This is just a sad chapter, you are not a sad story.

(Ripped from Tumblr)

When you are continuously punished for something you did wrong in Y1S1 - which is not studying hard enough.

When I accidentally fell off the boat 2 years ago, I managed to find a floating wooden plank. The currents were very strong, but I grabbed hold onto the plank tightly. It was my lifeline. Then I found my boat, and attempted to climb back bit and bit. I thought I have managed to turn the boat back, but nope, there is an unknown force that kept pulling my leg and dragging me down. I was struggling to keep alive, but they just want me to drown.

Thanks NUS for not giving me opportunities. Or rather, I should have myself to blame because I didn't perform hard enough to gain your recognition. Thanks for making me feel so demoralized and constantly questioning my choice of pursing my degree in NUS.

Don't be afraid of the unknown

That's where all the light is
That's where all the chances are

Sending love a little everyday.

Exactly one month ago, I went for my very first concert!

GEM is definitely one of my favourite Mandopop singer, so I was damn stroked to get her concert tickets! And perhaps because this was my very first concert in my twenty-one years, I was even more excited for it :D I'm super thankful to Hsienhean for the jio! Intern friends are the best yeahs!

During my internship, my mentor, Winnie, was still sharing with me her experience of going to concerts. Hahaha, she said, "This is one exciting part of being a youth" and she strongly urged me to go for one concert at least LOL!

There I go! :DDD

(Claypot Chicken)

Treated Hsienhean to A'One's Claypot Chicken for dinner because he treated me the previous round. $22 for two pax but it wasn't that filling though. Lucky we were both not feeling hungry so the portion was just nice! I wished they gave a bigger portion though because it was quite delicious. Hehes (: Greedy me.

(Queen of Hearts 2017)

Travelled all the way to the East (Singapore Indoor Stadium why oh why is it so far away) just to see my idol. :D I didn't know there were bag checks, so thankfully I didn't bring my camera and all because they were not allowed. And gosh, why ain't we allowed to bring our water bottle inside!! I was feeling quite thirsty because I spent the entire 2h plus singing along with her hehehes :D

(Goddess)

She is damn beautiful gosh. I was sitting quite far away (Category 3 tickets), so my phone couldn't quite capture her face. I just keep spamming pictures of the screen. She still looks good yeahs. She belted out all her hit songs, and hehehes I knew all of them! :D The entire stadium was singing along with her, and the atmosphere was 100/100!

(She showcased her piano skills as well)

I think she covered close to 20 songs? Pop songs, ballads and even rap, she got them all under her belt. Freaking talented, I aspire to be like her. LOL. I was super shocked when some of my friends asked who she is after seeing my Instastory post of the concert. Omg, how can you guys not notice her when she's one of the legends in the Mandopop industry!!

(Rainbow piano? I want!)

The piano is actually white in color. It appears rainbow because of the lighting. This was super well-planned, I'm impressed omg. 

(The scene when she was singing Bubbles)

She was holding onto this piece of long white cloth, and when she reached the chorus, the cloth started flying high in the sky. It was a magnificent sight!? Initially I thought she was wearing a super long gown and her gown suddenly flew up so I thought she going to expose herself or something LOLOL!

She has never let me down. I went for her concert on the second day, but her vocals are still going strong. I'm really, really impressed with her high notes! Really super thanks Hsienhean for asking me along. Hahaha, thanks for thinking of me and remembering that I like her! (:

Would you bring me back to holding hands in the rain?
I swear I'd ease your pain.
Lift you up so you could finally see
The love you are to me

Find a man that makes you feel like a little girl and a grown woman at the same time.

Finished my first presentation of the semester, and yay! I am finally down with one burden. Presentations after presentations, what's new in university life? But I am still unable to overcome that fear of public speaking in me. T.T What should I do to get rid of this fear? Sighs.

Today's presentation groups all did so well, and even though I felt relieved that I'm done with mine, but whenever I compare mine to theirs, I feel so insignificant LOL. Please, Professor Jung please be lenient because we were presenting on the first lesson and had nothing to refer to.

But really, why did the first group have to spoil market and set such a high benchmark?? And why did nobody ask questions for the first two weeks, but people bombed questions for mine. T.T Goodness, I really suck at thinking and coming up with answers on the spot.

(Salmon Sashimi, anyone?)

Itacho Sushi with Vivian again, what's new? LOL, we finally found the 60cents sushi after going there to dinner for numerous occasions. Zzz, is it we dumb or dumb? But despite us ordering the 60cents sushi now, why does the bill still amount to $60+?? Omg, woes of a poor undergraduate.

(Sweet and Sour Sauce)

Some special connotation for the sauce. I think this is a new flavour because I have never across this until now! It tasted okay, quite interesting that sushi can mix with sweet and sour (?) sauce.  

(I forgot what we ordered)

From my memory, I think these are the 60cent sushi and they really taste legit! (: Daebak!

(Smoked duck and salmon)

Who doesn't like these flavours! Hahaha, I think I will eat Itacho everyday if I'm a millionnaire. I really love their quality of food! But they recently changed their ordering system to some phone application which is freaking troublesome. I still have to download the stupid application before I can order wth. Why not just freaking use a iPad zzz. What if my phone got insufficient memory space!

(Curry prawn)

Hahaha I really like this concept, the sushi is just so cute rights! There's both head and tail, LOL. 

(Squid)

Ever since I introduced this grilled squid to Vivian, we have been eating this every time we go Itacho! I would like it better if they serve it less dry! 

(Lady M)

Lamenting about our lives over desserts at Lady M. Really miss her now that she is interning all the way at town, and the poor me is stuck in school. We are so far apart luh, hard to meet also (Okay, more like lazy to travel LOL). During times like this, I really wish I'm interning somewhere instead of studying. T.T But okay luh, grass is always greener on the other side. 

Ever since I started my Y3S1, my life just revolve around school. Sighs, cannot wait for recess week. At least I have more free days then... On a side note, I realised I am really friendless?!? Why do I not have any friends to accompany me for some school event!? Walao damn sian. Humans are also social creatures, I need friends. T.T

To the little boy who dreamed of
flying away with Peter Pan,
To the little girl who never failed
to wish upon a star,
I am sorry the world shattered those
dreams and carelessly labelled them
'growing up' instead of comforting you.
Your innocence deserved better.

Most people need love and acceptance more than advice.

Thinking back on the past 4 weeks of school, I'm just glad that I have got good groupmates this semester. Just that I think they are so darn good, and I'm pulling them down T.T I would say they are very proactive and efficient, which is a very good thing. Not sure why I feel so tired this semester (particularly tired), but it seems like my contribution to the project is so little. x.x And I'm feeling guilty as hell.

Ohwell.

Throwback to last week's lunch @ Menya Musashi with the sister. We went out to run some errands (going Singpost, collecting ezbuy parcels, ordering cake and buying present for mummy's birthday amongst others). Totally spent the entire day out just running around, and I'm beat tired. LOL, I really think my body have aged. Zzz. 

(Gyoza and Octopus)

Each set meal comes with a free side dish, such as chicken karrage and California maki, but in the end we just settled for gyoza and octopus. Spoilt for choices lehs.

(White Cha Shu Ramen)

(Black Cha Shu Ramen)

The 'white' here means the broth is original pork soup, whilst the 'black' means they added garlic oil into the broth. I would prefer the white one! And I need to go and learn how to cool their flavored eggs, omg. It is freaking nice luh!

(Mango Shaved Ice)

We went for desserts afterwards. Being habitual creatures, we sticked back to the mango flavor shaved ice. Hahaha, I have been there a couple of times but all I have tried is the mango one. Time to try new flavors omg.

And yup, we spent around 9 hours outside gosh. Just from running errands. T.T

(Mee Goreng)

There's this new Malay eatery that newly opened in YewTee a few months ago. Decided to give it a try, but nahs, it doesn't warrant another visit there. T.T Sighs, no wonder we noticed that most of the Malays walked out to the opposite Long John Silver after they scanned the menu at this Malay eatery. We should have known better hmm...

(1-for-1 Starbucks with my new friend)

I'm glad that going for Korea summer school gave me a chance to meet new people. (: I stayed in a Airbnb that time with Vivian's friend, Jiashu, and Jiashu's friend, Regine. So in a way, I gained two friends during my trip there :D

And I will be seeing Regine for 3 days a week because we took 3 same modules in NUS. Yay! Is it I finally have a friend to go lessons with! This was totally unplanned, I just met her during classes. Suddenly, I'm ever more grateful to have embarked on the Korea exchange and get to know Regine, and to know that I wouldn't spend my semester alone and feeling so lonely. Hahahaha! 

Lessons from a tree:
Stand tall. Stand proud.
Go out on a limb, drink lots of water.
Enjoy the view. Remember your roots.

Travelling - it leaves you speechless, then turns you into a storyteller.

It has been a week since my bestie flew overseas for her exchange, and I missed her terribly. Sighs.

(Bon Voyage)

Woke up early and went all the way to Changi to send her off. Achievement unlocked because I managed to wake up early and reach on time LOL :D And thankfully, I don't have school that day.

All the best, Amanda! Have fun and enjoy yourself over there! Make new friends and maybe get a new angmoh boyboy when you come back. Hehehehes :D

Throwback to our last outing before she flew. We decided to head to National Gallery to see the YAYOI KUSAMA: Life is the Heart of a Rainbow exhibition. (: Yay, it is so pretty! And also, Manda recently got a camera so we can go to the exhibition and experiment with it!

(Took us a million attempts to get this photo)

And yup, this is like one of my rarest times whereby I could actually feel the author through her exhibitions. The pain, the torture she went through, it was all so visible to me. (Also thanks Amanda for giving me a synopsis before we go, because it helps in my understanding uh HAHAHA)

(My pretty bestie)

We learnt this phototaking trick by observing people. It is like a fisheye effect, but I feel that this is nicer than that. I don't really like how the fisheye effect will make my background looks like it is swallowing the person in the foreground. Hey, I really suck at explaining this type of photography stuff because I'm no expert in photography, but you get what I mean rights! Anyways, I realised that when I start observing my surroundings, I actually gain a lot. LOL! 

(Galaxy Fantasy)

Sorry I just made up a name for this exhibition because I cannot remember already LOL! But yup, I think we faced the wrong side (should face the front instead of the side), hence there's reflection of us. But then again, we were only given 20 seconds inside this exhibition (like wtf can I do in 20 seconds) and there's a couple in front of us so... But I have to admit, this is the most beautiful thing ever! 

(Polka Dots)

This is another cool exhibition whereby we put our heads into this box/container-like thing and tada, a whole new world! It was so pretty even though the orange dots gave me a headache initially. It was all around. LOL! 

(Attempting a candid shot)

Hahaha, thanks Manda for snapping away to get the best candid shot for me. Psssh, I really suck at acting candid, so we really interacted and Manda was just there snapping random shots of me. LOL! But this photo was so nice! I looked so happy hahaha! 

(The way the little boy looks at me. Is he falling in love with me?)

I refused to admit that 90% he is probably judging me instead. LOL! Dropped by the Gallery Children's Biennale 2017 and omg, it is a kids' heaven! Everything is plastered with polka dots and sometimes you just can't really tell what object it is.

(You have to do a double take to realised that there is actually another chair on the other side of the table)

Reminds me of cognitive psychology - how our brains were playing tricks on us. Hahaha! Reality vs perception. Okay enough of psychology, I'm so sick of it. LOL!

(That little girl is the bombz)

Hahaha! The mother was so brilliant to dress the baby girl up in polka dots LOL. Note that she didn't paste polka dots on her dress initially (she did after Amanda asked her to, that's why when we were young, our parents often taught us to not speak to strangers. Amanda, why you so bad influence!) The original dress was already filled with polka dots LOL!

Go visit the exhibition guys, it is free of charge for students! (: I'm not sure if it is still ongoing, so please check before heading down! It is definitely worth the visit.

You took me up to the azure sky,
but you didn't know how to really fly
and we crashed into a heap of
sudden goodbyes.

Basic space, open air. Don't look away when there's nothing there.

It was a disastrous week because last minute I was informed to drop a particular module as I was unable to secure a tutorial slot. I thought that it was freaking bullshit because I managed to get the module (even before bidding; at the MPE stage). But now they are telling me there's insufficient slots?!?

I relented and replaced it with another module in the end. It's not something that I would like, but I guess when life gives you lemons, you just have to make lemonades and get on with life. But geeez, I was having so much trouble getting a tutorial slot.

When I was finally allocated one, they didn't gave me my first choice but instead gave me this particular slot that would put me through 9h of lessons with only an hour break in between. Seriously???

I had emailed. Called. Went down to the office personally. Nothing works until I emailed my professor and tutor for help. Gosh, I swear the office need to go reflect. Seriously why do they have to make life so difficult??

Already a Year 3 student, but still have to settle such issues like a Year 1 Zzz.

~

(Papparich Horfun)

(Papparich Bread)

Throwback to the day whereby Hsienhean brought me to Papparich for dinner and a KTV session after. I really love the Horfun because it has the wokhei, but expensive uh. I think I prefer the Yakun/ToastBox's kaya bread to this steamed ones at Papparich though! X.X

(Fireworks)

We managed to join the crowd for a countdown to National Day! Didn't get a great view because my view was being blocked by a bridge. But nonetheless, the fireworks were magnificent!

I enjoyed myself at the KTV also because it was the first time I sang for 3h without breaking voice. And I think I outdone myself by being able to reach the high notes for 煎熬! Achievement unlocked! :D

(Real fireworks on the actual day)

It has been a long time since I went out on National Day to catch the fireworks! But I'm glad that I did because the view was breathtaking! Went Old Airport Road for dinner (finally satisfied my cravings for carrot cake) before walking down to Kallang Wave to see these beautiful fireworks! Thanks Junhao for the jio! 

(Photo was taken after all the crowds had dispersed)

I was amazed to see people having picnics at the area. It was quite a good choice uh, because they can enjoy the view by the sea. I would say that Singapore's night lights were one of the best I have ever seen. (:

I saw a guy playing his guitar, serenading his girlfriend, and unconsciously, I was just sitting around and listening to him as well. His voice was so soothing. It was a romantic image. Ahh... 

(Starbucks addict)

I admit I am a Starbucks addict. Queued for 30 minutes for these babies because Starbucks were being generous again with their 1-for-1 offer! Mocha coffee pudding and matcha earl grey jelly, two of my favourite flavors!

With vision, stardust,
and heartstrings.
Bridge the gap
between dreams
and reality.

You're a beautiful kind of madness, a misunderstood truth.

Happiness.

Happiness is being able to see familiar faces in an unfamiliar environment.

Today, I saw Olivia walking out of my PL3233 lecture. Even though we are not close, at least I know there is someone whom I know is taking the same module as me! We waved hi, and yay, my heart is happy.

I went to the CNM office afterwards to settle some administrative stuff, and when I reached the office, someone called out to me. To my pleasant surprise, it was Vivian Phang. Whoa, I thought our friendship was gone because we didn't keep in contact during the entire summer break. Hahaha! And yay, I am meeting her for lunch next week. No more eating waffles alone :D

Just a background information, I am some dependent soul who doesn't like to be seen eating my meals alone. So I usually just grab waffles and eat on the go if I'm alone. #sadlife Unhealthy lifestyle, I know. But at least I have more time to myself - do work. LOL.

After which, I headed to the Dean's Office and to my bigger surprise, I met Chinlee and her friend. LOL, she's my first OG friend I made but also someone whom I didn't continue keeping contact with. Oops I'm guilty. I learnt that she's going SEP too, and really at that moment, I felt a tinge of jealousy. But ohwell, yanqi get over it.

Yup, fighting alone and trying to survive in NUS. I'm still learning to adapt and cope with being alone. Good progress along the way, but not quite there yet. Independence 101 :(

Throwback to the carefree days.

(One Michelin)

JJ suggested dining at this cheapest One-Michelin eatery, and I readily agree! This place is called Liao Fan Hong Kong Soya Sauce Chicken Rice and Noodle, and it is quite cheap considering it has michelin stars. Hahahaha! One plate of chicken rice only costs $3.80. Actually I would consider it to be slightly above average chicken rice price though.

I think I can find cheaper chicken rice priced around $2.50 at hawker centers. And I personally prefer those because of the rice. The michelin eatery's rice is the normal white rice. LOL, disappointed. x.x

(Woodlands Waterfront)

JJ: The skies are damn dark.

Me: I will edit it!

But being the lazy me, the editing didn't come about. Hahaha, no filter guys. The scenery still looks breathtaking rights! 

(Another view)

Sorry if I sounded stupid, but is it Malaysia on the other side? Or is it still Singapore? Hahaha, y'know you are at Woodlands after all... 

(I love the colors)

Recently I'm playing with the thought of getting a camera. I'm still looking around, but investment costs high ehs. I'm afraid that this new toy will only last me for a short while, and I will get sick and tired of it soon. Zzz.

(Achievement)

This picture was taken after I conquered this entire obstacle. LOL, it was so horrible because I was absolutely in the wrong foot wear. LOL, I went with a sandals that have kitten heels so my heels kept getting stuck in the ropes zzzz.

(Souvenirs from the West)

More souvenirs from the Western countries! (: Hahaha, the bag is in a pretty shade of pink, I like it! There's caramel cookies, bookmark and keychain as well. I'm blessed. (:

Thanks for driving me around (: I think I pretty much enjoyed the feeling of being chauffered, but nahs, once one experienced too much of such privilege, I will become pampered.

Nothing gives away more meaning

Than to act

Act towards and say yes

To becoming you