There is a thin strand between words and swords.

Late birthday post because I just got the pictures from my meimei LOLOL, and because of the ongoing exams. But yay! :D 4 papers down, one more to go before I declare freedom. Papers are not well done, but oh whatever, I will face reality one month later when the results are out T.T Everyone please pray for me thank you very much. Hehehes! (:

Tada, showing off my birthday cake from Swensens. This is my very first ice-cream cake, but it shall be my last too. LOL, oops. Shit, I will never pay $50 for a stupid cake when I can get a normal one for ~$30 arhs! I rather spend money on buffets or something, hmm.

(But cool, got dry ice and all!)

But cannot deny the cake looks pretty and taste delicious. It is not creamy and not very sweet, which is totally my taste?! But still, too expensive ahhh. T.T Enjoying while I can. :D

(Blowing off my cake that has 19 candles initially. Is it forever 19? Hahahas! Why my family don't remember my age one!)

What's birthday without good food rights! Hehes, my birthday dinner at Porn's! :DD Sexy. Thai. Food. Whoops! The food is fantastic, my favourite Thai food restaurant up-to-date :DDD It is really damn delicious, go patronise guys, you won't regret.

(That rustic vibe, I like!)

(Because their drinks are one-for-one! But I only like their Thai Iced Tea LOL)

(Mouthwatering mango salad despite its unappetizing look)

(Plate of goodness)

(Weird-looking kangkong tempura, but it really taste good with the special sauce)

(Tomyum which is sour-spicy enough)

(Generous portion of chicken chunks in the green curry)

(Woowoo, tapioca for desserts)

I tried imitating this dish at home and it works! It is quite easy, just steam the tapioca and pour coconut over it. Err just that it is very hard to get the ingredients, by that I mean tapioca... T.T Sighs.

(Is it that delicious?! Not a single bit of food left)

Hahhahas, thanks mummy, daddy and meimei for the birthday treats. Blessed. :D

People say you don't know what
you've got until it's gone.
Truth is, you know what you had,
you just never thought you'd lose it.

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer, so bring on the rain.

(Ripped From Tumblr)

Can't wait for the upcoming Hong Kong trip with my besties. Hehehes, it is less than a month away! *excited* Air tickets booked, accommodation booked. Shall finish planning for the trip after my finals. Wew! :DD

But sighs, I'm feeling numbed after my PL3236 papers. Did some stupid stuff which I myself cannot fathom (who the hell forget to give the final diagnosis after analysis? Yeahs, me. T.T) Well done, yanqi. You win already. Freaking 50%, and why my professor gave such an unbalanced weightage of marks - 80 marks in total for 4 short answer questions and 20 marks for 40 MCQs?! Wts. I'm deadmeat. Total joke.

I'm pinning all my hopes on my NM now. Please, please don't let me down.

I know if I could find the words
to touch you deep inside,
you'd give our dream just one more chance.
Don't let this be our last goodbye.

Get in touch with your spiritual self.

A weekend family dinner to re-charge ourselves for the week ahead! (And to prepare myself for the upcoming horrible finals sighs)

So Pho Eatery @ Novena

Vietnamese cuisine

(Wew coffee!)

The Vietnam-drip coffee excites me, hahahas! Missing my Vietnam trip already. Hmm, but I ordered Lemongrass because I don't want to order the same thing as my family, but surprisingly it is damn good also? :D

(My sister's)

Don't judge a book by its cover. When they served this dish, it looked freaking unappetising. I was like ohno, I'm not sure if my sister would want to eat it because I don't think I will enjoy it very much (I don't really like soupy stuff hahahas). But bleahs, it turns out to be damn delicious?! Hahahahas, I like the soup base omg. 

(Mine!)

It looked quite a small portion, and it got me damn worried initially because I was damn hungry (so hungry that I believe I can finish an entire whale myself). However, wew! My worries are non-existent, I was damn full after the meal. Hahahahas! :D

(Daddy's Seafood Fried Rice)

Because we see the next table ordering this, and the 'bowl' they served the rice in was quite fascinating. They kind of reminded me of dimsum. Hehehes. (:

(Mummy's)

This has got to be the real deal already. The food is really finger-licking good, especially with the spring rolls that tasted absolutely heavenly. Mwahahaha!

Wah really cheers to good food! I can have them all day err day!! :DD #happykid #happytummy #happylife Jiayous people for the week ahead! Chiong ahhh!

Sometimes all you have to do
Is to forget what you feel and
Remember what you deserve.

Love, and leave gracefully.

Lack of updates recently because it was the reading week (ie. intense preparation for the upcoming exams), but apparently it was proven not to be all that intense to me because I died a million times for today's paper. It was my very first paper, and I went to sit for the exam with a dash of hope. But yeahs. My future is bleak now. T.T

I swear I am sweating in the fully air-conditioned exam hall. I was practically hugging onto my calculator, furiously typing in values in hope to get an answer that appears in the options, but nope, nope. The values just didn't appear. How is it that half the time I am getting answers that are not in the options?! Omg.

Seriously yanqi. So this is just what you got? Okay sua nevermind. On a hindsight, GER is officially over. 1/5 papers down. 1.5 more weeks to Summer Break and I can't wait! In serious need to chill now.

Let's pray that the rest of the papers will be a piece of cake for me okay. Like this piece of cake over here:

(Lemon Zesty Cake, coupled with S'mores drink)

So I finally redeemed my birthday cake from Starbucks, hehehes. I need some zesty flavours in my life now, to wake me up from my laziness. On a side note, the S'mores is really not bad?! Good recommendation by Amanda! :D Except that it is really very expensive. $9.20 for a Venti-sized which doesn't even look Venti. Ahhh, $$$.

Sighs. Back to studying.

And in the free fall,
I will realise I'm better off
When I hit the bottom.

Falling for the fallen.

Guess which princess' birthday yesterday? Hahahas!

Yes, me!

Hahahas, what a rhetorical question. So my birthday coincides with the last day of school as well. Does it mean that everyone is looking forward to 15 April? Hahahas! :D #shameless

(Last NM2101 tutorial)

I realised I really like my tutor a lot, except for the fact that she did not reply to my email regarding some individual assignment, sighs. I did it by myself in the end, with the help of my favourite human in the Earth, Amanda. *fingers crossed that I did it well* I hope she would teach other NM modules, and I can meet her as my tutor again hahahas! :D

(Met up with this boy for lunch)

(Woohoo, mango cheesecake!)

Took a video of him awkwardly singing Happy Birthday alone, hahahas! Hilarious much LOL! Found a super good secret place: the ERC rooftop. Perfect place for singing birthday songs without getting judged because there isn't anyone around hehes. (except for the fact that it isn't sheltered).

Received this cute little bear from him and a 100% effort handmade card. Hahahas, he went to the extent of printing my pictures and cutting/pasting them, how thoughtful is that. :D Ahhh, I really felt blessed to have such a friend whom I only met this semester. Thank you very much.

(Crayfish Pasta)

Swensens because there's free ice-cream on birthday. Hehehes, decided to pamper myself and go for crayfish pasta despite it being a little expensive than the others. >.< But ohwell, it is my birthday rights. LOLOL!

(Thankful for this bunch of monkeys)

Catching up over Swensens and Llaollao. Snapchatted too much food pictures to people, so much that JJ told me to hide my weighing machine. Say whut?! I swear one day I will throw a stone at him hahahas.

(Symmetry spotted)

I'm glad nothing changed despite being in different universities/courses. Thanks babes for the company and the present (bag), I need it very much. Hahahahas! :DD Check out my super attention-seeking bag next semester. LOL.

You are the author of your story.
If you're stuck on the same page,
Remember that at any moment,
You have the power to write a new chapter.

Bicycles. Because love requires trust and balance.

GER presentation with these babes yesterday. It went well fortunately, hehehes! :D My heart was thumping wildly when the tutor asked some question regarding some confounder, and I was totally ohshit, is that a super big loophole that none of us noticed?! But thankfully, JJ was able to tank and managed to bullshit his way out. Hehehes, :DDD Perks of having a smartass in your group.

(With my babes, but I hate the photographer for cropping Ben out)

Completed our GER presentation in 10 minutes, good job guys. JJ and I went chilling at YALE NUS library (totally good place) while waiting for Ben to end his tutorials. Wanted to do work but ended up talking for a few hours omg. Inefficiency much nooooo. But yay, I managed to ask JJ to help me vet my NM2101 assignment (but apparently he is of no help because he don't study NM hahahahas!)

(Dinner with the fatties hahahas)

I swear we over-ordered. Geeez, it is like 14 gigantic slices for three people?! Hahahas! But okay luh, $16/pizza I think quite cheap and filling. Just that I think the MSG too much, me and JJ was so damn thirsty on the way home. >.<

(Because I insisted on taking a photo)

Sometimes it helps to be the youngest + female of the group, because the guys would bobian but follow my wishes hahahahas! :DDD Tried to crop the rest of our GER groupmates in but apparently they disapproved of my editing skills, saying the entire picture looks ghastly. Hahahahas! Seriously guys.

(Surprise birthday cake by JJ)

Awww, it was my first time receiving a letter from a guy. Xiao touched omg. Thanks JJ :DDD But hehes, happy birthday to Ben and I. #challengefailed to blow only one lighted candle LOLOL!

Never ignore a person
who loves and cares for you,
because one day you may realise
that you've lost the moon while
counting the stars.

You have been playing my heart like a grand piano.

Okay, I just went for a NM2104 project consultation this morning with the rest, and just when I thought our project is 98% done, there seems to be tons of work needed to be done still. T.T Geeez, and submission is this Wednesday, I can't wait! Like really. LOL! And yeahs, I feel useless. Like I cannot do anything to help, and even if I offer my help, it will be a 越帮越忙 kind of thing. ... So is being grouped with seniors a good thing? Hahahas! Okay, I shall conclude that it is still a good thing, because my project grade is secured (hopefully), I just need to deal with the emotion of feeling useless. >.< And hope they don't mark me down for peer evaluation.

And yesterday was the submission deadline for GER summary and poster in the softcopy format. Wah, relishing my joy manzxc. I just need to survive Wednesday to get past my GER presentation (time to mug and study the research paper before I embarrass myself during the presentation T.T) before I'm half done with the module!

Kudos to myself because I traveled all the way to AMK to get the poster printed. #dedicatedtoGER I have no idea why the Kent Ridge poster printing shop is damn freaking crowded, and it takes 1h to print ~4 posters after my calculations. Hmmm... But yeahs, either way is still super time-consuming, sighs.

I want to eat all the food.

(Hotplate tofu which is the bombz)

(San Lou)

(Sambal Kangkong)

(Mama's favourites Prawn-Paste Chicken)

Dinner last weekend with the family. All the yumz yumz in my tummy. Hahahas! :D Sian, I suddenly miss the joy of cafe-hopping. Anybody? LOL, errr no wait. I need $$$ first. LOL! :3

(Got this super chic tiny croissant from Breadtalk)

(But no, the egg yolk is not flowy)

Sighs, disappointment.

Oh anyways, our CFG facilitator emailed us to request for a smaller version of our poster because they are thinking of making it into collaterals to hand out to the employers and students in the form of mousepads, postcards or notebooks! Hahahas, apparently our poster has been receiving much attention during the Mindset 2.0 Event that many people are taking photos of it. LOLOL! #proud

Three more weeks to freedom! Hang in there peeps!

Every 60 seconds you spend upset
is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

I hope there are days when you fall in love with being alive.

Has been seeing/experiencing a lot of interesting things these days.

Like political issues in group projects. I finally understand how L felt when he experienced it last semester. Apparently I think I didn't realise the seriousness of the matter until Dewei had to call and explain to me LOLOL. T.T Bullshit NM2104. The only good thing I gained from the module is just a friend like Dewei. Really felt grateful for him because of his constant encouragements. He's forever telling me that "hey yanqi, you did a good job", but LOL I think it's not the case because whenever I open the file, there is always drastic changes with my part. LOLOL. Okay nevermind, I really spent a lot of time on it, I can safely say that I put in effort and love in nurturing that piece of bullshit research paper. T.T Perks of being the maknae in the group, because all these bullshit will be tank by seniors and they don't have high expectations of you. LOLOL.

CFG taught me to show gratitude, because expressing appreciation can make one happy. I'm trying to step back and view the world in another light. And yeahs, I think I am a lot happier this semester than the previous. Maybe CFG is not that much of a useless module than what I initially thought. Hahahas!

(I miss this girl)

Sighs, I miss eating all the yummy food with Huiqi. Grabbing quick lunches, like waffles and pancakes, these few days for lunch because I am forever rushing for time. Bad for tummy, but 24 hours is simply not enough x.x

(That day I had Miam Miam spaghetti which Ben said it looks like some wedding dish?!)

Hahahas, I need to eat good food soon. Buffets anyone? I got cravings for Kiseki lehs. Sian, I'm going to boycott waffles/pancakes after finals. No more, omg, no more. I'm so sick of it already LOL. I'm actually craving for Bingsu now, the weather is too hot. I want my bubbletea. I want to eat my tom yum pasta from Pastamania, omg, how long has it been since I last patronised that shop?! Yoshinoya's salmon is damn delicious also. Sighs, apple strudel? Maggie mee goreng! Ahhh, too many things for me to eat.

(Milk and Honey with Huiqi)

I love this flavour omg, it is Lilac something. Lilac Dream? LOL, I think I'm good coming up with names. Hahahahas! But this flavour is so much nicer than the Honey Velvet, sorry Huiqi. #Ineedtospeakthetruth :D

Recently I have been seeing Jingren around a lot also. Thanks for always asking me out for lunch/breakfast/dinner and even though I couldn't make it most of the times because I need to chiong my work, thanks for the thought. At least I know people still care for me. :D I feel blessed.

There comes a point in your life

when you realised who matters,

who never did, who won't anymore

and who will always will.

So don't worry about people from your past,

there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.

I am profoundly enchanted by the flowing complexity in you.

Because today is Ben's birthday, and he told me he spent most of his day studying. I wonder one week later when it is my turn, would I also spend my day studying? #lifeofanundergraduate Sighs. I don't even feel excited for my birthday anymore because it would mean that finals are really nearing, but I am not prepared. Help!

(Throwback to one year ago)

Thanks to those who didn't actually forget about me and even ask me out to celebrate my birthday. But also sorry to those whom I have to push back till after finals because I really cannot tank anymore. 4 deadlines of individual assignments / projects coming up during my birthday week, I'm going berserk. Screw sleep although my team presented the topic of sleep for CFG. LOL, that irony. I think I have no day, no night now. Zzz.

Hanging. In. There. Still.

I don't want to lose it. This semester might be my one and only chance to pull it all back. I need to save my CAP T.T Sighs.

But yay, efficiency at its best. I multi-tasked between watching my drama and eating my dinner and typing out the burdensome SGH observations logsheet and did my module surveys. Finished all within 2 hours. Yay!

But yeahs, happy birthday Ben! :DDD

We don't know where to go, so I'll just get lost with you.

We'll never fall apart, cause we fit together right, we fit together right.
These dark clouds over me, rain down and roll away.
We'll never fall apart, cause we fit together like, two pieces of a broken heart.