Yet another silly teenage romance.

My last post before my MYCTs.
Wish me good luck! :D

The heat must be getting onto me. Arghs.

It was raining cats and dogs now, but instead of a cooling feeling, I felt even hotter. I am sweating like a pig now while I typed this with the big fan blowing at my back. T.T

So earlier this week, it was my Daddy's birthday, and we celebrated it with a simple meal at West Coz (YewTee branch). Hahahas! (: My virgin experience at this restaurant. And yes, we ate Chinese meal because it is my Daddy's favourite.

(Curry Fish Head)

(Spicy Long Beans with Prawns)

(Tofu)

(Chicken)

Hahahas, it was something like Tze Char. (: Thanks West Coz for the scrumptious meal. Hahahas, although the tofu wasn't quite worth it. I think they priced it at $10. Despite how delicious tofu is, I think that to pay $10 for tofu is quite ridiculous. Sorry, just my own opinions. Hahahas! But the tofu was delicious luh.

Just a short post because I'm supposed to be studying and not blogging. Hahahas! (: Till next time!

"Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back. Those who wish to sing always finds a song. At the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet."

-Plato

Keep looking till you find your love who can 'complete your song'. Feel the joy when you find that soul mate.

If fear and hatred make beasts of us, then it is our stories that make us human.

My Old Story

by IU

Do you remember that lonely alleyway?
I still remember now

The anxious days when I couldn’t tell you I loved you
Did you know about that?

The beautiful nights of the past when we were childish
I am still in love

You childish person
You try to take all of me, you heartless person

Were you too shy to say anything? Did you not like me?
I still can’t figure it out

If you hear this song, please come to me
My dear, I’m waiting

You heartless person
This night tries to take all of me, you childish person

Tonight, tomorrow night and the night after that
I’ll wait forever

Hate is easy, but love takes courage.

Yes, I know I had Dayre-d about this before, (: Hahahas, but this is an extension to it. LOL!

So yups, today was a big day for daddy!

Happy Birthday Daddy!

Loveyou millions! <3

(Salted Caramel Cake from Prima Deli)

Thanks Daddy for your conditional love for me throughout my eighteen years of life. We may not be that close, but I'm still thankful for the care and love you showered me with. Thanks for pampering me and putting up with my temper (often short-lived :P). Thanks for getting the stuff on my wishlist (unlike mummy who will stop me at buying anything). Thanks for driving me to the MRT station everyday. Thanks for all the little things that actually matter a lot to me. Really.

I'm not good at expressing myself (okay, I'm just shy), but do know that I still love you alright. I appreciate whatever you have done for me. Thank you once again. I love you truckloads! <3

P.S. Sorry for not uploading any pictures of myself, because my fringe is freaking screwed up, and I looked like a weird duck. Self-confidence zero.

(Lighted up)

I seldom buy cakes from Prima Deli (only their waffles), so I am actually looking forward to eating their cakes. Being my excited self, I actually went online to search for the cakes after deciding on Prima Deli. A wide array of yummy and pretty looking cakes appeared on my screen. Too many choices, and I had a dilemma trying to choose one cake for my Daddy. 

Then, I chanced upon this Salted Caramel Cake as the cake of the month June. Yes, it is calling to me. And since it is a new creation, I decided to take that. I took the standard size (since there are only 4 of us), and since it is June's featured cake, there is a promotion, and I got the cake at only $24.60 (: Cheers! Budget barbie much. LOL!

The appearance of the cake is just so-so, not to my expectations. And the spongecake is too 松 (oops, I don't know how to describe it). I prefer those spongecakes that are light and fluffy, because they always make me feel light-hearted after savouring them. :P Lastly, I can't really taste the salted caramel flavour. T.T

But this is a surprised-fill cake, LOL! (: There are hidden chocolate chips in the cake (something that I didn't expect - okay, maybe it is because I didn't read the description of the cake before ordering it). And yes, for those who are on a diet, this cake has less cream than most other cakes. Hahahas! :D

Sorry for harping on and on like a naggy old woman on just a cake, LOL! But I figured that perhaps this might be useful to you in the future when you are going to order cakes! (: Hehes!

So I will end off with a 'I love you' to my dearest Daddy.

Sarangheyo! <3

Like the clouds covering the sun

Like the spring that melts the winter

Will I be able to forget you?

Will I be in less pain then?

Never let go, never lose heart. Someday, we'll have a beautiful story to tell.

15 June 2014

Father's Day

So to celebrate Father's Day,

we went Saveur for French Cuisine.

My virgin experience.

It is located at Far East Plaza.

Yeahs that place quite ulu. LOL! (:

The ambience in the restaurant is quite welcoming. A dimly-lit place which is perfect for a day out for couples. (: Hahahas, just that I'm out with family.

Check out the crystal lightings over here! Hahahas!

(Crystal Lightings)

So I am an impatient person, and I got a little irritated because the service was a little slow x.x Okayys, I'm actually quite hungry. :P I figured the waiting time was a little longer than usual because the chefs wanted to perfect the appearance of the dishes.

(From left to right: Apple Juice, Shirley Temple and Mango Juice)

Hahahas, wanted to ordered Shirley Temple initially, but my daddy beat me to it. Nevermind, shall let him because it is Daddy's Day. Hahahahas! (: The drinks are all syrup. LOL, okayys.

(Salmon Confit)

Then for appetisers, we had Salmon Confit. Yeahs, I love salmon. Hahahas, the size of this was roughly the size of two fingers put together. LOL! (: So it was a little small. Okayys, I mean very small. I finally realised the meaning of fine dining, where all the portions of your meals are small. Be it appetizers or mains :3 Well, when in Rome, do as the Romans do. (:

(Chicken Roulade)

I guess for mains, this is the cheapest at $9.90. Hahahas, my daddy ordered the cheapest dish when it is a day out to celebrate his day. LOL! (: So the top part was a roulade of chicken thigh stuffed with foie gras-infused chicken farce, and below it is creamy basmati rice with parmesan sauce. The rice is daebak! (: Awfully delicious, it is so much nicer than baked rice. :D Cheers! Although the meat was supposed to be the highlight, I felt that the rice was nicer. Oops, sorry. (: But the meat was not bad as well luh.

(Duck Confit)

Then my mummy ordered this Duck Confit. (: The duck was 'resting' on mashed potato, with a few slices of sauteed Shitake mushroom and orange (yes, the fruit) segments around it. The duck is a little dry, but it is quite meaty, LOL! (: Going for $12.90, I think this dish was worth the price. The Shitake mushrooms was great and I hope they add more of it on my plate. LOL! The mashed potato is homemade, and it is plain awesome. Unlike the KFC, Macs whatever restaurants out there which serves mashed potato, they are nothing compared to Saveur. The mashed potato, so fine I cannot.

(Seabass)

My babysister ordered a seabass. It was pan-seared, and the brown cubes thing that you see in the picture is saute potato, which are simply delicious! (: There is crabmeat, french beans and some weird vegetables that I have never seen before, which taste great all the same. There are no bones in the fish, and the texture of the fish is so damn good. I don't know how to describe, but for a person who don't really like fish like me, and yet still gives great compliments for this dish, shows how yummy this is. (Y) $14.90 for this.

(Poulet)

This is what I ordered, and I honestly am not sure what is inside. Hahahas! (: It is well-decorated with a seafood-themed (my own interpretation). Hahahas, the leaves and the other vegetables reminds me of coral reefs, and the chicken reminds me of rocks. Hahahas, and the mashed potato which is beneath everything, is somewhat like a seabed.

LOL, but the mains for this dish, is chicken. So I was quite surprised that they made it into a seafood theme? Or is it I am too imaginative? Hahahas! (: Anyways, this dish is the best among all (because it is what I ordered), joking! If I never remember wrongly, I think this is the most expensive, at $16.90 (among all the dishes that we ordered).

And despite how great the appearance is, I guess I better stick to the other mains. LOL! (: Because I felt that the food is not that great for this. LOL, there is like no specialty to it. Oops sorry, they placed this dish at the first page, like some specialty of the restaurants. LOL! (:

So yups, that summed up my day at this French restaurant. I was feeling a little sad because I didn't get to savour my desserts (but without the desserts, my total bill was already $87, and the portion very small so yeahs...) I will soon hunt down a cafe that sells my Creme Brulee and Panna Cotta at a cheap rate yet delicious. 

So I left house at around 10.45am on Monday (my parents took leave) and stayed in Orchard all the way till approximately 6pm. Hahahas! (: My legs are sore...

Anyways, because of the exercise that I did (walking non-stop), and I figured I would have burnt a lot of calories, so I treated myself to desserts. Hahahahas! (: Long time since I had hot desserts.

(My Almond Paste)

I understand that a lot of people do not like the taste of almond. But this sure is one of my favourites! (:

(Mango Snow Ice)

And my sister ordered a mango snow ice, hahahas. The ice was smooth, and the mangoes are sweet. Omo, truly scrumptious! (:

So this is how I spent Father's Day with my dearest family. Hahahas! (:

A great day with great company!

I'll be there when the world stops turning

I'll be there when the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

You are my source of sunshine.

Since poppyflower is complaining that I didn't update my blog...
#latepost #throwback

My official AJCO Farewell Ceremony

28 May 2014

(We tried to squeeze everyone in. We tried.)

Hahahas! I'm not sure who is missing in the picture, but I doubt is full strength. I cannot see Jiyao though (I think he was already busy eating) and Junho accidentally cut out Mingda x.x

(Front)

(Back)

Hahahas, I am proud to have written 19 cards for my dearest CO mates and juniors! (: Took me ten days and ten nights to write them. -exaggerating- Hahahas, 40 mini polaroid cards from TYPO that costs approximately $12. The pictures are not that nice, and I'd preferred Kaiayun's, but at least these are the childhood favourites, Mickey and Minnie! <3 Hahahas, anyways check out my tiny minute handwriting. LOL!

(With my Section Leader Wanying)

Ahhh, the photo turned out to be dark, and I'm lazy to go edit the brightness and constrast, so ums yeahs. Deal with it. LOL! (: First photo dedicated to my favourite Wanying! First friend made in AJCO, who also happens to live just a few blocks away from me. Hahahas! (: You sure are committed to CO because you are NEVER late. LOL! I love you to the moon and back again! <3

(With the new Section Leader Mingda)

Hahahas! (: My retarded junior, who took out piggy bank to return me money. LOL, I cannot never get enough of your retardedness and epic faces in all our CO pictures. Hahahas! (: Thanks for everything, and jiayous! I'm sure you will excel as a section leader. Work hard, and I know you can make it for H3 maths! LOL!~

The rest below are not in order. LOLOL! :D

(Junho the 鸟先生)

Hahahas, yes. I cropped this picture because I wanted to hide the fact that I'm standing on the stairs. LOL! (: But we look super awkward here. LOLOL! Gah, stop playing and start studying, you kukushit! 

(Cards made by Junho)

And check out his second batch of cards. Psh, I'm in the first batch, so my cards not as nice. Gah. Idiotic much. Hahahas! (: Yes, I'm jealous. :/

(With Muntuen)

Hahahas, the picture not I edit derhs! (: Yet, I still look so effortlessly pretty. LOL, joking! But cheers to MunTuen, one of my favourite junior in the world!

(With Munen)

Hahahas, Munen, yet another favourite junior. LOL! :D I have fun with you guys, <3

(With the Twins)

Hahahas, I'm in the center of attraction yo! (: Limelight!

Anyways, I'm already the center of attraction in my whole section because I'm like the only one in our whole section to wear PE, besides Panda (Jiyao).

(With my 5.5years of CO mate, Xiaofang!)

With Chaomin

I looked like a monster here. Or should I say, pedophile? :3 LOLOL!

With Kanggggwei.

I hate this camera angle. I really do.

(My 接班人Xue Er)

(Super retarded Kiyee)

(Shermaineee)

Hahahas, somebody wrote in her card that she looked glamorous and calm and composed when playing the erhu, whilst Junho always has a panicky look in his eyes and never fails to sweat like a pig while he tried to follow up. Something along this line. LOLOL! (: Funny max please! 

(Shiwei)

He slided down so I appeared taller. LOLOL! (: You took great care of me during all CO practices, especially during dazus. I thank you for that, but nothing else. :3

(I seriously cannot tank Junho)

(Quiet XueZhen)

(With UuEn)

(YunXuan)

Hahahas, (: Initially thought that she is weird, now still thinks that she is weird. But nonetheless, I'm glad to have you as a friend.

(President Xinze)

Arghs, super tall sia him although I'm actually standing on the stairs and he is not. LOLOL!! (: Be honoured! I saved the best for the last. Hehes!

(My goldfish junior YunXuan)

My secondary school cum JC junior who is not in the same section as me. Hahahas! (: Noise pollution sia.

(Mr Shy Guy, Hanwei)

Hahahas, I still remembered how Shawn described you. The awkward looking guy, who dares not talk to girls. LOLOL!! (: Can't blame him for coming from a guys school. Hahahas!

(Group Photo 1)

(Group Photo 2)

(Woooooo!~)

Check out my board, handmade with love by the juniors. LOL! (: Many pictures, especially unglams (I will remember you for this, Kiyee!) on my board. Hahahas! I love you guys! <3

(A random shot)

Last but not the least, throwback to my AJCO Concert!

(Concert with my conductor cum teacher)

LOL, my words getting shorter and shorter, I realised. I'm getting lazier x.x LOLOL!! :D Have a great day ahead!

So tonight is ours, tomorrow isn't. We're stuck in between.

I understand there's no hard feelings, even though I have to leave.

But give me just one night where the world will go missing,

when we're together with no distance from you and me.

I'm alone in the room called memories that you left.

 (Ripped from alittlemercerie)

I guess, we all have the ability to become magicians whenever it comes to love. Be it rejection or being rejected, the feeling of unreciprocated love or the task of letting someone down actually causes many of us to perform some sort of 'disappearing act'.

To be honest, I myself is a magician too. I do 'disappear' whenever someone just decided to push me aside even before I had the courage to confess. I mean, I just felt embarrassed that someone managed to read through my heart before I expressed my feelings. It was meant to be a secret till the day I decided to open up. So regarding this type of one-sided love, I believe many of us will choose to disappear. To avoid feeling embarrassed.

I too 'disappear' so as to avoid people whom I could not get myself to return feelings for, so I wouldn't have to waste my brain juice and think about all the excuses that I have to come up with to avoid going out with them. Yesh, this is directed to a certain someone. I'm sorry for not replying you the whole day (I think l replied you less than 5 messages a day, LOL), but I couldn't get myself to do it. :3 Yes, call me selfish.

And yes, not only me, but the people around me too disappeared too. For instance, my poppyflower who decided to disappear from Earth during the whole June holidays. Perhaps she flew to Mars to find her penguin family. I don't know.  On a serious note, the people whom I used to hang out with, just pooffff. And disappear from my sight.

People come, people go. I am just not used to it.

M. I remembered how close we were in J1, and I'm sorry for everything. We have too many differences in life. I hope your life is better now without this bitch like me in it. Even though I always brushed across topics on you, I can't help but feel terrible. It was only right for you to 'disappear' on me. I just can't accept it. Yes, it has been long, but still. This just kept lingering in the back of my head.

 I often experienced the unfortunate event of meeting someone that I hope to love, and so I entertain the idea for a few dates. Yet, butterflies turned into moths. I feel nothing. There is W, whom too 'disappear' with just a message that said byebye, whom had not contacted me since that byebye message.

I guess this is nobody's fault. Not that I'm pushing the blame to others, but love can't be forced. Developing feelings for someone is not anyone's fault. Wanting different things and not being able to return their feelings is also not anyone's fault. I realised, loving is hard. Because there isn't any scientific theory or evidence to prove love.

So in a nutshell, the best way to avoid everything is just to perform a disappearing act. Long messages became a few words. The emoticons that once decorated our texts became non-existent. And suddenly, we were all too busy to hang out. Then poof, we vanished into thin air.

But that's bad. After experiencing such incidents, I realised how unimpressive disappearing acts are. Being anxious is the worst feeling ever. Your thoughts are consumed with the word 'maybe'. Maybe they are just too busy. Maybe I said something wrong. Maybe they accidentally read my blog and found out something that they are not supposed to know. Maybe they just hate me. Then following that, you will start stalking them on Whatsapp (checking out their last seen), Instagram, Twitter or Facebook even.

I hate this feeling. Honestly.

And whenever I attempted another conversation with them, either they gave me short replies (some even one word answers), or they just disappeared again. Great, whatever the reason is, leaving people in the dust is an indirect way to make someone feel like they are unimportant. As though their presence is insignificant. As though their feelings don't matter. As though they are disposable even, and you have found a substitute for them.

They drive me crazy.

I have been trying to control and pretend that everything is alright, and that they are just too busy with their studies to reply you (to even forget your birthday and not wish you at all, not even a text message although we see each other in school everyday). Yups, this is not directed to a certain someone, but a whole bunch of monkeys.

I yearn to go back to the past, where we often shared great conversations, where the laughters that we often have never fails to colour and brighten up my dull and mundane life. But what happened?

I just hope that people are honest with one another, it is easier to let go this way. Because now if you can ascertain their feelings for you, and you will find it easier to move on. It was over, and there is no use hanging on to the past. You may not be able to control how you feel or how people treat you, but you sure can control how you treat others.

I appreciate those who came into my life and invest their feelings in me. Maybe their rate of returns are lower due to the high interest rates, but I really do appreciate it. It takes guts to put yourself out there looking stupid. I had experienced this so I know how it feels. You really need courage. Some people come into our lives and want to give us their hearts. The least we can do is help them get over you.

Love is selfish.

Thank you for taking time to read my lame blogpost on 'disappearance'. Just some random thoughts that I had over the past few days during my hibernation. Maybe it doesn't make sense to you, but I just want to pen down my thoughts.

Losing him was blue like I'd never known

Missing him was dark grey all alone

Forgetting him was like trying to know

somebody you've never met.

Head up, stay strong. Fake a smile and move on.

(Ripped from mamagiaspiti.blogspot.com)

Felt guilty that I couldn't make it out with my clique x.x Had a fever since yesterday, and I'm feeling terrible. Yes, really terrible. My head is spinning. This morning was feeling better, but I am visiting the doctor in a while after my lunch x.x

I think I ate too much, LOL! (: Sighpies.

(Gelateria Italia with Huiqi)

Ice-Cream Waffle once again with bestie Huiqi last Friday! (: This time, with flavours Hazelnut and my favourite Rum and Raisins. Hahahas, I think my photography for this is daebak. LOL!! First meetup with her since million of years ago. 

Then met up with her on Monday again for a short table tennis session, (: Hahahas! Omg, it has been so long since I last played table tennis. My favourite sports since after O's. Hahahas! Went SengKang Sports Complex (my usual place), and saw Gary and Shawn tooos (they went gym). LOL! :D

(Lunch at Pizzahut)

Hahahas, went Nex for lunch after table tennis. Pizzahut once again. :x I actually forgot to take picture of the X-men pizza LOL! Introducing to you, the Chicken Promodo (I don't know how spell), featuring our Lychee Sparkles Drink and Emerald Sparkles Drink (green apple). Hahahas! I'm officially sick and tired of Pizzahut now. LOL!

Went Kovan again to bowl, but apparently the bowling alley closed down?! Bangwall. Went Serangoon again (Braddell Heights CC) for a singing session (Vivian said there is a KTV there), but we walked away because it is bloody expensive.

There is nothing for us to do, so we went AMK to walk walk. Saw Xiaofang studying with her friend at Coffee Bean and we wore the same shirts LOLOL (Secondary 3 classtee), hahahas! (:

(Chocolate Origin)

I hereby declared that Chocolate Origin is too sweet for my liking, so this will be my last time eating this. LOLOL! :D Because Huiqi didn't tried before, and I didn't want to just watch people eat, so I grabbed a cup for myself tooos. Hahahas!

Went home for dinner because I am officially broke. LOLOL!

&& I ate my own ice-cream bread on Tuesday after lunch. So I guessed food overdose and as a result, I had a fever. Arghs! I'm off to bed, goodnights world! (:

Touching him is like realising all you ever

wanted was right there in front of you.

Memorizing him was as easy as knowing

all the words to your old favourite song.

Fighting with him was like trying to solve

a crossword and realising there's np right answer.

Regretting him was like wishing you never

found out that love could be that strong.