounded pretty much incoherent, hahahahas. #whatunididtome

Anyways, I'm freaking annoyed with my family sometimes. My throat hasn't been feeling well for the past few weeks already, it actually hurts a little when I speak, so I try to maintain my current volume and not to scream if need be. But hell, why does everyone in my family got hearing problems?!?

I got a loud booming voice because it was trained since I'm young. Staying with grandparents trained me to speak loudly because they cannot hear me properly. But recently, I finally felt the strain in my throat. :/ But okay, they are old. I understand. It is inevitable.

But I don't understand how come my immediate family have such serious hearing problems too?! Sometimes when one is too lazy to walk over / caught up with your own things in another room, obviously you will shout to the other party rights. So when I actually does that, my throat is already strained. Then fck it, I have to go louder and louder and louder than my usual screams BUT NOBODY HEARD ME. WTF seriously.

Even on phone calls. That embarrassing moment when I'm out in the public but I have to scream into the phone because they cannot hear me. And not just scream, I scream repeat, scream louder repeat, and repeat and repeat and repeat. Wtf seriously. I felt like I'm some broken radio, but my volume max liao horhs. Arghs. So pissed off now.

RIP throat.

Even if the sun refused to shine,
Even if romance ran out of rhyme,
You would still have my heart,
Until the end of time.

I want to be your favourite hello and hardest goodbye.

Thanks for everything. ♥

(Happy birthday to the bae!)

No words can describe how much gratitude I felt towards this woman. Thanks for tolerating my nonsense these three years. Thanks for showering me with love and care, through your constant nagging (you sounded more and more like my mum omaigawd), encouraging words and welfare packs! Woohoo! :DDD I may not be the best or ideal friend, but I am definitely sincere in this friendship. Once again, happy birthday! Enjoy your day and have a blast babes! :D

Throwback to the recent Starbucks 1-for-1 promotion.

(Christmas Special)

Got myself a Toffee Nut Latte and Christmas Panettone Latte. :D I don't get why everyone is raving about the Toffee Nut Latte, personally I don't really like it because I find it too bitter for my liking? Or is it just me, hahahas. Prefer the new flavour Christmas Panettone Latte, but then again, I find it pretty usual (ie. nothing special). *shall stick to my usual White Chocolate Mocha Frap or Dark Mocha Frap* LOL.

Anyways, last weekend was good because I don't have to do any housework except for the laundry, LOLOL! :D Mummy engaged a cleaner (one-day kind) to wash the windows, the toilets and the floor. She did a pretty good job cleaning the windows and toilets (I swear the windows are sparkling, and the toilet no longer have black spots on the floor). But LOL, she dropped a lot of hair whilst mopping the floor, so is sort of equivalent to not mopping. T.T But whatever, I'm not going to redo the job since she actually mopped it twice already. 5 hours of torture but the cleaner was still going strong, and she is super petite I swear?! Not going to engage her services any moment soon, because #budgetbarbie. Perhaps some day when I do spring cleaning then!

P.S. I never had a domestic worker/cleaner before because we don't want to spend unnecessary money when we can do the chores ourselves. So this was the first time we engaged this cleaning service, and woohoo, I swear the feeling of sitting down on the sofa and watching someone help you do housework is bliss.

If the moon and stars should fall,
They'd be easy to replace.
I would lift you up to heaven,
And you would take their place.

Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be kind.

(Ripped from Tumblr)

"You must understand the whole of life, not just one little part of it. That is why you must read, that is why you must look at the skies, that is why you must sing, and dance, and write poems, and suffer, and understand, for all that is life."

-Jiddu Krishnamurti

You are my human diary.

In a blink of an eye, Semester 1 has come to an end. Omfg. I have been so overwhelmed with assignments and projects and everything that I haven't even really get to enjoy school, and now it has already end?! :3 Sighpie. Indeed, time flies when you are having 'a whale of time'. LOLOL! :D

(Last tutorial with my EL1101E chicks)

I have never fancy tutorials, but these babes really made my Thursdays enjoyable. They made me laughed so much with their lame jokes and their spazzing and teasing. They are really a nice bunch of monkeys that I think I will miss as I continue to embark on my long and arduous university journey. Yeahs, EL1101E is the one and only tutorial that I enjoyed. Hahahahahas. Oops. Thanks Jezebel, Angie, Amanda, Linda and Shujun for the great times!

Special mention to Amanda and Shujun for the great job for our burdensome project and presentation. :D You guys are really cooperative and efficient. Hehehes.

(MS1101E last tutorial)

I think my MS1101E tutor is not bad looking ehs. Hahahahahas, keeeding. :P Thanks Amanda and Chiting for the fun times during tutorials, and tutorials have been pretty chilled (I don't even prepare much for them and now I absolutely regretted it as I face the mountain of readings that I have to read to catch up -.-).

 Thanks Chiting, Amanda, Zia and Idris for being such wonderful project mates. The project isn't easy, coupled with the race against time. But yay, I think I am pleased with the end product. I hope the professor is pleased too! Hahahahahas! :D

(My new pet, Idris, in the background)

Hahahahahas! :D I am really, really, really thankful for Idris for our project. He really did almost everything hahahas, from rewriting to organising. Amanda and I were super speechless when we saw the first draft, but thanks to Idris who worked wonders on the essay, that it finally made sense after he edited a great deal.

Not to mention that he helped me and Amanda a great deal for our video project tooos. (: Felt immense guilt towards him because of our poor group dynamics that may pull his grades down -.-

(PL1101E tutorial with Jovee)

Hahahahas, can't believe we actually snapped a photo together while the tutor was delivering her speech halfway. LOLOL! So the photo not very pretty arhs, it was taken hastily. Hahahahas. Thanks my fellow oweeker for your company during tutorials, and lunch sometimes. :D This tutorial slot was totally unplanned because I didn't got my desired tutorial slot, and Jovee was slotted in randomly because she didn't get ANY tutorial slot. This is fate girl! Hahahahas! (:

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Didn't snap a photo with dear o'weeker Hsuwen after our PL2131 lecture because I forgot -.- Goldfish memory much. But she was such a dear, she even gave Amanda and I farewell gifts. Awwww. Love her truckloads.

(GES1003 Groupmates)

Hahahahas, why oh why didn't we take a proper photo that I had to use our report photo here? LOLOL! (: Being the shortest as usual ohgeez. Thanks Audrey, Jinyi, Adeline and Richmond for your dedication and the frequent late-nights rushing the project. The route has not been busy and although the results were not up to our expectations, I sincerely thanked everyone of you because I knew how hard we worked for this. Let's continue working hard for this okay. There's still chance!

Thanks babe Charmaine for being a great tutorial mate as well (no picture also, sobs). It has been great 'gossiping' and complaining about life and school with her. Must keep in contact! :D

Last day of school well-spent with Llaollao:

(Yum yum froyo)

These 4 months hasn't been easy, but this woman has been accompanying me most of the times. Like wtf, we are in the same lectures for 4 modules, same tutorials for 3 modules, same project groups for 2 modules and even CCAs Project Embrace and Archery. Hahahahas. I see her everyday literally. But not complaining though. :DD Hehehes. Thanks for everything. A series of shots taken because last day of school is worth celebrating:

(One)

(Two)

(Three)

(Four)

(Five)

Thanks for walking with me.

Set me free. Let me be.
I don't wanna fall another
moment into your gravity.

The devil from heaven.

Today marked the end of the last PL2131 lecture, and Hsuwen actually gifted me and Manda a handwritten note with a Hello Panda pack. To be honest I was a little surprised yet touched by her small gesture, and I'm washed with a tinge of guilt because I didn't prepare any gift for her omg. Thanks a lot Hsuwen! Loveyou truckloads. :D #littlethingsthatmatterinlife

On a side note, I collected my welfare pack today hehehes. There's tons of food (and sweets too, but I quitted sweets :3) with this cute little foolscap pad and plenty of L-shaped folders. Feeling blessed. :DD

Anyways, recently I was addicted to GEM again. Check out her new album! (: Full of catchy songs paired with beautiful lyrics. 

鄧紫棋  -  來自天堂的魔鬼 AWAY

夜裡造了美麗的惡夢

想清醒我卻抵不過心動

夢里你是無底的黑洞

我無力抗拒失重

我的意識自控脈搏流動

全被你神秘引力操控

親愛的你是危險的迷宮

我找不到出口

You took my heart away, away, away

My head is blown away, away, away

你就是傳說來自天堂的魔鬼

You took my heart away, away, away, away, away, away, away

拜託別對我細心問候

這是你也不擦覺的陰謀

我討厭你無心的微笑

我快無可救藥

你像一個漩渦慢慢讓我

無法抽離一直地墜落

親愛的你是優雅的惡魔

一點一點把我吞沒

You took my heart away, away, away

My head is blown away, away, away

你就是傳說來自天堂的魔鬼

You took my heart away, away, away, away, away, away, away

如果你是蛇的誘惑　你存心迷惑　我才能軟弱

但你是牛頓頭上那顆　若無其事的蘋果

You took my heart away, away, away

You took my heart away, away, away

You took my heart away, away, away

My head is blown away, away, away

你就是傳說來自天堂的魔鬼

You took my heart away, away, away, away, away, away, away

So you can keep me inside the pocket of your ripped jeans.

Blogging on the go again. Went to school specially for one lecture today because I heard that they were giving back our group project results. I was feeling very nua and all (how long has it been since I stopped heading to school on Mondays LOL). My last GES1003 lecture was enjoyable, we had a lot of fun and laughters and I met Jinyi's boyfriend for the first time, everything is good and chill until we got back our results.

Ouch. The sudden realisation how competitive GES1003 was, or should I extrapolate to all the modules across the faculties and say how competitive NUS is. T.T Ohgeez. Hard work is not correlated to good results. :/ Got a mediocre grade for group project, below average grade for individual assignment, and even my two contest results are just meh, I guessed I'm doomed for this module (even though it was initially one of my more confident module). T.T Sighpie.

I am super hungry and craving for sushi now. I am sleep-deprived and feeling super tired now. I am frustrated because the little girl beside me is screaming her head off, and her high-pitched voice just kept reverberating in my head now. T.T Headache much.

Bring me back to happier times with my clique. I want my carefree life back. :/ Now I'm just struggling to survive, but on the verge of dying. 

(My precious girls)

(Singing all day, all night long)

Post midterms celebrations at Teoheng with 'dem last month. I like how some things just stay the same.

But only love can say ----

Try again or walk away.

But I believe for you and me,

the sun will shine one day.

So I'll just play my part, &

pray you'll have a change of heart.

But I can't make you see it through.

That's something only love can do.

Because I whistle to a different tune.

Hahahahas, can anyone relate with me? :/

(Ripped from chibird.tumblr.com)

Been binge eating recently and eating unhealthy food at that -.- Can't seem to stop, because I have unnecessary cravings for junk food every now and then. :/ Must be too stressed, arghs. Somebody seriously need to stop me before my waistline expands.

Dinner for the night:

(Cheers to a big plate of food)

Sometimes food court is still the best. Huge serving yet cheap. Yummy chicken chop with aglio olio, and tons of cheese oozing on the fries, complete with coleslaw and soup of the day (mushroom soup). And it costs less than $10. Hehehes. #budgetbarbiemuch

I'm sorry that my recent posts seem very short / no substance / no quality, I ran out of inspiration, but I just felt the need to write something to relieve stress from this stupid hectic university life. Two more deadlines before I can drop everything and concentrate on the battle for finals.

Anyways, I got back my results for my EL1101E project and yay I'm happy that our efforts and hard work paid off. The grades were unexpected, and I just want to say a big thankyou for my dedicated groupmates for a job well done. On the other hand, I was feeling sore because our video for MS1102E was not selected as one of the top best few :/  Spent a lot of effort on this, and I wouldn't say it was excellent, but I thought we did decent? Ohwell... The Professor screened some of the top few videos. I do admit that some were extraordinary good, but there were few videos that the prof screened was quite ~!@#$%^&*(). I cannot comprehend why are they scored so high?!

People keep talking
but I can't hear a word they say.
Life just keeps moving,
the world gets stranger everyday.

I don't ever want to come down, from the West Coast rush and summer high.

(Texas Chicken)

Last Friday's comfort food with Amanda after a long, long day in school. #fatdieme Hahahahas, recently I have been addicted to munching cherry tomatoes as snacks to keep me awake (guess it didn't really help LOL). I have been sleeping for 7-8 hours for this past week, but I wonder why I am still so tired :/ *sleep-deprived much*

School has been unbearable, and I just can't wait for finals to be over soon. *welcoming December holidays with open arms* For the first time in my life, I made zero plans at all for my holidays because I have been too busy/tired to think and plan. Ahh geez.:/ Burden sister who needs to study for her O levels next year, and burden mum who broke her toe, I cannot make plans to go overseas during this break. Sighpie. Ohwell, shall take this chance to explore Singapore. Recently, I found some interesting places in Singapore that are worth to explore :D Hehes, excited!

Went for a meeting with ARC with my Project Embrace team today, and I guess it was an eye-opening experience for me. Hahahahas! :D It was my first time meeting with a real 'client', and even though I didn't speak at all, it was still a first-hand experience to see how people communicate, and I treat this as a good learning experience. Despite our plans for collaboration fell through, they did provided insights and suggestions on improvements, which I think are good learning points.

Anyways, I was grateful that this Friday's tutorial was cancelled, which means one free day! :D I need to catch up with my sleep, and rush my assignments, and perhaps practice music. Being busy again, but at least I am spared the burden of forcing myself to wake up on time to go school. :/ Speaking of that, I was late for 46 minutes for my PL2131 lecture today, and arghs, why did so many people notice it >.< Embarrassing much.

Before I end this post, to those who are going through this tough period as well, let's jiayous together! Hwaiting! (Y)

It's 1am and I can't breathe
because of the scars you left on my
heart that you painfully call love.